i just noticed today that the ads show up with the no ads checkbox at least in firefox 8.0 (for mint linux 1.0) they are... i realize sometimes the ad disable dissapears but this time it's saying ads are disabled but are loading them anyways... it could be because of mint linux or something, but i don't know.

i hear some people claim piracy will never end as long as home computers have internets... but the cure for this is knowledge. the internet has many game review sites, with many good reviews and gamefaqs has hints and guides as well as reviews, which enable readers to pick games not by piracy but through sharing of information. movies are easy to rent, stream etc. unless you are pirating for the sake of pirating there are few reasons to pirate if you can afford a computer. the sole reason to pirate left is to waste other people's money/time/resources. unless you have a bit of paper that makes it legal to download. i used to differ in opinion, but i grew up a little and realize that it doesn't matter who pirates or why it's just silly to build a computer to serve media and then block everyone from using it even if they paid for access to the computer or need the knowledge to make things work in a sane way. so basically i don't care about copyright, but i know ways to find out what is nice and what is fun without having to screw people over. even if those people screwed others over to make a quick buck here or there. imdb is a good site for film knowledge. at some level i think that movies and tvs were meant to access vast dbs of knowledge simply for the benefit of society but for that books alone are enough, a book(movie script) is to a movie what a midi/musical notation is to music and the technology was i think meant to benefit society and piracy is a personal choice not a mandate, not a cure. but a way to take knowledge to process so you don't shut down completely...

I am back here again... i am so sick of windows that i moved my laptop to mint linux , but am having kernel power management issues (which i know are now fixed) streaming video is tough when it powers you off in ten minutes without being configurable. i don't know if i'll bother writing with no audience here but i am reading the so called news for nerds.

i got in a tight situation, managing a computer... i tried an hp upgrade to win7, but microsoft rejected the key, so i rolled back to vista. only instead of using microsoft backup or another backup program i tried windows easy transfer because i thought it would be the easiest, only now vista rejects the mig file i tried renaming the file to what vista expected but it rejected the file as non-valid. so i tried to find a mig extractor, because then i could manually replace the files. i already saved the photos and desktop items manually anticipationg problems, but no programs. still i wasn't expecting vista to reject a win7 migration file. since this is the same computer i can't get back the files easily, as it used a full format... the main reason i'd like a tool for this is that it saves me having to reconfigure a lot of settings.

my first computer was a knockoff pong my second a 8080 adam, my third an ibm clone, my fourth a pack bell my fifth another pack bell, my sixth a compaq laptop, which was my least stable machine, foof bug and all. my seventh-fourteenth a total build up from parts, except my second laptop, I am now at third laptop so 16 computers, plus consoles
nes snes n64 genesis game boy gba nds plus cars and dvd players... oses used windows 3.11 95 98 xp freebsd debian knoppix damn small linux dragonfly bsd and of course proprietary oses on consoles. all in 33 years. btw yesterday was the first crash i've had on a computer since 2006.

well the word 'phosphorus' and the fossfor.us make me wonder...

an update i have had a lot of problems with my own thoughts and know that drugs wont fix it. therapy might but i do not think i need to sterilize my thoughts just to please a few. i am not a programmer, just a wondering journaler. okay more than that. christmas went well again, my thoughts were not sterile, nor something that made me happy, i think i navigated well through the same old story problems. i skilfully purchased small items like a good little consumer, however i dislike the gift buying consumer driven economy even if we have nice shiny toys. not my problem since others seem to revel in joy at this crazy society. supposedly a 10,000 year old problem if i trust a lonely writer. i don't need to change but i do need someone willing to stop me form getting everything i ask for, as if i knew what i was doing. i love my life but would rather have a woman than a tv set and a laptop. i love my friends from here and facebook which is mostly my family my face book if you don't know is under my real name ryan ryttie. i will be connecting here again because i no longer blame all my problems on slashdot when i was making bad choices.

i rested up and am now feeling more hyperactive than ever, so lets talk.

my name is ryan, i am 32 years old according to the calendar they have me on. according to some i need drugs for mental illness. i am only willing to stay on the drugs if they are really safe and necessary. i am sorry about how easily i got confused. i am sorry for all my lies and stupid games, i am sorry.

i wont get married in game, i promise. i will still hurt people who stay around me, but that is true of everyone you meet.

the internet really is a sword made of light. i am changing in ways i never thought i could, i thought that i would always think only of myself. i still think about myself a lot, but i am willing to change but only if the change is real, none of this telling me one thing then going ahead and keep doing wrong behind my back and especially treating god the same way. that does not mean doing everything i ever wanted, seriously i am angry when i am told something and it winds up being a lie. just because i have good reasons to lie doesn't mean everyone gets to lie. just because i have lied doesn't mean i'm a criminal. the laws are written down, and whomever thought it was fun to deny me my social security back pay check, which is all right there in american law and i paid into social security, i am very upset over the disability check which i should have gotten in November.

i ponder this what is my fate? i'm having a slightly paranoid day, but it is a sunday.

i no longer am ranting or raving about hackers. i feel safe journaling again and facebook just doen't cut it for longer journals. open source is inexorablly woven so tightly that it's hard to imagine a world without open source. here is a list of whats wrong with the power draining devices i only power up when in use. the cablebox everything except channel surfing is foobared but tv isn't good for me especially the commercials the time is frozen at 12:00 pm in the guide. i messed up an upgrade to windows 7 by screwing up on the date by one day and got 60 identical emails in the email i use for facebook. end list. i would like living somewhere warm away from snow, but the frigid north is in my blood, a saying meaning i am genetically suited to cold climates. i have a small fortune to spend from my disability back pay and don't know what to spend it on. i am single, with no bills, and have enough power sucking toys and don't have a clue whats been manufactured for sale. i just turned 32 on my november birthday. i might have a possible girlfriend, no i lie, but it seems to me like there have been times where it seems that someone has been doing stuff to try and make me happy a little too zealously. my stand on this is simple i am not exceptionally smart and have made bad and good choices. i have been 'enlightened' so to say. part of that is why i am journaling here again. i find the internet an easier way to communicate, that said i've got a shrink, and my case manager, and a person to play cards with each week. the only thing missing from my life is a signifigant other and i want to be very clear over 30 years old. someone who has met my mother and has her blessings is ideal, i can convert my religion, currently lutheran, if needed. yeah still a mommies boy after all these years. so this is a short roundup of whats going on in my world inside my head. i slipped on the no gaming, but i didn't obsess over the gaming. and yes pandora pandora pandora, i get the hint, i think. maybe not, i don't know who to ask or if there is really anything wrong with pandora, this reality could be but an illusion. sorry i'm not good at mincing words (a saying that means not good at word games) anywho i am feeling very good and am in good health and i am keeping secrets that should stay secrets. slashdot changed a lot since i last posted here.

and i am on a computer in a house full of my family. at my apartment i am not currently feeling safe to internet even though online i find it easier to get a circle of friends to talk about some of my issues. i quit video gaming cold turkey but i can't say it's not tempting for me to get internet and only power it on for a bit of controlled gaming and putting the generally recognized as safe journal entries. i worry because even with my 'handle' here there are times i worry that the internet journal because i've hidden only my real identity and not the problems but it seems at times i put in stuff that makes it easier to be targeted based on what i've said. on the other hand i consider the effort that people have put into helping me deal with my problems.

i feel like i need to actually do something that fits my worldview. which basically goes back to doing god's will. there are times i don't trust my own family which is why none of them have heard from me that i have an internet handle. the medications i am on have negative side effects along with the good. i have access to money to buy a vehicle to maybe get a laptop or i could just donate some to some place that helps the rain forests not be felled by simple greed.

anyway where was i yes, the internet is a wonderful technology but sometimes i wonder if life wasn't a whole lot simpler before we became an internet connected society. this won't be my last post here but i think for a while i will try to keep my life simple. i liked my innocence while i had it, and i still stand by lives being enjoyable and sustainable. i almost kicked my tv habit. i almost gave up meat, but the diet i tried was primarily dairy for protein and it didn't hold off the 'shakes' something i got from my mom's side of the family a lack of protein and i literally get nearly faint.

my new blog is http://freeasinlibre.blogspot.com/

yeah lucky me i got free as in Libre ;)

I had a really bad relapse due to a medication problem.

it was brought on when i asked the doc to take me off invega, because i was having paranoid thoughts, about how everything was getting worse and worse for myself and family.

I'm on a stronger injected medicine with a very nasty memory loss side effect. considering my schizophrenia was already contributing to memory loss, this like would make me completely unable to function if used for prolonged periods.

there are safer medications for schizophrenia, but i had a compliance issue, however invega can also treat the side effects of conventional psychotic drugs according to wikipedia.

oh yeah, I'm contemplating switching my blog and my online handle, and perhaps use a site like deviant art, and when i get back home to have a broader goal of using art tools like the GIMP to kill time and avoid the addictive effects of the internet.

yeah yeah i'm wrong a lot and sometime promise things i can't deliver. so what, magic and miracles are the work of a higher power, science can't prove that, since science is simple observation. and no i don't read the KJV of the bible what the heck does an English king have anything to say about what really belongs in the bible.

in general i look at spirituality over semantics. If you make life better for all the creatures of nature, then you're doing the work of a higher power.

almost everyone has surge strips, and there are all manner of devices we leave plugged in all the time. I've gone to the trouble of using switches for everything i know drains a lot of power when not in use. i used a living room light switch, and 4 of my surge strips and 2 inline switched for 2 prong devices.

i've set my computers to wake up after power loss, and use the led in my mouse to tell when to switch off my toys.

not quite as good as having a 38 watt flat panel monitor, but i didn't have to invest a single dollar to save tons of money, well it would if i paid the electric bill.

as a secondary benefit devices with a switch turned off are less likely to take damage in a lighting storm since lighting follow the pat of least resistance towards the ground.

I've done a lot to reduce my carbon footprint. it wasn't hard i also put a single CF bulb in the place of the 5 incandescent bulbs in my bedroom's ceiling fan.