...or, why don't they want me?

I acknowledged something today.

The enterprises are the same and scenery is remarkably the same. Nowadays, I have been warned and people hardly could surprise me.

I failed... or did I escape?

Java is not the fuss anymore, and would not be that for me anyway. The Blue is a magnificent company, unfortunately I went there the wrong way. Every place can be wonderful when you are focused and points at the right kind of people and activity. I am seriously training myself to tell between delusion and other delusion.

I do not want to use Windows anymore... not when I finally have the means to build a kernel, when I have every software I love up and running with every machine I can get. If you are a potential employer... keep this point in mind. If you are dealing with me you may face the style I am used to. I am a bad poker player, more likely adept of logic than magic. I believe what I can see. And I have a sharp sight. My style is very based on clear goals and astonishing frankness. I don't know how to play and I don't tell jokes.

* alien9 went to a job interview and performed really really bad - and is having some fun.

Nowadays, religion stands as shelter for people. Maybe despite the evidences, the still mean comfort and some mysterious form of satisfaction.

In certain contexts it is more than an individual choice: it is a certification with ethic purposes. Divine threat still keeps many of us from doing simply as bad as we can.

So, everyone may be somehow comfrontated with a situation of pressure related to someone's concepts. I remember once the company I was working at to be visited by a priest, to give a kind of bless to people. Imagine a fat, old drunk piece of crap, that the priest was. I standed up with no laugh in the meantime.

Later, it turned out to me to discover a keylogger operating in my station.

Besides I went pissed off I still realized that, from certain people's ethics, there's nothing wrong with the attitude of stealthy peeking at the employee's screen and keyboard; for obscure reason the same people define as a major lack of respect to not comply with the company regarding to the subject of god.

What should be the positive attitude?

From past experiences, I learned to hide away flamebait opinions. At some moment I always fall into moral disgrace from blasphemy: Threatened by immaginary friends of someone else.

Dog bless you all!

I am a pursuer of beauty. Aesthetics is very much a goal in itself. Whatever we are doing here, it is far more satisfying when it is accomplished the right way the first time, with a deceptfully simple brilliance motivated by simplicity.

Each one of us leave a noticeable fingerprint on the things we create.

Mine is to have a well used resource and a fairly decent result.

Software is an industry like many others. We have the tools, the concepts and meanings to achieve goals. It's safe to say there are roughly infinite ways to do it, from the choice of tools to the particular team assembly and assigning roles to each member. Using the right tool for the job.

There is a lot of influence involved, from the authoring pride to the final concept, in the software development process.

I find the comparison of development tools to Lego bricks very meaningful, as early described by Douglas Coupland. The assumption that lego bricks are used to play with and to create sets that resemble entire worlds. As such, I have been using these bricks since a long time ago and dealing with many species as results. Some of them monstruous, some tiny and some of them pretty useful and, nevertheless, beautiful.

The bricks are the pieces of software. They have no sole meaning. They need to be part of something. As an individual, they don't make any reasonable sense.

So I've been playing with them. In many flavors. We are building our micro universe from the code entropy as we build the motherships with Lego blocks.

The reason why we play is because we like it, we enjoy the experience and the accomplishment. Sometimes the construction itself is worth it, and the final product is even immediately destroyed to provide salvage parts. Sometimes the code is deprecated and leaves just the evolution concept involved in its creation. Nothing is ever thrown away.

Lego bricks are sold in a variety of presets, which are joined to form a bigger set, always far more powerful than two separated, meaningless sets.

So, what is the veredict? Should I create my set using pre-built bricks? A framework is a pre-built, more or less closed piece of software which is intended to be integrated to our own product. There are plenty of solutions doing the same or very similar tasks to our own internally born solutions; How to detect when is it time to buy the ready-made or when is it time to put our creative skill to accomplish some award winning, from-scratch amazing feature?

I guess pre-built solutions are kind similar to "star wars set Lego". A lot of pre-molded cast features, and unique-purpose model. As a player, I get sactisfaction both from the act of building and from the end result - at last, profit from it is high efficiency and pride for its beauty.

My screenplay is far different from a jedi trip.

From the industry point of view the closed solution pragma used to mean more control over the results, even if open sorce. And to end user development the pre-built brings fast implementation, the acquisition of a ready-made as a fast track to operate. And as side effect, a lot of bloated software intended to be the Component of the Century.

I for one do not want to build the mothership from scratch. I just want to grant myself the choice of the best parts to do it.

I hate Xmas. I feel sad at this time because the holidays. I feel people both so naive and hypocrite. I really don't find fun anymore at Xmas. When I was in London I saw the famous trend to greet 'happy holidays' instead 'merry xmas'. New times, when muslims are part of the market and diversity is on the tune. Now Jews are having chanuka peacefully. OK, that's nice. I don't complain about that. I am actually pretty unaware of it all.

The point is, sincerely inspired by Richard Dawkins concept that religion is the great delusiuon and a subject to an attack from clearified minds, I see modern holidays concept as more degradating event than it was before, when it used to be a religious celebration with every sort of religious mockery.

My unfortunated city is collapsing by the rush of its citizens for holiday shopping season, a coletive move which is destinated to provide goods for a maeaningless celebration of welfare, orgy of banalities, empty ceremony for nothing and a really catastrophic situation. The poor ones stalking the riches' tables.

I am actually very close tyo my relatives. I enjoy being together with my wife and my kids. I have that kind of deep respect to ancestors.

The point about Christmas and such things is that they do not improve human relationship the way it is supposed to. Instead, they are a celebration of success to the economy, the industrial apotheosis, a hill of brand new bright toys which end up to the landfill next year. Why is not anyone angry about that waste?

I turn into desperation seeing Jesus The Holy Child turning into Santa the Holy Gift Dropper. That sort of modern mythology we are deep throated with nowadays. I miss the Poor Litle Bastard. Just because the replacing myth is still worst. I don't see any progress.

By the way, I thankfully accept gifts from you.

The tramp sings at the train to Genova. I remember him, from one and half hours ago. He walked around as someone both worried and lost in his own thoughts.
Now he sings. People discreetly smile. He is singing along his own music player, mesmerizing something from a song. I am wondering abut how funny it is, a lost and dirty boy, maybe not exactly a boy, something like 30 years old and still travelling with mp3player and a backpack as contemporary beatnik maybe.
Suddendly I found what is that song, Nirvana's 'Lithium', and he sings it as a modern Kurt, seeming so lost and alone as Kurt Cobain used to show himself up...
The girls now lose shyness, the guy standing at the car's door also laughs, we all share the moment and the sarcasm raises as the nice and almost clean people compare themselves with that lost piece of a human been... sad boy, but also not worried at all, he is excluded from some play and he doesn't care.

Sometimes we developers may think what to aim at as a career goal. What do we expect to be 10 years from now? An important goal is to achieve some more wisdom. In another view, we do expect to accumulate value. And maybe avoid failures and decadence.
Well, at this poit of my life I realize that is very important to do influence over people. It's a satisfaction mechanism. In fact, a few things are more pleasant than perceiving the penetration of our culture in our fellow human beens. The act of replicate the self-born concept in someone's mind is undoubtely grateful.
As a software developer that idea seems to be non-obvious... working at some obscure system, poor expectations should arise from the absenbce of glamour of a life on the backstage of some clerks department.
Let's do something great, instead.