I hurt so bad I can't describe it. The closest thing I can think of would be an elephant standing on my chest and head. I can't breathe. I've barely eaten all day. I keep trying to make myself, but I can't. I hate this. I can't believe he told me all that shit about it was ok with them if we wanted to date. I'm just sick of them. I'm not going to say anything about what I'm going to do because I'm too emotional to make any decisions. I know I will wait on Boo if that is what it takes, but I hope it doesn't come to that. And as always I will try to do what God wants. It has just never been this painful before. Heh. Funny thing is, I know Mom is praying for us right now. I can feel it. I'm starting to feel better already. Not great, but bearable. I hope Boo can feel it too. I miss her so much already.