you did not allow yourself to get sucked into the hatred vortex.
Both political parties have operators who build careers on trying to get they supporters to hate the other side as much as possible. The energy is politically useful. I'm going to say some stuff that will make me look like a Trump fanboy (unavoidable when taking certain positions or debating Trump opponents or clarifying some Trump-related thing) but what I'm trying to point out is bi-partisan manipulations and you happen to have taken the anti-Trump side, so the contrary view looks pro-Trump. Try to overlook that and examine why you are actually so fixated on this one person and so affected. There are lots of worse people on Earth and even in politics, but there are people who NEED you to hate this one.
Usually, the effort fails to fully impact the psyche of the people on the right, probably because they TEND to be more religious and it TENDS to be Judeo-Christian, so the there's self-imposed moderation to the negative impulses for most. There's a reason why every single Presidential assassin in US history has been to the political left of his/her target. People on the right mostly get worried about left-leaning leaders and hate their POLICIES, but they don't generally get more frothing-at-the-mouth. You did not see them parading around with beheaded Biden or Obama sculptures, doing theater productions of the assassinations of Obama or Biden, demanding boycotts of companies owned by associates of Obama or Biden, etc. To be clear: I'm talking generalities here, there's ALWAYS a nutjob or two exception everywhere in the political spectrum.
The ability of the manipulators on the left to get left-leaners hyper-agitated by Trump (and now Musk) has by contrast been an impressive thing to behold. They have their people convinced Trump (the guy they used to like and even award for his "patriotism, tolerance, and diversity") is a racist, that he supported Nazi skinheads in Charlottesville, that Musk is a racist who did a Nazi salute in Madison Square Garden (which they are now also convinced was a Nazi rally site of the '30s) and on and on. There are all sorts of manipulators now trying to convince people Trump just was there for a medal for giving money...they're counting on you believing Rosa Parks and Muhammad Ali would pose with a racist (and their opponents try to convince people Trump was given a medal by the NAACP, these are BOTH manipulations). They certainly do not want you knowing he blew apart the restrictions many clubs in Palm Beach had against blacks and Jews, and when forced to admit it they'll try to convince you it was all done to make Trump money (NOT that he did not DO it). Remember all those spontaneous fights breaking out at Trump rallies in 2016? How aware are you that Hillary campaign people were paying people to go to those rallies and start fights? Two Hillary campaign people were caught on video bragging about it and you can hear how it unfolded here. To be clear, this is right-leaners and left-leaners exposing the manipulation. It's all a manipulation. They do not play these games with history when it touches the people on their side of the aisle. It works (to some extent anyway) for the people pushing it, but it's making a lot of their followers miserable as they think they're now living under some hyper-oppression and cannot understand the popularity of the leader they are convinced is a fascist dictator.
Trump's not some super-powered criminal genius; he's a rather flawed person, like most politicians. The secret sauce is simple: Trump's just taking the 80% side of every 80%/20% issue in the country. Most people want an end to waste fraud and abuse and politicians in both parties have promised it for decades but he's actually trying to do something about it while traditional Republicans AND Democrats never actually did; the establishments of BOTH parties spent DECADES promising they would deal with this and NEITHER side did anything. Every single high-profile thing Trump is doing was at one time or another in the very recent past a DEMOCRAT position. You can find Obama Biden and Clinton all on video railing about illegal immigration and demanding deportations. You can find them all promising to eliminate "waste fraud and abuse". You can find them all wanting to stop all the involvement in foreign wars, and get our trading partners to stop cheating, wanting our NATO partners to take on more of the burdens of the alliance and prodding them to do it, etc. While you cannot perhaps find videos of Biden promising to stop all the gender stuff, Hillary and Obama both publicly championed traditional family and marriage positions, and they both claimed they wanted abortions legal BUT RARE. There's simply no position of Trump which is to the right of John F Kennedy in 1960, yet the Democrats of today still sorta worship at the altar of JFK. This is how you know it's a manipulation. LOOK at the actual policy directions and positions. Democrats within my lifetime have held every one of them, but now Trump is a "fascist" for having them and Musk is a "fascist" for supporting him?
Ask yourself how many people you personally know were just as angry about Obama and his supporters or Biden and his supporters as you are being encouraged to be towards Trump and his supporters. Did you find many of THEM who refused to be friends with (or date or marry or work with or buy stuff from, or sell stuff to) people who supported Obama or Biden? How many of them did you see physically assault people they saw with a hat or bumper sticker for Obama or Biden? As upset and frustrated as they were, how many did you see being physically violent? Consider: Trump will certainly do stuff the left does not like, just as Obama and Biden did stuff the right did not like. Trump's actually likely to have a smaller anti-left legacy than Obama's anti-right legacy, given that Obama's two terms were consecutive and HIS atty gen publicly bragged he was Obama's "wing man". The energy levels pushing the hatred are all out of proportion.
Before you jump up with a January 6th reference, go look at actual video of that day WITH THE SOUND OFF so you do not hear a biased commentator telling you what to think about what you're seeing. Watch to see what percent of the crowd actually does any violence and then observe how many only did violence AFTER attacks by capitol police. Ask yourself why Capitol police opened doors for those people, escorted them around, invited them in, etc and why so many stood passively and watched the protesters walk about in the building without ordering them to leave. Then ask yourself why you were told many police were killed by the protesters that day (none were) and why one who died in his home a day later from a stroke was given a Capitol routunda ceremony and presented as having been killed by protesters (the autopsy showed no such thing). Hint: There's a reason why the same people who want you mad also refused to allow you to see 99% of the Capitol Hill security video. That building belongs to the American people, the videos all belong to the American people. What are you not allowed to see?
There were tons of right-of-center Americans who really hated what LBJ was doing to the country and disliked the man himself very intensely. They disliked his election tactics and campaign. They disliked what he was doing to the economy, doing with the bureaucracy, foreign policy, etc. That did NOT stop them from being enthusiastic about the Apollo program and the people doing that work, no matter how politically entangled those people were with LBJ. There were lots of Americans who did not like what FDR was doing politically or to the government and the economy before and during WWII, but that did not make them hate all of his associates and the war effort.
The political manipulators on both sides were not as skilled in the sixties. They've had about 6 decades to increase their effectiveness.
People NEED you upset. The opponents of those people NEED their people upset. The more the better from the perspective of these toxic operators. With government involved in nearly everything, there's BILLIONS and perhaps even TRILLIONS of dollars on the line with all the policy changes that can result from any presidential election. Just what will these people DO for a billion (or a trillion) dollars?
Stop playing the game.
This broad-spectrum anger aimed at a politician and his supporters does not generally hurt him or them. It's just corrosive of the soul... of the person doing the hating. Help yourself have a happier life. DISLIKE and DISAPPROVE of Trump and his supporters all you want FOR THEIR ACTUAL ACTIONS, but don't let others talk you into HATING and particularly for things that are not even real or for things the people encouraging hatred have actually themselves supported/done.