Well its been awhile since my last journal entry and I hope you'll all forgive me :-)

Well I'm still dating the same girl, her name is Margaret, she's abit younger then me (by a couple of months) but things are going fine.

I'm amazed how much things have changed recently, every so often I have to take a step back and gasp in amazment, its strange....I think I'm just not used to such massive change even if it is quiet brilliant.
Rite I'm taking crap yet again so I'll shut up.

Well its coming upto christmas I'm woundering what to get Margaret, does anyone have any ideas?

Still hard at work, work over christmas kinda sucks but its better then being broke all the time.
Because of the shift work I'm doing now (anything between 08:00 and 00:00) I've lost track of the days of the week, which is ALOT of fun :-P

My standard of living is up by 300%, I want for nothing, have no depts and no loans and straight off buy anything I want rather then paying for it each week.
yes, yes I know, I should save money for a rainy day and I am. But still its good.

so generally life is good!!

I even felt /. deserves some of my nwe found money and signed up for a supscription for here (10 worth) since the site has been such a good source of news and interest.

On that note I still think a system in which a person can donate 1c (thats euro cent, not US cent :) ) to a site they'd like.
It would be cheap, you could have a budget of 5 a month or something and if a site gets like 5000 visits a day and every second visitor donates 1c the site would be doing well..

Well its been 3 months now and I still am with my girlfriend, I think I deserve a min-wave for myself :-)

This time last year I could never have imagined such events, well planning a nice romantic weekend away soon.
Hopefully things will go well

Woohooo!!! :-D

Well after two weeks of "training" at AOL I've got the job, and I start Monday.

It pays dam good money so I'm happy, I've almost all my debts paid off at the moment and two weeks from now I'll have them all paid off and I can relax abity more.

So that part of my life is going GOO0D!

The other part is also going good, I still have a girlfriend, though she's gone on Holidays this week to Spain.
She'll be back on Monday so that'll be nice.

This week I'm going about getting into a night course or two, one that I have in mind is Novell/Linux/Mac & Windows networks, it don't cost that much and it'll come in handy.

Well things are good for a change and I'm dam happy :D

Wow so many changes, WERE do I start?
I suppose I should start from the beginning, in my last entry I mentioned I had a new job.

Well my new job was nothing great, I was working in a shop and only got paid 6.39 per hour so it was pretty crap to be honest.
Anyway I worked there for just over a month untill I was fired.

There's a nice little story to the being fired part :-D

While I was working in the shop I kept on looking for a new job and I got one.
From tomorrow I'm working in Technical Support in AOL, its 1 more per hour (starting off) plus it'll look better on my CV :)
Anyway about two weeks ago I went to AOL and did the entry test and the interview few hours later they phoned me and told me I had the job YEAHHH!

So the next day I was at work in the shop and the boss starting telling me off about something she had ALREADY told me off for twice before, she just decided to pick on me yet again and well frankly I felt I didn'ent need to take it anymore.
So I told her off for treating her staff like CRAP! and told her she shouldn't do what she's doing.

Three days later I was let go because apparently "I wasn't able for the work"

Now I know alot of people will say "thats real life" but its not, I'm a honest employee, even if I do crap work I still don't steal from my employer. I always do the best I can, but when the boss is'ent nice, life is to short to put up with it every day.

Anyway onto the next part of whats happened since my last Journal entry.

I have a GIRLFRIEND, yes thats right!
You read it correctly.

I'm expecting the world to end any second now :-)

Met her about 3 and a half weeks ago and straight away we hit it off, which is VERY unusual for me.
None the less things are going well.

I've done ALOT of things in the past 3 and a half weeks that I've NEVER done before, that includes making love.

Its been a most interesting couple of weeks I must say.

Right, I better get back to work, will try write in my journal more often now :)

Its been a strange week, I've FINALLY got myself a second job so I can now afford to have more then the basics.
Uptill now I've been living on my one day of working per week, which *just* covered basic rent and food.
Although for the past few weeks I've been doing almost a full weeks work because staff were on Holidays.
Anyway its great now, I have money at last!!!

Now, time to buy the XDA O2 Phone thingy :D

Wow,
its been a long long time since I've posted in this journal of mine.
To be honest not much has happened, Hmm let me try remember where I left off.

Ah yes, last I left off I had just broken up with Trish, well we're still friends, even more so then before we got together, strange that...

I know at this stage It sounds like a broken record but I'm still friends with Linda, though recent events mean I may not see her for sometime, but thats a story for her journal not mine, besides it kind gets very personal and I don't want to write about her life in that kinda detail it is'ent my place.

Anyway, I've found the strangest things happened to me lately, Last week I lost out on a full time job in Galway and yeah I was pissed off about it, but the first thing I did that evening after I got off work was phone Linda to make sure she was ok, now I know that may not sound STRANGE.
But it is to me, you see, before if something like that happened to me I would have been pissed off for ages and I would have sat in self-pitty for a good number of days, I guess this means I've grownen up....just a shame it took till I was 21 for it to happen.

Well these days I'm almost pennyless because I only have a weekend job and I'm living away from home this summer, but considering the fact I have hardly any money I'm still not going to move back home even though I could at anytime.
Infact I'm in work right now, waiting.

Waiting for what you may ask, well I'm waiting for a girl to come in here, she's a regular and I've got talking to her a few times and all that.
And well today if she comes into work I'm gona ask her out, yep thats right, I'm gona ask her out.
ITS MADNESS I know but I've grown alot since Trish, you wouldn't believe how much.

When I went out to nightclubs before this year I used to hate them, I used to sit in the corner and want to be at home, yes I know what your saying "Your sad!!" but hay that was the old me.
The new me, is the person who now goes out and enjoys himself, I enjopy the night for what it is, I don't get pissed off because I'm not with some girl like I used to and I gota say its certainly a GREAT change.

I've dragged myself up from the technological Monk I was becoming and changed myself into someone who is better then most lads (guys) my age, why you may ask?.
Well because I have honor, something most lads (guys) around here don't have, I've seen what most lads around here do and well I've always thought to myself that I'll NEVER do what they do, this may sound strange but atleast I can try not to do what they do.

Ok I'll just shut up now because I'm just rambling on and on and its getting boring.
I guess I should post in my journal when I can remember something interesting I've done.

Oh here's something thats scary, no offense to any American who reads this but a American came into work last week and asked me a question, it went something like this:
"I know you have to drive on the left hand-side in Ireland, but when your passing someone on a footpath (pavement) do you pass them on the left or right hand-side?"
I explained to him that it does not matter but frankly I don't think he believe me, Judging by the look on his face.

Well things didn't work out with Trish, we've decided to be just friends.

So its back to single town to me, kind of sucks, but I'll guess I'll live
I moved flat last Tuesday, new flat has no phoneline so no internet access unless I go to a internet cafe :(

The lease is only for 12 weeks (summer months only) then I'll have to find a new place.
I'm not going to complain, the rent is only 40 a week (cheaper then old flat) and its ALOT bigger/cleaner/nicer then my old flat. Although its a 35min walk to the center of town (used to have to walk 15min)
Bring my old bike down this week so I'll be able to make it into town in less then 10min :)

Job hunting at the moment, as I'm going to need a job for the whole of this year untill I can finish some things.
Might do a night course during the year because I won't be going back to college untill next year.

Well the 3rd date went well, was a good night out and we stayed up till 4am talking.

Since I was kinda overly shy Thursday at times I want to make up for it, so here's my plan
I'd like to take her to dinner, but due to money problems this week I can't, soooooooooooooooooooo

I'm going to make her dinner, Not going to do starters as its to much work and I have alot of work to do before hand.
Going to make Spaghetti Bolognaise and then deserts and drinks after that and watch a film after the meal.

Some slight problems with the plan, I plan doing the meal on Tuesday night.
But first I have to get rid of my other two flatmates for the night, also have to do alot of cleaning up cause my flatmates are messy pigs!

Wish me luck, hopfully things will go to plan or atleast somewhat to plan.

Well things have changed abit since my last entry, I mentioned Trish a few journal entrys back.

Well we went on a date tonight (second date I suppose), to the cinema to see Starwars Ep 2 (she likes Sci Fi) anyway we didn't do much, just held hands for about half the film which was nice.
At the end before she went home I didn't kiss her (though I wanted to) just didn't feel like the right moment.

I'm taking things easy, one step at a time as I want to be sure of what I'm doing.
Going on anther date tomorrow night, though thats not 100% yet.
Have to txt her tomorrow about it.

On a side note, Starwars Ep 2 was bloody great, it beats Ep 1 by miles!
Best 7 I spent in awhile.

A-Team Extravaganza Day
23 January Join Sean O'Quigleys band wagon..Remember Mob Rules, Rules !

To commemerate the day the legendry television show The A Team first aired on T.V.

On this day every year, we would all either smoke cigars or wear gold jewlery and use phrases like "nice B.A." "I love it when a plan comes together" and " Hes on the jazz man."

It would also be illegal to "fly in no plane" on the A Team Extravaganza Day unless a colleauge of yours slipped sleeping pills into your milk.

Employers would be urged to treat their staff unfairly for 40 mins before locking them in a room fully equiped with all the neccessary tools for escape and revolt.

Crucial to the success of the day would be a parade of MP's randomly raiding houses around Dublin and flipping their jeeps over the walls of the canal.
I believe if our army shows the same skill and commitment as they did in Braveheart we can easily recreate these stunts.

I believe you should take this seriiously as I am very important as I have a vote.

Best of luck to all in the forthcoming election. And remember - "I aint no crazy fool"

Well things have taken abit of a change recently.
My Dad went for some tests on Monday and he found out he has cancer.
Sister phoned me Monday night to tell me, cause I was still at college.

Its so frostrating, I'm so worried after hearing it, I'm annoyed because I want to be able to do something about it but can't! and I'm pissed off that the this whole thing is affecting me so much.

All my friends know about it and its been a hard week for me, on Wednesday Linda asked was I ok and I just muttered a few words and walked off cause I almost started crying, she followed after me to see if I was ok, that night I got so worked up over it that I had what I can only describe as a panick attack. It scared the hell out of me.
Also had a exam on Wednesday and I came really close to walking out of it.

The thing with Trish has been put on hold cause my mind is just gone at the moment and she knows that, she understands that I have other stuff on my mind.

I don't know why this is all affecting me so much, stuff like this never affected me so much before.
Its been far from a fun week but thankfully I have good friends and there looking out for me making sure I'm ok.

I know there's nothing they can do about it but it helps to just know that they want to make sure I'm ok.

Its going to be a worrying next couple of weeks as my Dad has the operation to remove it in about two weeks time.

Well again its been awhile since my last journal entry and I gota say my life has changed SO much!
I'm ALOT more outgoing then I was back in Jan, Feb or even March and its all thanks to Linda and three other of my friends.
So this is the latest thing that has happened to me...

Was at a house party Thursday night and Linda decided to play match maker for the night, she had told me before (she told me when she gave me the reply to the letter I gave her, check older journal entrys for that) that one of the girls in the class really likes me but to be honest I never took any interest, on thursday Linda kept telling me to go over and talk to this girl (Trish) I just kept saying no.

So Linda got Trish to come over and sit beside me then Linda just announces "Trish, Martin likes you and Martin, Trish like you" I really could have done without that embarresment.

Anyway Linda just wouldn't go away till the two of us kissed, so we did, but by the end of the night it was alot more then just ONE kiss.
Well it hit around 5am and I ended up walking Trish home (as a gentleman should do) I gota say it was a long long walk back to my flat, Linda was staying at my flat and around 6am she came into my room and asked what happened, I told her, but then she asked if I liked Trish, I just said I don't know.

I'm being honest when I say that, because I REALLY don't know what I want to do now.
On one hand I'd really like to give it a go and see how things go, but on the other I don't really feel anything for Trish and I'm not even sure if I ever will.

But in the end I don't want to hurt her or lead her on, I'd really be pissed off with myself if I did that.

Well I didn't know what else to set the subject as so I set it to what you see above.

I'm still really happy since last Thursday (when Linda talked to me) its really weird and I can't explain it.
Anyway yesterday I didn't go into college so around 2pm I phoned Linda (I knew she wasn't in either) I asked if she was in town cause I wanted to tell her something (don't worry its good) well turns out she wasn't.
I woke up yesterday and just wanted to tell her how much she has changed my life.
So was one of her/my friends birthdays yesterday so we all headed out lastnight, got to hold hands with her and all that (sigh, it was nice) but as friends...
Anyway around midnight finally got the chance to talk to her and say what I wanted to say to her earlier.

and what I said was
"I wanted to say this earlier but well you weren't in town, don't worry its a good thing and atleast this time I don't need a letter to say what I want to say.
Wanted to let you know that although you've never known it, you've changed my life so much for the better, your the reason why I've become less shy and have gone out more and all that.
I just wanted to tell you this, so that no matter what you do in years to come I wanted you to know that you've changed someone's life SO MUCH!"

She thought it was really nice (and I got a few hugs during the night) and she said it ment alot to her to hear what I said.

Oh and I'm happy to say later in the night I did finally get to put my arm around her as I sat beside her in the nightclub, although I did ask her, I said "it ok if I put my arm around you as a friend" and she let me, man it was soo nice.

I know I still feel for her deep down but at the same time I'm just so happy to be friends with her.
Oh and we also went dancing lastnight :)

Ok maybe I'm updating my Journal to much these days but I'm at work atm and I just feel like writing stuff.

Handed in my camera film to be developed 30min ago so will have several pictures of Linda in 30min time, woohooo

Still unsure if I'll post a link to one of the photos in my journal or not, to let everyone who reads this thing see just who I've been talking about for the past few months (just leave a comment if you'd like me to) :)

Had a great night lastnight, met a girl from the same county I'm from & bought her a rose (yes I know its very corny, but I did it for the nice thought rather then anything else) she really liked it and I got two kisses :-) Kinda made my night to be honest.

I know it may not sound much to you lot but its just want I needed.

Linda was out lastnight, didn't get the chance to talk to her much, she showed up at the end of the night in the nightclub. Got a nice picture of her dancing :)
She left early cause she had work at 7am.

For those of you woundering why I had a camera lastnight, well we had a surprise birthday party for one of the girls so I thought would be nice to get some photos of everybody.

Thats it for today, another entry same bat time, same bat channel :)

UPDATE - 5.26PM: WOOHOOO I got the photos few hours ago, scanned in three of them so far, going to put all the photos from nights out on my website for class to see.

Well she wasn't in college today, but heard a funny story bout what happened to her lastnight but I better not say it :P

Anyway, I'm still HAPPY and frankly I can't figure it out, its weird but I like it!

She most likely won't be going to the party tonight because she's working, but she might drop in for a hour or so, guess I'll see.
But she'll be going to a friends party on Tuesday night for deff, I know because during our conversation yesterday she asked if I was going to it.

Still waiting on getting the pictures I took of her developed, should have some during the week.
Will be nice to finally have some.

As Linda would say "GO YOU!!!"
Oh and did I mention its GREAT to be friends with her? :)