Journal pythorlh's Journal: Days without Iodine. 3
There are more important things than me in the world. If you'd rather read about them, feel free to skip this JE. I feel compelled to say this because, while everything I write feels small and petty compared to what other people are going through right now, I need at the moment to write something.
I am currently on a low-iodine diet. I'm also off of my thyroid meds. That's in preparation for the full body scan in a couple weeks which will, hopefully, determine that I am completely cancer-free. For those that don't know, your thyroid absorbs iodine, and turns it into some nice chemical that helps regulate your metabolism. Doing with that chemical makes me tired. Frequently. Officially, I'm not even supposed to drive when I'm off my meds, but I really didn't want to use what little PTO I have for this, so I'm trying to work through it. I have warned my boss, and she's accepting it. If I can't deal, I'll go out on disability.
Meanwhile, there's very little I can eat that I'm used to. None of the food in my house is iodine free, except my salt. My mother has made me some pasta(no-yolks) and meat dishes, but there is nothing I can snack on. Fruits and vegetables would work, but I'm too broke to go out and buy them.
Last year when I went through this, I was prepared. I had been given an Amazon gift certificate at work, and had plenty to read. I also bought several food items that I knew were safe, that I could munch on when I wanted. This year, I am stuck so deep in the hole that my direct deposit paycheck didn't even get me out of the red. I'm seriously considering bankruptcy. Unfortunately, how do you go bankrupt when you can't pay the lawyer to file the papers? I already owe the lawyer for a speeding ticket I got the first month I was in Rochester, that I can't afford to pay, and will lose my license over if I don't pay it before the 18th. And if I don't manage to at least file for bankruptcy before the end of September, I'm sure that my car will be repossesed. There might be a light at the end of the tunnel in February, but there might not. I can't look that far ahead, anyway.
I'm lucky that I moved back from Rochester. With gas prices the way they are, I could never have afforded to travel to visit the boys. That might have just killed me. As it is, I've been getting on better with them, which is the only bright spot I have. I've spent a lot of time with them and my wife, because her boyfriend has been out of town. We finally got her in to a psychologist, who confirmed the Borderline Personality Disorder diagnosis that we were guessing. Of course, if you know BPD, you know that people with BPD can't stand being alone. Which is why my wife has been moderately nice to me lately, with her BF gone for 3 weeks. Then she calls me late the other night and tells me she's thinking about having another child. Stupidly... I ask with who. Him. Of course. The conversation stopped abruptly at that point. I cannot even bear to think about that. I cried for a very long time. I could start again now if I let myself.
I might be able to handle it if she would find herself a decent man. Someone who loved her, took care of her, and cared about the boys. Jose is none of those. He puts on a decent act of wanting to be with her, but can't even put on an act about the rest. I've told her that she needs to get counseling, so that she can stand living alone for a while. It's the only way she's ever going to give herself enough time to find a decent guy. Right now she can't bear the though of leaving him, even though she despises him most of the time. I think the whole child thing is just a reaction to being alone too much. She was begging me to talk her out of it, but I just can't deal with that line of thought well enough to even try. Which means I will fully blame myself if it ever happens.
Does anyone know of any real work-at-home oppurtunities? Part time? In this town, I've got almost no chance of getting a second job. There are plenty of people around here with a more flexible schedule, and in more dire need than me, anyway. But I need some way to pay the bills. I can't even think about Christmas. Hell, right now I can't even figure out how to pay for Back-to-School clothes. All 4 of the boys will be in school this year. Which will give my wife plenty of free time, and even a break on her food expenses, but won't help me even a little.
This is long... I'm not sure if I'm ranting, but I'm very depressed. Sorry about that. At least I gave fair warning. Got a meeting now, can't even take the time to proof read. Sorry.
Real work at home 101. (Score:2)
1. E-bay/flea market.
Cons: requires some money/or 'networking' with people who 'just wanna get rid of junk'
Pros: e-baying can be done with very little spare time.
how to: First off you need to find the stuff you're going to sell. check what's selling fast on e-bay, what doesn't seem to sell at all etc. make notes on 'what sells' vs what 'doesn't' now go out and find that stuff, bargain hunt for it, at outlets, discounters, pawn shops, garage sales or flea markets... and sell it (n
Re:Real work at home 101. (Score:2)
1. is of the "Takes money to make money" group. Currently out of my bounds.
2. Is something I do. I repair PCs and small networks on teh side, but this is a very depressed area, and my networking skills are sub-par in the extreme. I get at most a couple calls a month.
3. As you said, requires an acknowledged expertise in some field. I don't qualify. This is where I'd like to be. I'd love to spend enough time to get back to school and get the qualifications to do this, but I have childr
Re:Real work at home 101. (Score:1)
frankly i gotta say this though, you are really holding yourself back. the