So, here are my random thoughts of the day.

I've recently taken a big shift as far as my interests are concerned. I find myself very interested in history, particularly European and Chinese history.

I have an idea. What say we just agree that we fucked up, as far as this October is concerned? We can just pretend it never happened - purge all records of this month having existed. We'll agree that we share in the blame, take the next 10 days off to get ready for November, and then make November a good month.

Insane day. More insane than any I've had in a long time.

I've got to stop going to the Lost Dog.

Okay, time for a weird topic:

Sarah - the Ataris - "In This Diary", U2 - "Sweetest Thing", Foo Fighters - "Everlong", Train - "Drops of Jupiter"

Rachel - U2 - "With or Without You", U2 - "Where the Streets Have No Name"

Tim L. - Butthole Surfers - "Pepper", King Missile - "Detachable Penis",

Madeline - Jimmy Eat World - "Praise Chorus," Incubus - "Warning"

Chris S. - Nirvana - "In Bloom", Seether - "Fine Again"

Jealous. And angry. Jealous and angry. A healthy combination. Tired, too.

It's also be nice if I didn't feel like a First Class Heel.

Irritated...

Am I the only one who wishes there was school tomorrow?

I really need to get my shit together, in every sense of it. Emotionally, physically, professionally, educationally...

I really don't know what's wrong. I have a flying lesson scheduled for Saturday that I don't want to go to. I want to cancel it.

Really. Who am I kidding?

They're back, and they're awful. These dreams are so terrible I'm having trouble sleeping.

Well, except for a few good moments here and there, this weekend has pretty much sucked. I have spent most of it angry, dejected, and tired. Even sleeping hasn't helped, since most of the time my dreams have just made things worse.

Great way to start off the week. I still find it sad that I'm wishing I could go to work all day...

God...fucking...damn it...

Well, this evening was fun, if a little strange.

After work, I knew I would have to fend for myself, as far as dinner went. Eating alone sucks, so I called all my friends to see if they were there. Nobody answered except James, who said he could probably make it. On a hunch, I drove past Madeline's house and saw her and her mom sitting out back, thus being away from the phone. So, I called up to them on their deck, asking Madeline if she wanted to go to dinner with James and me. In

Thanks to Tim and Sarah. I owe you both big time.

Jesus H. Christ. What an awful movie.

Maybe things will look better in the morning...