kesuki's Journal: People who believe in their own superiority...

and feel they have no need to explain or justify there actions sicken me. Bethanie a friend to many people, who indeed can be quite a likeable person, has recently revealed her nature of feeling like a superior human being.

I never once have claimed that i was a great person, quite the opposite i often berate myself for my own failings. When people have something to say to me i listen, and I try my best, which is quite often not good enough. And it angers me that a person i often read the journals and posts of would so easily foe me, without any explaination...

I have not unfriended her, it's a quite human reaction to dislike other human beings, especially for there failings. but believe you me, there is much anger flowing through me anger that i am even now struggling to channel, part of the energy i channeled into performing a quite repetive task (creating multiple e-mail and slashdot accounts, manually) and part i have tried to channel into this journal. The sad thing is there is one person who could with one simple answer have ended all this flowing rage. yet her own arrogance prevents her from doing so.

Yo

[Le Marteau]

All I can say is, wow. This chick has some 5K+ comments with a 600K+ ID. Damn. That is, um, impressive. Not a 'friend' of mine, nor a 'foe' so I dunno. But that is something.

Re:Yo

[kesuki]

yeah i knew her back when her account was new too. *shrugs* i tend to live in the shadows though so i clearly was not on her radar.

uh?

[tuxette]

Why do you even care? Seriously. Why? Why does it matter that she lists you up as a slashdot friend?

Re:uh?

[kesuki]

Because i need to know why. she listed me as a foe without giving a reason. Despite rumours to the contrary i am not a great mind reading super sluth, so unless someone explains the actions they took i have no way to know why.

Re:uh?

[tuxette]

That still doesn't answer my question.

SO FUCKING WHAT if she foed you? Why does it matter so much? Is it the end of the world if she doesn't want to be your little Net friend anymore? There are more important things to give a rat's ass about!

Re:uh?

[kesuki]

She can go f--- herself all she wants to as soon as she answers one little question. Why did she foe me. What matters is that she had no courtesy or politeness but simply a condesending arrogance about her actions.

There are more important things to care about, but alas there is nothing i can do about those things. i can however be a constant reminder to someone that they still haven't answered a simple question.

Re:uh?

[tuxette]

Why do you think she owes you an answer?

Re:uh?

[kesuki]

It's not a nice thing to do to simply not let someone who was genuinely in the dark as to why he was foed what was wrong. but you'll probably say that doesn't answer your questiong so... does she owe me an answer? no, but i am determined to make simply MAKING up an answer more reasonable than simply not giving one at all. I've even Made Up two answers she could have co-opeted as her own already... since she doesn't seem to want to do that there must be a reason, either her dad's 'ghosts' haunting her

Oh, puh-LEEZE

[Tau Zero]

Your behavior is all the reason anyone would need.

Clean up your act, starting with an apology.

bethanie?

[jawtheshark]

Upset by a lighter with a "lucky lady" on it? Would surprise me... It probably is something else, but you shouldn't worry too much. She unfriended me once too and I got upset, just like you. People unfriend/foe other people all the time and one gets used to it.

Perhaps she'll change her mind someday, she did with me (as far as I know, of course)

Finally: that headline... ehm, I don't want to sound "superior" but it's "their" and not "there". ;)

Re:bethanie?

[kesuki]

Ah well it seems more likely that bethanie has mistaken me for her father.

So I am considering the sig "(reperator noises)Bethanie, I am Not Your Father(resperator noises)" That or creating a new account like 'iamnotbethaniesdad'

Re:bethanie?

[iamnotbethaniesdad]

Is that you luke, you should know that I AM luke's father, Not bethanie's

Re:bethanie?

[btlzu2]

Dude, you SERIOUSLY need to chill and not worry about it. You're acting very strangely about this all. I get friended and foed throughout the year--it's not a big deal.

Your reaction to this is completely out of bounds and overblown. Can't you see that? Why are you so obsessed with goading Bethanie into telling you why?

Have some dignity man and let it go.

Re:bethanie?

[kesuki]

If i were gonna make excuses i could make plenty OCD, too much free time on my hands etc...

and oh i know completely overblown, and while it may be outside your bounds of acceptable i don't really know where it fits for me.
as of for 'why so obsessed' most likely thing i can think of is loosing the battle against my own inner demons..

Re:bethanie?

[btlzu2]

it's ok man. we all have inner demons that we lose to at times. recognizing it is a good thing! :) that way, you can take action to start winning again. i still continuously fight against various demons too and it's always my challenge to beat them down.

i just think the obscene account names and trolling might be too much by most peoples' standards. asking "why?" is one thing...if you don't get an answer, i tend to think letting it be *their* problem and letting it go would be a bit easier for you and

Re:bethanie?

[kesuki]

i just think the obscene account names and trolling might be too much by most peoples' standards.

Normally, my 'trolling' is either a good way to start good discussion, or just random and chaotic. so trolling doesn't bug me not in the least. obscenity i normally refrain from, but what makes a word 'obscene' in the first place? it's the negative value you attack to it, and trying to destroy all your negative feelings by denying the use of certain words is just plain stupid. normally i avoid using such word