blinder's Journal: [WEEK] 6

It has been a strange week. Not necessarily a bad week, nor could I classify it as a particularly good week. So, I'll file it somewhere in that middle ground... yeah, wow, shocking news right there! "Blinder Has Average Week."

Heh, the weekend didn't completely suck either. Saturday was fun/stupid. Yeah, I spent too much money on a new guitar amp (Marshall JCM2000 -- for those not paying attention to the dot on the weekends). Sunday I was rather busy with chores, which included grocery shopping, cleaning the kitchen, laundry, washing the car and mixing "A Simple Restart." I was so bloody tired though yesterday. I've been going to bed too late lately. Staying up till 2 a.m. on Saturday night wasn't too bright. I'm old enough to know better :)

So, this week, its lights out at exactly 11 p.m., no exceptions.

I had my therapy session on Friday (5 p.m.) and if you saw my journal from the weekend, then you know I got an emotional ass kicking. Its all good.

Oh, I am completing that damn silly mortgage re-fi. They locked me in at 3% (w00t!!!) so my payments will be dramatically lower. So, I think I'll have some more money freeing up so that I can start to get serious about paying off my last 3 student loans... a total of about $7,000 left on those. I'm still thinking of cashing out some equity (which is pretty fucking crazy right now) and pay those off, along with a few credit cards. I don't have a lot of debt... about average, perhaps a bit lower than average... but its enough to where it causes me some minor grief every month.

Lets see, what else. Oh yeah... I'm debating with myself to go to an ACOA meeting on Wednesday night. I went to a site this weekend and did a lot of reading and a lot of made sense to me. But... heh, I just have this image of Fight Club with these group things. I know... that is absolutely horrible of me to think... but well, I won't deny that's there :)

I'm also considering... gulp... joining a gym. Oh gawd, I cannot tell you how much I hate that idea, *but* I'm doing so amazingly well and when the weather turns, I DO NOT want to stop running, and this gym (which is a Bally's -- and is just about a mile from my house) has an indoor track. That's what I want, I just want to run.

Oh yeah... I've been talking to a tattoo artist about finally getting my ink work done. I thought I was going to have an appointment this Saturday or yesterday... but that fell through. Ugh... okay shoot for this week then. I'm getting a "straight edge" tattoo on my left lower-calf (above the ankle)... something I designed -- but I want this artist to make improvements.

Okay, well that's WEEK 6. Things are moving in the right direction.

Tattoo?

[Otter]

Errr, you sure you might not want to put that off until you've reached more of an equilibrium point? I get the idea of starting afresh, but you'll have to live with that thing for a long time...

Re:Tattoo?

[blinder]

Yes... I've been wanting to do this since i was 15 years old... and now, I'm learning to do stuff just for myself. And this is what I want.

I want it to be there forever. Its something I believe in... and as ridiculous as that sounds... I'm going to do this.

Re:Tattoo?

[dubiousdave]

Its something I believe in... and as ridiculous as that sounds... I'm going to do this.

It doesn't sound ridiculous at all. You have convictions that you've held for a long time. It's not like all the 18 year old girls getting the same butterfly off the wall in the small of the back. It clearly means something to you.

BTW, I appreciate the song dedication. I've been dowloading all your songs lately, but I've had my hands full and haven't had a chance to give them a good listen. Thanks.

WATCH OUT!

[mekkab]

Glad to hear you are middlin'.

Watch out for them fuckin' Bally's contracts; they're worse than fucking credit cards. If I were you, I wouldn't pay more than 6 months in advance; get you through the winter, thats fuckin IT. My dumb-ass sister got "tooken" in by those fuckers. If you can tell by the "fuck"-density of this paragraph, watch yr back.

Big up on yr ink-werk. Especially since its something you designed. I still haven't regretted mine yet. And something tells me I won't.

Re:WATCH OUT!

[thentil]

I second the warning against Bally's, my SO got into a contract with them that ended up being 2 to 3 times as much as what I paid for a similar deal with 24-hour fitness.

Warning...

[redhead-kitten]

Tattoos can be addictive. I got one 10 years ago, and for a while after I wondered what my next one would be. I have since gotten two more and my bf is drawing out my next one (a tribute to my Mom & Dad).

I have never been to an ACOA meeting, though Talinom has. I have gone to many AA meetings, and they are all different. The worst one I ever went to was an all women meeting. (some of those women were telling stories about things I'd never even dreamed of and didn't want to know about) If you decide

Re:Warning...

[blinder]

Tattoos can be addictive

LOL! Yeah, I know this! Most of my friends growing up in the hardcore scene all said the very same thing. I'm okay with that... i could see getting a few... but one at a time :)

If you decide that the meeting doesn't "feel" right, don't stop. Try again. Knowing that you aren't the only one out there, and that there are people worse off than you are can really help.

Yeah, that's a good point. I will keep that in mind... I think i'll probably go, just to do *something*

Thank you v

hey

[trmj]

just wanted to say that your new song kicks ass. it not only passed the quiet "people are sleeping nearby" playtest, but also the "blast it in the car with stock speakers" playtest.

if you don't mind, I'd like to distribute it to a few friends in town who like this kind of music as well.

Re:hey

[blinder]

just wanted to say that your new song kicks ass

Why thank you! :D

if you don't mind, I'd like to distribute it to a few friends in town who like this kind of music as well.

Mind??? heck no! Wow, that's really nice. Thank you :)