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Peace,
Chris.

I think I had an anxiety attack today.
I woke up and realized I had a final in two hours, and another one I should've been preparing all weekend for in less then 24 hours.
And I couldn't calm down. Now matter what I did or tried to tell myself.
I was just walking around, blaring music from my iPod, and even that wasn't helping me calm down.
I felt better after I took my first final and spoke with the professor who's going to be giving the second one. I think I can get by on the s

Quick Update: tripod apparently doesn't let you link to the their images directly. In order to view these images correctly and quickly, copy the hyperlink, open up a new window or tab, and paste the copied URL into the address bar. They will then load.

VLSI has gotten the final nail in the coffin.
I am more then confident that our chip will fail.
The architechture team, in their infinite wisdom, didn't specify to the Bit and Check Node teams that they can only Place and Route with 2 metal layers of our 5 metal layer process.
So Bit and Check Node teams used all 5. Because even grad students don't know any better.
So the Network-On-A-Chip isn't going to work very well because we've always assumed that we can route OVER the Bit an

This whole semester up until this week has been a slog.
For some reason, this is the first week where I have felt any drive at all.
And it feels great. It feels like the way it used to, where it wasn't me who picked engineering. Engineering picked me.
And did I mention that it feels wonderful?

I saw the woman I worked under my freshmen year. I was a programmer under her NSF grant. I saw her walk into Western Psych.

I knew she was crazy.

I have fixed the last with-standing issue I've been having with my G3 Macintosh. The on-motherboard ATA controller is buggy, and Apple never patched it. The bugs are fine for OS 9, where the OS codes around the hardware problems. But on OS X, the bugs make the whole system crash eventually. So I bought a third party ATA controller card by Sonnet Technologies.
However, I was still having problems with it. Apparently, there was a bug in their firmware as well. And I couldn't install the upda

I can't wait for Spring Break, because this Busynesss has no end.

I'm going to write things down in my journal from now on until I feel like stopping. I think the two issues that bothered me where that I had a lot of fair-weathered friends who'd probably read it for sadistic kicks. And I didn't want to show the weakness. Another this that bothered me was when it came to write in the journal, I thought about what I had to do, what I didn't get done, and how far behind I am. I'm not going to focus on the negative.
I'm gonna give this a shot.

This is soapbox post(my private disccussion mailing list i run). If anyone has any thoughts or ideas, feel free to leave them in the comments:

I got nothing done over break.
I'm going to crash and burn for finals.
I worked so hard to fuck it all up in two weeks.
Atta boy.

I wish I had health insurance, so I could afford to get all medicated up on something like Prozac, Lexipro, Welbutran, Paxil, Buspar, Valium, or Lithium.

But alls I got is a Bottle of Jack. And I'm not touching it for all the right reasons. If you drink when you're depressed, its a slippery slope to a lifelong problem.

Its the night before thanksgiving, and I'm not going home for break. My friend Kyle has been asked by a friend of his he works with to go to a "Serbian Club" in the southside. Wouldn't give the name of place. Kyle is interested in going out because he has nothing better to do, and because I told him that Serbian chicks are hot. However, he has no interest in this particular girl, he wanted Wingmen, so Jay and I joined him.

Thank Paradise for Breaks from School and Mogwai.