I've been living under a rock for the past five years, so I'm really quite ignorant when it comes to the latest technology. Can anyone give me a quick run-down on what might work well for a new gaming PC? I'm no fanboy, but I usually end up regretting it whenever I stray away from Asus, Intel, and nVidia. What gives the most bang for the buck? It looks like a Core i5 is my best bet, but I keep wondering if maybe an entry-level Core i7 would be better. There are so many choices, I feel paralyzed by indecision.

In the meantime, I guess I'll spend a few hours reading tech sites, trying to figure out what the hell all the new buzzwords mean. I hate trying to decode all the marketing fluff.

This is something that I've alluded to in several of my posts. Much like Shakespeare, I believe that all the world is a stage. However, instead of men playing many parts, I think we all play one part: that of the clown. Life is an absurdist circus, full of clowns that don't know they're clowns. Yet, they dance, roll around, and make funny faces for the amusement of the other clowns. Some people have realized this. Most have not. Trolls, gadflies, postmodernists, existentialists, nihilists, cynics, propagandists, and narcissists know it. I think that politicians, sociopaths, gossip columnists, and TV celebrities must be aware of it on some level. Those who take themselves seriously will deny it.

The absurdity of trying to make sense of life is something only a clown would do. The tragedy is that they think they've actually done it. This is endlessly amusing to those of a darker, sardonic wit.

Edited slightly from a recent post that I made:

The internet isn't going to end. The internet will change for the worse. There's a big difference.

Mostly-legitimate sites like YouTube and MegaUpload will arguably be hit the hardest. Their primary draw is the rampant copyright infringement. Users who upload original content will have to jump through hoops in order to validate that their content does not infringe anyone's copyright. There will probably be an initial month-long validation queue, which will eventually be streamlined down to a week-long wait. Some people will leave in protest, but most will just decry any dissent as "whining". In most likelihood, parody and other fair use exceptions will be suppressed, in the name of simplifying administrative duties. I predict the argument will go, "If we allow legitimate parodies through, then everyone will simply claim to be a subtle parody. Thus, our rule on no parodies, even if they are technically allowed, by law." In the end, YouTube will survive, but it will be nothing but insipid pet videos and hot, up-and-coming pop stars from major labels. Alternatives will pop up frequently on darknets, but none of the YouTube users will ever figure out how to access them. MegaUpload goes commercial, with no free accounts, in a move to pay for all the censorship that is required to clean up the site.

Quasi-legitimate sites, like 4chan, will either disappear or radically transform. My guess is that they'll all go underground. Anyone who can't figure out how to access them will be ridiculed as a lamer or noob. The government will swat at them, off and on, but nothing will ever really stick. A couple of them will simply move to European or Asian servers and abandon U.S. users. I have trouble imagining these sites going fully legit, but I guess stranger things have happened. In that case, full-time moderators would roam the boards, searching out any kind of copyright infringement and handing out frequent bans. After a while, the workload gets to be too much and the site closes down.

"Rogue" websites, such as piratebay, would be the first victims. They'll put up a token fight for a few months or years, but it won't go anywhere, and they'll all be forced to relocate to darknets or other various underground locales. Some will simply shrug and ignore the U.S. Again, the government will swat at them, and some of them will eventually be taken down, but new ones will simply pop up to replace them. Eventually, someone will be made an example of, with a 10-15 year prison sentence (if they're lucky). A show trial will briefly made the news, then be forgotten by all but the civil libertarians. A huge uproar on civil libertarian blogs will follow, along with further threads of "it's time for the ammo box!", but absolutely nothing will come of it, and they'll all stew in impotent anger. Slashdot follows every single fucking story with dogged perseverance, long after the mainstream media move on to other topics. In every single story, at least one person states, "If only you sheeple had voted for Ron Paul, none of this would have happened!", which becomes the newest Slashdot meme.

Controversial web sites, such as those espousing hate speech, expressing sympathy for terrorists (pro-Hamas or pro-Hezbollah), and right-wing militia groups will quickly be added to the lists. Most people won't miss them, but the civil libertarians will go berserk. A freedom of speech case will make it to the US Supreme Court, but nothing will come of it. In a 5-4 decision, the censorship will be upheld as constitutional. All the web sites move to European servers or darknets. The government halfheartedly swats at them off and on for the next ten years, until an example is made of someone, who probably ends up successfully fighting off the charges. It's hailed as a major win for civil libertarians, but nothing really changes, because nothing ever does. The government goes back to swatting halfheartedly at websites on darknets.

Sites like Flickr and Facebook, which generally depend on original content, rather than copyright infringement, escape unscathed. Uploading content becomes more tedious and annoying, as websites nonetheless attempt to cover their ass. More ads appear, as the sites attempt to pay for the additional time and effort necessary to patrol submissions by users. Users grumble, site administrators grumble, and everyone talks big about how they're going to vote out everyone who voted for SOPA. In the end, it's all just talk.

Most sites end up unaffected. A few end up blacklisted "accidentally". The end of the world is averted, and the internet goes on, like it always has... just in a way that's more authoritarian, less fun, and more annoying. Eventually, SOPA gets struck down by a liberal Supreme Court, and Slashdot goes berserk over something else that will surely cause the sky to fall.

I think SOPA is a horrible bill, and I hope it fails. The worst case scenario is frightening and admittedly could lead to some chilling effects. In fact, I think it's inevitable that many controversial sites (hate speech, for example) will end up being blacklisted, as well. However, to think that the internet, as a whole, will end up going down in flames seems simplistic and over-the-top.

Is it just me, or does Slashdot seem to be a bastion of misogyny, racism, and homophobia? I'm not talking about the simplistic trolls who just throw around offensive words. I'm talking about people who really, truly mean what they're saying and write passionate posts about just how much they hate women/feminazis, gays, and various racial/religious minorities. It's startling. Normally, I'd chalk most of those posts up to simple trolls, but... well... take a look.

The story that made me actually write this is about the revenge blog order. A man wrote a revenge blog, harassing his ex-girlfriend, and a judge ordered him to take it down. I figured most of the debate would center around free speech vs harassment (and I was mostly right), but a few misogynist threads popped up, too.

The first post that stuck out is actually relatively harmless. The guy says that he doesn't date women when he's unemployed, because he can't provide for them, if they get pregnant. Well... OK. That's a bit patriarchal. It's nice that he takes responsibility for his actions, but, like another poster, I was a bit struck by his flippant attitude toward women. I think we can assume, given his user name, that he was just trying for laughs, which perhaps backfired, giving some people the impression that he's a bit of a dumbass. Then again, it's entirely likely that he's also role-playing an erratic personality. In any case, nothing he said was misogynistic -- simply patronizing and a betrayed a bit of lack of respect for women, even as he seems to pride himself on his sense of responsibility.

I have certain sympathies with the radical feminists, and I think they are right about some things. I'm probably going to sound a bit like one right now, critiquing this post. It reeks of "men have been emasculated in our society, and now women/feminazis have all the power". Without actually saying anything specific, he insinuates that women are faking their fear, when they seek restraining orders, only to use them as offensively, as a weapon, against the poor men. This may very well be true, and I'm not saying that it can't happen, but it's a very dangerous POV that diminishes sympathy and compassion for victims of domestic violence. I find it disturbing. I will stop short of saying that he's actively sympathizing with actual abusers (his friends, who are the victims of these restraining orders), because I dislike when people make those kinds of assumptions about people. I'd also like to believe that, in his mind, at the very least, these guys are actually innocent of any wrong-doing and that he's not making excuses for their behavior.

There's another "men are powerless in today's society" post following that, decrying that men are now commonly scapegoated as the cause of all things bad in this world. He doesn't stop there, though. He also claims that they are essentially non-citizens in family law. While I understand that there are certain issues that we as a society still need to resolve (traditional gender roles dictate that the women raise children), instead of recognizing that strict gender roles are the problem, the poster turns his anger toward women, instead. This is not healthy. It's also deeply frustrating.

And this post seems to be saying that it's only the poor, emasculated men who have face the repercussions of the actions. The law does not apply equally to women, because that would be not be PC. At least, that's my reading of his post. I may have put a few words into his mouth. I don't understand where these people are coming from or why they believe the things that they believe. Did someone repeatedly hurt them, without repercussions? That sucks. I feel bad for you. But that does not mean that women are out to get you.

The emoticon on this post indicates that the poster was joking, but... come on! This is a really disturbing thing to say. You're taking the side of someone who broke a restraining order, wrote a revenge blog that violated the privacy of a mentally ill person, and then aggressively advertized it to her friends, family, and coworkers? You're saying what he did was a good thing, for the benefit of society? I understand it was supposed to be a joke, but I'm not laughing. I'm not claiming to have some kind of moral ground here, like I'm some kind of saint, as I can be an unrepentant asshole at times, but, seriously.... this is just wrong, and if an acknowledged asshole can see that it's wrong, you should know better, too. I'm astounded that my own lack of empathy is soundly trounced by others. This, more than any moral outrage, is what shocks me the most about this guy's post. But it's just a joke. Yeah, sure. Let's just give our implicit support to those who would harass the mentally ill.

Moving on. This post could simply be a troll. However, there are a lot of people out there who -- without any irony whatsoever -- use terms such as feminazi. While this poster showed admirable restraint, I think he got the point across, just the same, by characterizing the judge as a "neo-feminist windbag". He further asserts that "a lot of them [judges] are [neo-feminist windbags]". It would be nice if that were true. My fear is that he's just so much of a misogynist that it seems true, from his viewpoint.

And here's another "it's just a joke" post, in which the poster asserts that all Minnesota women are crazy. This isn't so bad, and I'd probably just write it off as a guy who's been unlucky in love trying to make a joke about it, but... again, he's taking the side of someone whose actions are indefensible. This guy hasn't actually asserted that what the guy did was right or in the public's best interest, but it's disturbing that he's making jokes at the expense of the victim. That post is quickly followed up by several others claiming that all women are crazy. Of course.

This post seems to be reinforcing the commonly held belief that men are constantly victimized by false accusations and unjustly punished by society, as a result. While nobody can deny that these false accusations happen and quite certainly do destroy the reputation of innocent people, it's yet another cliched, misogynist argument that appears constantly on the internet. If you listen to these people, you'll sometimes hear crazy statistics about how most rapes are actually false accusations. It's disturbing that society seems to believe that, in some certain cases, innocence needs to be proved beyond a shadow of a doubt (rather than proving guilt), but to actively attack the very victims of these crimes is inexcusable. Our compassion for the falsely accused should never turn into an attack on the legitimate victims. This poster, however, refrains from going any further than asserting that it's the accused that we need to be sympathetic to, especially if it's a man, rather than the accuser. The implicit characterization of the accusers, however, is that they are manipulative liars. This may very well be true in some cases, but, like I said, it's not a healthy attitude to have toward the accusers. Followups by the same poster reveal a deep misogyny that was hinted at by his original post. Unfortunate.

Infuriatingly, this poster invokes "blaming the victim". I thought perhaps the poster might be a bit on the progressive side, trying to point out that people are being wildly misogynistic in the comments. Not so. Instead, he takes the defense of the man. I understand that his argument is based on free speech, which is a legitimate argument, but framing it in terms of "blaming the victim" is just inexcusable. Apparently, to the anon, telling the truth can not be a form of harassment, even when it... nevermind. I'm just getting myself worked up again, and I've already covered this elsewhere. For what it's worth, the post itself does not betray any misogyny, though it does frustrate me to no end. The followups are more misogynistic, pointing out that women will, of course, be protected by the law, while men's concerns will be tossed aide. So, luckily, we still get our quota of misogyny.

This guy annoys the fuck out of me. I don't know why I haven't enemy listed him yet. He's an ignorant, misogynistic asshole. In fact, I think I'll do it now. I had a debate with him once over whether "women's night out" was sexist, and thus feminists were hypocritical for not opposing it. I thought maybe I could reach him, but apparently he's too far gone. Well, can you really blame people for ignoring my huge essays?

A simple troll.

LOLOLOL.

He's just telling it like it is.

More misogyny from gmhowell. He posted a link to a hilariously whiny Men's Rights Activist (MRA) web site once that made me laugh, until I realized it wasn't ironic. Disturbing. Still, his comments are amusingly whiny enough in themselves that I usually end up being amused, rather than outraged. Haven't enemy listed him yet. Could just be a troll, faking the misogyny, though. I haven't quite decided yet.

This is probably just a troll. It could be a kook, though. Normally, I'm pretty good at picking up on generic, garden variety trolls, but the legitimate, unending misogyny in these comments might have knocked by trolldar off a bit. I'm leaning toward legitimate kook, but it's got all the hallmarks of a troll.

I feel better for having gotten all this off my chest. I doubt anyone has read this, but it'd be gratifying to know that I'm not the only one who sees this as a real problem on Slashdot.

Adapted from a recent comment.

Slashdot has a long history of shrilling crying out doom and gloom, and it's been wrong on every occasion that I can remember. I don't blame someone for thinking that a paranoid rant on slashdot is total bunk. When RFID chips were first discussed on Slashdot, people worked themselves into a paranoid frenzy, suggesting that you microwave any clothes that you buy from a retail store, so that you destroy any errant RFID chips. I laughed then, and I'm laughing now, as I recall it. Slashdot has always had a loud paranoid wing, and most of us have learned to tune them out. Their first reaction is always to predict a wildly unlikely worst case scenario, then rant and scream about how we're headed toward some fascist police state, because their Pentium III has a serial number (that can be disabled in the BIOS). I've heard it all before, I wasn't impressed by it back in the late 90s, and I'm still not impressed with it. The Pentium III serial number, RFID, Vista's DRM, Trusted Computing... these have all been complete non-issues. I agree that there's deeply troubling potential, but let's face it:

1) People generally want authoritarianism. It makes them feel safe and secure, regardless of the reality. Ranting about how walled gardens are evil is just going to make all the Apple fanboys tune you out, rather than convincing them to ditch their iProduct.
2) Security, by design, reduces functionality and ease-of-use. People hate that. Thus, security is generally minimized, unless it's authoritarian in nature. In that case, refer back to the first point.
3) Most -- not all, but most -- authoritarian controls can be disabled. Occasionally, it requires some action that voids your warranty.

Once I realized these things, I stopped caring so much. When I heard XP was going to require activation, I thought it was going to change everything. When I heard that Vista was going to have all kinds of evil DRM, I thought that would finally kill off everything that I loved about PCs and turn them into locked-down consoles. When I heard that Windows 8 was going to have secure boot, I'd shrugged my shoulders and said, "So fucking what? Slashdot has been wrong about everything they've ever panicked about, and I'm not falling into that trap again."

Maybe the Windows 8 secure boot will turn out to be a huge issue, and Linux will be locked out of 90% of all new brand name PCs, but I seriously doubt it. Every other time that Slashdot has panicked over DRM, trusted computing, or other initiatives, it's turned out to be a huge non-issue. If this does turn out to be a legitimate threat to Linux, open source, or the PC architecture, I'll deal with it then, rather than panicking about it now, like some slashbot version of Chicken Little.

p.s. I'm not saying we're not headed toward a fascist police state, but CPU serial numbers are not one of the warning signs of fascism. It may be indicative of a tolerance for fascism, but it is not, in and of itself, any barometer of political discourse.

Deleted a bunch of friends who haven't posted anything since 2005. Sucks, because some of them were skillful, subtle trolls or insightful commenters. Now I can fill up my enemy list with even more people! Not that it accomplishes much.

This is (slightly modified) from a recent post that I made. I figured I'd make a journal entry, because it was added to the story way too late to actually get any replies.

Here's what I'd do, if I were Mozilla CEO:

1) Apologize for all the zany shit that's gone on since 4.0. Can't hurt. Might help. At least, in the short term, it would mollify those who've recently complained that the Mozilla devs are uncaring, egotistical bastards.
2) Make sure that people who didn't speak for Mozilla made it clear they were speaking personally, not for Mozilla. They can say whatever they want, but they just have to make people aware of the fact that it's not a official statement from Mozilla.
3) Set up a new project, called Firecheetah or something, where development happens at breakneck speed, UI is in flux, and new technologies are readily adopted. It would have a rolling release, possibly automatically updated. This would be recommended for power users, enthusiasts, and web developers. There would be two or three channels: alpha, beta, and standard. Alpha would be like nightlies, where new code is tested first. These might crash a lot. Since the whole project is beta quality work, I'm not convinced that a beta channel even makes all that much sense, but, hey, why not. If it turns out to be redundant, it can be removed. Beta code is supposed to work as intended, but will probably need some testing to validate this. And, finally, we have the standard channel, where users are constantly inundated with new code from the beta channel, once it seems stable. If it turns out to not be stable, then they'll deal with it, since this project is more about rapid development than stability... and the next bugfix will be delivered shortly, anyway. This project is for the people who hate stagnation. It might be codenamed "Ritalin". Heh.
3) Retain the Firefox project, but as a more enterprise-friendly, stable version. Major versions would be heavily beta-tested before release. This would be the version that "normal" users and enterprises are encouraged to use. This version would be supported for a long time, with promises that the API will not change between minor revisions. Major revisions would be kept to a minimal amount each year, preferably with a leisurely development rate. Features from Firecheetah (ugh, I hate that name, but I'm not very good at branding) would be backported, after they've been sufficiently tested. My vision is for Firefox to be very conservative about changing the UI, adding superfluous features, or having crazy API changes that exist merely because someone got bored. This would be the browser that you use when you want a Firefox 2.0 oe 3.0 style experience: lean, mean, and stable. Architectural changes would be readily accepted, as long as they don't cause bloat or change the API. This project is for the people who hate change for the sake of change.

Add-on compatibility between the two projects would have to be decided, but I don't think it would really be reasonable to expect that an add-on would be cross-project. A compatibility layer could be written into Firecheetah. One might be able to enable or disable this feature, so that it doesn't bloat the browser too much. Plug-ins, such as Flash or Java, would be compatible. The Javascript engine would also be compatible, though the Firecheetah engine might be a bit faster and streamlined, at the cost of decreased stability.

I'm sure there's stuff that I'm overlooking, and I might be overestimating the ability of computer users to handle having two browser projects coming from Mozilla, but I think this is actually pretty workable.

In the end, there isn't a huge difference between having two separate projects (Firefox and.. ugh... Firecheetah) vs having different channels of one project, where one of those channels (alpha or aurora or whatever they fuck they call it) is in constant flux. However, my way leaves a place for people who just want a browser that just works. I'm aware that my ideas aren't revolutionary, unique, or perfect for every circumstance; I'm just throwing this out there, because I'm bored and haven't posted a journal entry in years.

Hey, guess what? I might get to start chemotherapy soon. Yeah, I got diagnosed with a malignant lump, went through surgery to have it removed, and am now talking to more specialists than I can afford. Oh well. But, on the positive side, it means that I can start living it up. I plan on making my life as exciting and fullfilling as possible. No more tedium in my life, unless I so choose to be bored. Hah.

Also, I met my girlfriend about a year ago. I don't remember when we started dating, though. Funny thing is, she probably doesn't either. She says, "March sounds right." So I'll just trust her on that.

I know I haven't been posting often lately, and some of it is my life becoming more busy than it had been, but mostly I just can't get excited over such non-issues as SCO, RFIDs, the RIAA taking pirates to court, etc.

SCO will die soon enough. When it comes time to put up or shut up, they will shut up. I guarantee it. It will resolve itself without any of us having to do anything. Why worry over something that will resolve itself with time? Just ignore it, and it will go away.

RFIDs. Bah. I'm all for them. I want everything in my house tagged with RFIDs, so that I can find my favorite shirt, no matter where it is. I want every store to have RFIDs on their products. That means lower prices for me, the consumer, as they don't need to hire as many inventory grunts. I want RFIDs on every damn thing. An RFID in every pot!

I don't care what the RIAA does to your grandma or little sister. The BSA has been doing this for years. SJG got unfairly busted back in the 80s by an over-eager federal agency (the secret service, I believe). There was a little bit of outcry then, but mostly it was the paranoid libertarians who made a fuss. I learned something then. The only people who care are the paranoid libertarians. That's right. The voting public don't give a shit. So, it will never stop. Ever. Get used to it. Whether it's the government, a corporation, or the military, nobody will ever care as much as you do. Everybody thinks that the victims are getting what they deserve. In many cases, they are. Nobody really cares if a few innocents get hurt along the way. Why have I gotten so apathetic? Because it's a losing battle. It's not worth fighting. Save it for something else that you can win. Anyways, I'm not paranoid enough to be a libertarian. Truth be told, I'm more of a socialist. Socialists are idealistic fools, yes, but at least we're not paranoid.

So that's that. More when I feel like it.

From this comment:

A lot of folks in here have been asking why Slack ... suck[s]. It's a fair question; Slack doesn't get ... great ... columns ... . ... Whereas distros like Red Hat and Mandrake ... [are] certainly good ... , Slack says "Here's lots of ... Linux stuff. Now make yourself a ... system!".

Slack's focus is on ... simplicity. Instead of ... wizards, Slack goes ... for an easy ... installation. It's reliable ... 99% of the time ... . [ed: what about the rest of the time?]

Additionally, [Slackware] ... is half that of Red Hat 9. Above all, Slack isn't ideal ... .

My thoughts exactly.

I pulled the wings off a fairy today
Because she wouldn't sing the song
That I wrote just for her
And I brought her to my castle
Where two giant, bronze men
Armed with swords
Fought to the death
I forced her to watch
While the giant, bronze men
Fought to the death
Stylized
"Wait!" I said. "I want more!"
"No," he agreed, "It's not enough."
And the gates opened
And the lions came out
He looked at me
And I said, "Is that all?"
He whistled
The wolves came out
And they had glowing eyes
The lions and the wolves
With the glowing eyes
Circled the giant, bronze men
And the Fairy, without her wings,
Cried softly for her lost love
While I laughed and laughed
Impatiently, he raised his sword
"Yes," I said. "You should strike."
But the other did not die.
One after another, the lions lept
And the wolves, with their eyes glowing,
Attacked while his guard was low
But none of them could bring him down
So I took out my pistol
And I shot him in the head
The wolves, they tore him apart
And the lions, they ate his heart
"Such sport," I said
And he grinned
So I said, "Give her back her wings."
The giant, bronze man shrugged
"I don't care about her any more," I said
"Let her fly away," I said, "if she can."
And the wolves
With their eyes glowing
Salivated
Because they were fast
And she was sad
For her love had died
With a bullet in his head

Let's say that you're at Blockbuster, and your girlfriend picks up a movie about some poor immigrant family that comes to New York. They have a rough time of making it, fight lots of bigotry, and need to solve their own interpersonal problems. Blah blah blah. So, what am I supposed to take away from this? That if you work hard, you can accomplish anything?

Fuck that. I don't watch uplifting movies. You know why? My own life has been hard enough that I don't need to see other people struggling through theirs. My life should be an uplifting movie! In fact, maybe I'll make a movie about my life. I guess I'd have to skip a few years, where nothing ever happens, but -- hey -- everyone has boring spots like that, right? No girls, no booze, and no job makes for a rather boring chapter. On the other hand, my FPS skills have improved.

Let's take last weekend as an example. I met this chick from the internet who seemed to be a little clingy, but she thought I'm hot. Never turn down the attentions of a willing female -- that's what I thought. Well, I was wrong. Very, very wrong.

Clingy is probably the best thing I can say about her. Turns out that she's inbred; her grandfather raped her mother. Her step-father raped her, resulting in her first child. Nice childhood, eh? After that, she dated someone who broke her jaw, which remains broken to this day.

That's all pretty fucked up. In my mind, it gives you some room to behave in an erratic or self-destructive manner. I'll even forgive a little bit of anti-social behavior, as long as you're actively trying to get psychological help (for instance, seeing a psychologist or a counselor). I'm hardly the type to discriminate against mood disorders, seeing as I myself am bipolar, but she displayed a wide variety (a veritable shopping list) of symptoms for bipolar disorder, depression, various anxiety disorders, a very stunted social development (rude only goes so far to describe someone like this), codependency, suicide, etc.

Not good.

Then she told about this one time that she was with a friend of hers who happened to bash in the head of his ex-girlfriend. She had cheated on him, you see. My friend then told me that the physical act of murder had turned her on.

Oh my.

I was pretty much ready for anything after that revelation, but then she told me how she had practiced vampirism (drinking human blood) and wanted to practice cannibalism.

Okay.

"So, what happened next?" you're wondering. It pretty much went downhill, except for the sex. The sex was nice. But after that, I started finding her behavior too disturbing. She found my behavior to be entirely too judgemental and uneven. I was willing to accept the psychological problems, but the impulses and fetishes were too much for me to handle. The evening began to degenerate. She announced that she was going home early, even going so far as to insult me (while using my own phone) when calling her friend for a ride home. That was just too much. I lost it at that point. I told her to get the fuck out of my apartment. When a 250 pound girl shows up for a blind date, tells you she gets turned on murder and cannibalism, and then insults your hospitality... well... one can consider this a bad date. And I was insane enough to have sex with her. WHY?? Oh yeah. That's right. I'm bipolar (dictionary defintion: one who has sex with scary people and gets easily addicted to narcotics... oh yeah... and lots of mood swings).

Well, I guess I kicked her out a little too harshly, cuz she called the cops on me. They told me not to contact her, unless she contacts me first. I readily agreed to that.

So, what happens next? You know that can't be the end of the tale. I mean, a true psychotic date would never let it end there. Well, let's just say that it's continuing to drag on, with her making all sorts of violent threats. The sad thing (for her, at least) is that she's too stupid to realize that she's incriminating herself left and right. Leaving hardcopy evidence of violent threats is pretty stupid. For example, I archive all my Yahoo! Instant Messenger conversations, which are stored on their remote database. This is not something that I can modify.

I've complained to Yahoo, asking that they revoke her Y! IM privileges. I'm not stupid. I know that's pretty useless. But it's still something that leaves me feeling a little bit better about the situation. At this time, I'm not interested in involving the local cops. Maybe if she keeps this nonsense up. Who knows. I just want to forget I ever fucked her.

Now, where can I find a movie with this plot?

The people who read my journal need shiny object and capsule reviews, not essays. You damned, lazy bastards.

You know, I'm amazed you're still fans, after the abuse you take from me in this journal. I'm proud to have all of you (arrgghhh! I almost said "you all"! kill me now! errr.. maybe just slap my knuckles.) ummm.. where was I? Oh yeah. I'm proud to have all of you as friends. Friends, fans, whatever... I mod them all up +5 points.

Please don't be offended if I don't add you as a friend. I still read all your comments.

Oh yeah. Check out NanoGator's posts and journal. He's a great writer. He's a bit of a blowhard or wanker or troll or whatever you call people like me, but he's very interesting and opinionated.

Sorry I haven't been posting in Slashdot stories too much lately. I haven't had anything relevant to say. Don't much care about SCO, the RIAA, or Slashdot's other boogey men.

Back when I was a kid, we didn't call it "sharing". We all knew what we were doing. We were breaking the law and taking what wasn't ours. We were stealing computer games. We called it "warez", not "sharing".

I was a teenager, and I don't do that any more. I've learned to get along without the things I can't buy. I'm trying to wean myself off of my dependency to all possessions, but it's not easy. I can watch Fight Club or read anarchist propoganda and feel stupid for being such a consumerist sheep. But it's not easy to give up those possessions.

You know how I came this far? I realized that 99% of everything is crap. I decided to start raising my standards. Why do I patronize stores that treat me like a thief? Why do I buy compact discs that only have one good song? Why do I watch movies that only have one good scene?

Empower yourself. Say that you're not going to stand for mediocrity. I own about 100, maybe 120, compact discs. I bought each one of them after carefully debating as to whether I'd want to listen to every song repeatedly for years. Do I absolutely love every track on Angst (KMFDM)? Yes. Do I absolutely love every track on Aqualung (Jethro Tull)? Yes. Do I love every track on No Prayer For The Dying (Iron Maiden)? NO. Definitely not. That's why I didn't buy that disc. I'm a huge Iron Maiden fan, yet I refuse to buy sub-par albums. I don't care if my Iron Maiden collection is incomplete. I'm not that obsessive.

I don't understand why anyone would buy a compact disc that has only one good song on it. As a correlation, I do not understand why anyone would like a band that puts out such horrible albums. Every band is allowed to make a bad album every now and then (No Prayer For The Dying, for example), but if you find yourself constantly liking only one song per album, maybe you consider whether you actually like this band at all...

It sounds like the common complaint is that bands today are only capable of writing one good song on each album. I don't know where this comes from. What bands are you listening to? None of the bands I like do this. I'm not really into highly mainstream music, but some of my favorite bands are quite popular. Okay, I can't think of any. But I'm sure someone out there has heard of the Butthole Surfers, The Melvins, GWAR or KMFDM. Hell, the Butthole Surfers have even had vidoes on MTV.

Why are you limiting yourselves to just new music, if you think all the new bands suck so bad? Why not buy some Led Zeppelin or Black Sabbath? I often buy albums from the 70s and 80s that I never got around to buying back then. In fact, there are still hundreds of albums that I need to buy, like Dark Side of the Moon. Nope, I dont have that yet. Haven't gotten around to buying it yet.

Why are you downloading the discography of Pink Floyd? Is it to sample the albums? Yeah, right. Whatever. You've already heard every Pink Floyd album every made on the radio. You know whether you like DSotM or The Wall, since you've heard every song off them. Why do you need to download those songs? Because you're cheap and don't want to spend any money?

Gimme a break. Stop acting like you're sticking it to The Man. Fucking hypocrites. You're just greedy, consumerist sheep. Stop lying to yourself and everyone else around you.

If there's one thing I can't stand, it's hypocrites. And liars. And ignorant sheep. And you people are all of the above.

Yeah, yeah, enemy list me, but you know it's the truth. And, for once, I'm not trolling.

These are brands I trust. I used to trust Sony, but this is new Sony, under new management. The Old Sony never would have marketed cheap crap that breaks one day out of warranty. The New Sony... well... the jury is still out on them.

• Asus
• TDK
• Tyan
• Fujitsu
• Samsung
• Siemens
• ViewSonic
• KDS
• Panasonic
• Pioneer
• LG
• IBM
• Intel

Whatever you do, don't buy Philips. Blech. Oh, sure, they make perfectly fine products, but you get burned by the customer support every time. Forget about them. It's not worth it. And watch out for HP. HP kind of sucks now. I miss DEC. Fuck you, Compaq.

Yeah, yeah, I know some of them are just OEMs. But ViewSonic monitors really are pretty good.

Might want to watch out for Teac, too...

Holy shit. I think I finally have it all figured out.

My dad has borderline personality disorder, and my mom is a control freak (and maybe has avoidant personality disorder, too). No wonder I turned out bipolar. It all makes so much sense now. All those years of my dad going through maniacal rages for no reason, always being so distant and unemotional, and constantly threatening and insulting me... I never put it all together until now. And my mom supported it all because she saw it as a form of control and order. To someone who obsessively seeks control, fear and violence seem to be legitimate forms of governance -- in this case, raising your children.

Well, the cycle is ending with me, because I have no fucking desire at all to have children. My genes die with me, baby. I'm one of a kind, and there aren't going to be any little knock-offs running around, if I can help it. Kids are a pain in the ass. I like kids just fine. I mean, I like other people's kids just fine. Big distinction there. Let them worry about the teenage pregnancies, college education, doctor and hospital bills, clothes, and peer pressure. I'll just babysit if I ever feel the overwhelming urge to procreate. That should cure me of it rather quickly.

Of course, if I did have chilren, they'd probably be taken away from me. If I had two boys, I'd name them Cain and Abel. Abel would be looking his shoulder for his entire life. Haha. I might even name my kids after superheroes. Imagine calling Batman, Superman, Spiderman (yes, yes, I know it's correctly spelled "Spider-Man", but that ruins the whole naming convention), and Wonder Woman to dinner. That'd be a blast. Or maybe I'd skip the whole Bible/Marvel/DC thing and name them after generic English words, like Book, Table, Song, and Phone. I think Song sounds a little bit female. Book and Table are almost definitely male. I guess Phone could go either way. Well, after I exhausted all those possibilties (or became bored with them... whichever...), I could look to Science for answers. The period table of elements has dozens of great names on it, like Neon, Argon, Plutonium, and Magnesium. Also, I think negative words, such as high crimes, could be fun. How funny would it be to name your kids Treason, Arson, Insomnia, and Nightmare. Insomnia and Nightmare would be especially funny, because the kids would probably never sleep.

By now, most of you are probably praying I never have children. Don't worry. I'm pretty much against it right now. I guess that could change in the next five years, but I don't think so. Life is exciting enough without further overpopulation. Anyways, I can always clone myself.