I read your post, and I feel compelled to reply, but I'm not sure what to say really. You sound like a reasonable person just trying to make your way in the world, but there is a certain despair in that post. It might be time to think about emigrating from the US. People like you probably have no hope left there, as your prayer is destined to remain unanswered I think. Your political structures are all corrupt and even the pretense of Democracy seems gone. I live in New Zealand, and we welcome skilled migrants. Especially ones with good english language, and a bit of capital. Seriously, you should think about it.