Ayato's Journal: I'm sick of those nightmares ;(

I'm sick of those nightmares...
I'm sick of being alone...
I'm sick of school and all the work...
I'm sick of not being able to work on my engine...
I'm sick of not doing anything that I want...
I'm sick of expecting more from others...
I'm sick of sleeping alone...
I'm sick of waiting for something to happen...
I'm sick of being me...

I'm sick of you: ignoring me...
I'm sick of you: your stupid comments on my loneliness...
I'm sick of you: always talking in class...
I'm sick of you: always making fun of me...
I'm sick of you: always thinking I'm there to put you down...
I'm sick of you: getting better grades with less work...
I'm sick of you: saying you know what it's like when you actualy don't...
I'm sick of you: lying to my face...
I'm sick of you: always understanding it before me...
I'm sick of you: always talking about your dirty moves when you don't even have any...
I'm sick of you: complaining that it's boring when you have everything...
I'm sick of you: left me for the better life with her...
I'm sick of you: pretending you're a looser when you have potencial...
I'm sick of you: only calling me on weekends because you need help in a certain subject...
I'm sick of you: talking to me at school but keeping it anonymous when outside...
I'm sick of you: thinking you're the only one that can say and have deep thoughts...
I'm sick of you: always saying I don't belong here...
I'm sick of you: using me for grades, only for grades...

It's not fair, they all have girlfriends now.

What do I have... nothing...