Journal: I need motivation

I need to motivate myself. I've been coming in to work every day, but just not doing anything while I'm here until the situation is urgent.

I don't know why.

Management hasn't noticed because I still get stuff done. I find myself having to tell lies all the time to cover for my laziness (status reports, etc.) until the next burst to get things done.

I'm not a lazy guy.

Am I depressed, or just tired?

I know I'm tired. Not sure if I'm depressed.