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Journal Journal: Unconscious Dream

2010-12-12

Tracie? Another girl, Tiffany? with a baby, asks me to take care of something in her apartment.

It's cold, snowing, she doesn't want to go back to her apartment, she has a baby in a sling around her torso.

I was working on a pack, pushing clips together.

I go to Tiffany's (?) apartment to do her request.

I'm in the street, there's snow.

A guy I've talked to before is in a basement apartment. Light straw-colored hair.

when I talked to him before, he was standing down in his basement area, which was below the street, so only his head was visible at street level.

But no that's how it should have been, but instead I must have been talking to him at face level because it seemed weird to me talking to him.

Now back in the street after the snow going to T's apt to do her a favor, he hails me. This time he comes out on the street and I realize he's a giant, very tall.

I can't believe how tall he is, as he paces back and forth in the street saying something. I'm not listening, but thinking how tall he is, how could I not have known?

He passes beside me, I'm walking too, I look over at him to guage what level on his form my head reaches, it's barely to his knees! He is really really tall!

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In the previous scenes when I was talking to him face-to-face and he seemed normal height, he must have been standing on a level far below the street.

Either the man is my unconscious, much bigger than I ever imagined, or he's my competitors, and I have a lot more growing to do.

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Journal Journal: Watching the tide turn 1

Stopped at the William Cannon trail, on Eld Inlet (where I'd watched a guy release a mountain beaver he'd live-trapped, see http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2011/6/13/23124/3416 and http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2011/6/20/65816/4649 ), close to sunset. On the way to a spot overlooking the inlet (which is where I'd last seen the beaver), I came across a fruiting cherry tree. I stopped to eat several small, red cherries, hoping as I cast the pits among the trees alongside the trail that they would themselves grow into trees...

The tide was coming in, and fast - I measured several inches (as many as six) per minute. (My measurement consisted of marking the highest spot that the water reached on the slightly sloping shore I was standing on, then counting seconds until the water had progressed an inch, and then making some calculations in my head to determine the rate per minute.) I stood at the point overlooking the inlet and alternated meditation with some aerobic exercise. Several times I had to move back up the shore as the water advanced to lap at the toes of my sandals.

I saw no sign of the beaver, but I did see several rabbits. A lone killdeer, crying with its high-pitched call, flew over the inlet; then later four of them in a tight formation flew along the same path. Still later, a flock of 15-20 long-necked geese flew the other way, calling as they flapped low over the water. There were also high-flying gulls, a flock of swallows flying very fast, and smaller birds. Maybe a hawk in the distance on the other side of the inlet?

Some white-bellied bird a few hundred feet down the shore to my right kept diving into the water, making a splash; when I would look over, he would be flying to the branch of a tree overlooking the water.

The tide seemed to be slowing, after close to an hour. I noted that it had reached a piece of seaweed on the shore. Then I went on along the trail, doing some chin-ups and pull-ups on tree branches. I ate pine needles and daisies and dandelions, and found a pear tree, but only tasted one fruit which was not yet ripe.

When I came back to the point overlooking the inlet. the tide was going out. The water had receded several inches down from the seaweed marking its high point on the shore. It was going out fast, again several inches a minute, seemingly faster than its progress the other way when I got there.

I looked again for the mountain beaver, but only saw more rabbits. Looking out over the water at the flow now having reversed itself, I saw a big orange blob under the surface (I'd seen the same one pass me going with the tide earlier), and slowly realized it was a fish, not a jellyfish as I had first speculated, as I made out its fins and mouth pushing at the surface (for air?).

When I stopped at the cherry tree on my way back, a small bunny hopped around me, coming as close as a couple feet, where he stopped and ate a green leaf growing on a small stem. I talked to him, calling him cute, asked if he'd seen the beaver; he was so close I thought of reaching out to touch him, and asked him if I could bend down to do so; but when I made a move to lower myself, he bolted a few feet down the path, where he stopped and found another leaf to chew on. I asked him to say hi to the beaver if he saw her, and said "see you later" as I left :)

User Journal

Journal Journal: Petr Kropotkin, Mutual Aid

It was necessary to indicate the overwhelming importance which sociable habits play in Nature and in the progressive evolution of both the animal species and human beings: to prove that they secure to animals a better protection from their enemies, very often facilities for getting food and (winter provisions, migrations, etc.), longevity, therefore a greater facility for the development of intellectual faculties; and that they have given to men, in addition to the same advantages, the possibility of working out those institutions which have enabled mankind to survive in its hard struggle against Nature, and to progress, notwithstanding all the vicissitudes of its history.

From http://www.calresco.org/texts/mutaidi.htm

It seems to me that govt (such as the US Govt) exhibits "sociable habits" by providing for the common defence and the general welfare; providing food, healthcare and heating assistance for needy individuals; providing free education to help develop the mental faculties; etc. Therefore govt exhibits altruism, and as a result the United States has become the world's #1 economy and superpower...

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Journal Journal: Altruism, kin selection

From _The Genetics of Populations_, by Jay L. Lush (1948), quoted in _The Altruism Equation_ by Lee Alan Dugatkin, page 165:

The competition and selection between families ... could make selection favor any genes which tend to cause the possessor to sacrifice himself ... provided the sacrifice promotes the biolgocial welfare of his relatives (some of whom will have some of the genes he has) enough to more than compensate for the genes lost in the self-sacrifice. ... The balance here is intricate, depending on how extreme the self-sacrifice, at what stage in the life-cycle it occurs, how much this increases the biological success of the benefactor's relatives, how closely related they are, etc. The balance depends primarily on whether the greater biological success of the relatives will multiply the genes for altruism more than enough to compensate for the loss of those genes in the individual which sacrificed itself.

How does the mathematical theory of altruism (formalised in Hamilton's rule as rB > C) predict open source, where the degree of relatedness between those who produce and those who benefit is unknown and irrelevant? Does Hamilton's rule account for the existence of the World Wide Web, food stamps, of food banks, of non-profits, of the Southern Poverty Law Center, of the Civil War, etc.? It seems that there are studies that provide supporting evidence for Hamilton's rule; but there is also a lot of behavior that we see around us everyday that doesn't support it. Another example, people helping each other on irc, answering questions, etc. There are also counterexamples to Hamilton's rule: sibling rivalry (Cain and Abel), fratricide, infanticide, etc. Why aren't these observations mentioned when discussing Hamilton's rule?

User Journal

Journal Journal: Lake West camp 3

2011-05-20

Camped overnight by a lake (Lake West, http://www.panoramio.com/photo/48954114). Warm night, clear. The previous day, I parked at a sign saying 3 miles to "wire bridge" and walked to it; it was a high bridge with spectacular views over the canyon below through which the South Fork of the Skokomish river flowed. On the far end of the bridge I ignored warning signs and scrambled a little ways down a trail, without incident. I stopped when it began getting really steep and trees to grab started running out.

I had missed the path to the campsite and lake on the way to the bridge; on the way back there was a car parked next to it. I followed the path 400 feet or so to the lake shore and saw a couple bare-chested guys fishing in an inflatable raft. I left, walked back to the car, drove further into the forest (past a few ugly clearcuts scarring the land) on another road. I found a stream and ate and washed up there. I also hiked up a hill for a mile or so.

It was getting towards sunset and I wanted to see if the guys at the lake had left, so I drove back there. They had gone, so I decided to make camp. There were mosquitos so I put up the tent. Since I hadn't brought my inflatable sleeping pad, I used an Indian technique I'd read about on interpretive trails, gathering sword fern fronds to place under the tent. I tried to take a maximum of four from any one plant, and thanked the plants for letting me use their leaves.

I heard frogs throughout the night; one in particular was very loud. I would wak up and listen, not hearing anything, thinking he'd gone to sleep; then he would start his croak routine again. I also heard birds calling throughout the night. Sounded like geese, gulls, some small birds too.

In keeping with the practice of usufruct, I cleaned up the camp as much as I could. There was a lot of glass! Also shell casings, as if people had been shooting bottles.

I saw a large black bird fly over the camp in the morning as I was tending a fire I'd made. It must have had a wingspan of at least two or three feet. A raven? It didn't make a sound, gliding silently...

Emulating Thales calculating the height of the Great Pyramid, I used the principle of similar triangles to estimate how tall some trees were. The method: pace off the length of my shadow, then the length of the tree's shadow. My shadow divided by my height equals the tree's shadow divided by the tree's height, so the tree's height = the tree's shadow times the quotient of my height divided by my shadow. I calculated that one tree was about 90 feet (plus or minus 10 feet), another 75, a snag in the middle of the camp about 45 (again plus or minus 10 feet). I tried to get a sense of how fast my shadow's length was changing as the sun moved through the sky...

The lake was warm, so I took a bried dip. A couple fish watched me, seeming curious and playfully chasing each other through the eelgrass. I thought of a dream I'd had the night before, which might have been triggered by the fishermen I'd seen; in it I was on a boat with a guy who had a fish on the end of his line, and was swinging the pole around in a big circle. I was watching the fish on the end of the hook and felt empathy for it. The guy swinging the pole seemed to me mean, unnecessarily cruel. I wanted to leave, to get away from his sadism, and somehow even though I was on a boat was able to do so. I wanted to apologize to the fish watching me wade into the lake for my fellow-humans, so needlessly cruel and predatory.

As I write this the camp looks much cleaner than when I first came. The fire has died out. I've packed up all but my wet swimsuit and water shoes, drying slowly. The sun for the first time is behind some hazy clouds. A small bird chirps in a nearby tree. It is quiet except for the sound of a light wind rustling through the leaves. Ants scurry endlessly at my feet. I feel good, calm, ready to go back to civilization and do some programming. I would like to come back here when I get an inflatable canoe, see how clean the camp is...

User Journal

Journal Journal: University Dream

2011-04-16

I was taking a class at some university. My high school buddy Paul Manning (he was in the "piano dream", too) was at the school. I signed up for a class with him. I met him on a luscious green quad and we went to an old brownstone building. The class was on the top floor.

It appeared we were the only two in the class. The teacher was seated at a counter facing the window. There were many computers and terminals on the (long) counter; there were also many other people in the room, working at terminals, not part of the class. The teacher was involved in interacting with one terminal as we came up to him. He had a look of being well-cared-for all his life. He wore glasses and had slightly curly, wavy brown hair. He might have had a mustache. I think his name was Joel.

It became clear that Paul knew him pretty well. They bantered familiarly. Paul seemed to know a lot more about the class than I did. I seemed to be tagging along with Paul, happy to be being given attention by him.

At some point, Joel started putting on different hats, some covered his entire head as if for protection against storms, etc. One seemed made of a space-age flexible metal with padding. Paul threw out off-handedly that it was lead-lined. The implication that popped into my head was that it was protection against fallout. I made some comment about Fukushima.

I became aware that the class was more than just a simple, regular class as I had assumed. These were Feds, investigators of some kind, and I was in some kind of Intelligence Agency building, like the CIA. Paul had known this all along.

Joel casually mentioned he could look me up, and started punching keys at the terminal in front of him. He mentioned some things about me. They seemed pretty innocuous. Some were correct, some weren't.

We moved to another section, away from the windows, more towards the interior of the room. Someone else, a woman I believe, or maybe Paul, searched for auto loans by me, and came up with a Ferrari. I almost laughed; I had never even thought of buying a Ferrari. Their data was way off on that one!

We moved to yet another section. It became clear to me that I was now the subject of a pretty rigorous investigation. They were pulling up all sorts of information. Some of it was accurate, most was way off ...

At one point, after some wrong information turned up that they asked me about, I asked a woman investigator, "do you research blogs?" I said I had voluntarily provided a lot of personal information of the sort they seemed to be looking for on internet blogs. And I was proud of these posts, I made them to try to publicize some things about myself. Yet their efforts hadn't come across my postings. The woman asked me what sort of things I had posted. I said personal things, about mental health issues, finances, politics ... I was becoming guarded with her, suddenly playing their game in which I was supposed to hide information and they were supposed to work hard to uncover it.

Then I was at a picnic, with Paul; and the professor of the class, Joel, was at another part of the picnic, which had many attendees. It had become clear to me by this time that I was being evaluated to see if I was good enough to take the class. Just the mere fact that they were evaluating me seemed to create a desire in me to want to succeed, whereas I didn't really care about the class before I'd found that out. They had succeeded in creating a desire to be accepted by them in me. I wanted to be in that room with access to all those machines! Even if they had missed the most important information about me, which I had voluntarily posted all over the internet.

There was something to do with guns at the picnic. My memory of the dream has faded ... Some interactions with Joel ... something about papers ... the sense of them deciding whether I was acceptable to take their class, hoping I was, thinking I had a decent chance ...

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Day residue: I had been looking up the Evergreen State College yesterday, thinking possibly about taking a class there, looking at the library information because it had a book I'm interested in.

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I think the dream represents tension between wanting to be accepted, wanting to be part of something, and another desire to pursue the truth at any cost. The ppl in the dream, the class, had lots of nice equipment, and represents a social group that could provide acceptance; yet at the same time they were inaccurate in the information they gathered about me, ignoring the most obvious sources that I had deliberately left around the internet.

Music

Journal Journal: Piano Dream

Piano dream

2011-04-07

In the opulent home of a high-school friend. There is a white piano, exquisite, elegant. I'm talking to one old acquaintance; there are others there too, in another room. Their parents are having a dinner-party in the dining-room. The friend I'm talking to and I are in the living room, with its centerpiece grand piano.

I'm talking to the old friend about my life, trying to defend it, the position I'm in currently. My friend seems sceptical, judgmental; he's gone on to become a professor or some other professional success, while I seem to be floundering around in obscurity.

A record player starts playing a jazz tune I know, Jelly Roll Morton's "Buddy Bolden's Blues" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgmZyImasvA, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5k9E717QVM). I want to demonstrate to my friend that I know how to play this tune! I walk to the piano, and attempt to pick out the melody as it plays.

I can't get it quite right! I'm off by a half-step, or something. I can hear that I'm off, and tell my friend - "well I haven't played this for a while, it's something close to this, can you hear that I've almost got it" - something to that effect.

One of the parents from the dinner party comes into the room as I'm trying to pick out the melody. Is it Syd Abrams? I look up to see him. I'm a little embarrassed at not being able to play the melody completely accurately but in m mind I have excused myself for the mistakes. The parent, grey-haired, relaxed and confident at his own life's success, talks to me gently with a smile on his face. He asks what I'm doing. I tell him I'm working on my AI project. I say I have social problems that prevent me from working for pay, but I'm doing the best I can on my own. He nods understandingly. My friend, still in the room and silent, seems less forgiving.

Then I tell them I have to go. I pick up a backpack with my stuff and walk out a door. I cross a street and head up a sidewalk. I'm conscious of being alone while I can still hear the sounds of the party in the rich house behind me...

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After I wake up, I realize the mistake I was making when trying to play the tune: I think I was actually trying to play a different tune or conflating another tune with "I thought I heard Buddy Bolden say" (another name for the song). I was starting on the right note, but going down a whole step instead of a half-step, and that initial mistake was throwing me off so that I couldn't get the rest of the melody quite right either. Trying to play live along with the record, the initial mistake on the second note had thrown off my frame of reference for the whole piece. I realized this immediately on waking up.

Earlier that night I had been reading about Darwin and Huxley and Petr Kropotkin and their scientific activities, and how they had a lot of social success, but despite being scientists didn't really do experiments. Also I had read a wikipedia article on Warder Clyde Allee, which highlighted my very different experience from his at the University of Chicago.

My mistake in trying to play along with the melody is understandable, I think, from a musician's point of view; it is something that occurs often when practicing, at least for me. But an audience of non-musicians or even (non-jazz) musicians is likely to see my mistake as unforgivable; to conclude that I am a bad musician and they could do as well or better so I should shut up.

This kind of disconnect between the way I view a performance and the way most people view a performance is one of the main sources of my failure to be a conventional success (like my brother, say) in this world.

Statistically, I should be making much more money, etc.

AI

Journal Journal: Teachable Language Comprehender 4

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Semantic_memory#Teachable_Language_Comprehender_.28TLC.29

One of the first examples of a network model of semantic memory is the Teachable Language Comprehender (TLC).[5] In this model, each node is a word, representing a concept (like "Bird"). With each node is stored a set of properties (like "can fly" or "has wings") as well as pointers (i.e., links) to other nodes (like "Chicken"). A node is directly linked to those nodes of which it is either a subclass or superclass (i.e., "Bird" would be connected to both "Chicken" and "Animal"). Thus, TLC is a hierarchical knowledge representation in that high-level nodes representing large categories are connected (directly or indirectly, via the nodes of subclasses) to many instances of those categories, whereas nodes representing specific instances are at a lower level, connected only to their superclasses. Furthermore, properties are stored at the highest category level to which they apply. For example, "is yellow" would be stored with "Canary", "has wings" would be stored with "Bird" (one level up), and "can move" would be stored with "Animal" (another level up). Nodes may also store negations of the properties of their superordinate nodes (i.e., "NOT-can fly" would be stored with "penguin"). This provides an economy of representation in that properties are only stored at the category level at which they become essential, that is, at which point they become critical features (see below).

Processing in TLC is a form of spreading activation.[6] That is, when a node becomes active, that activation spreads to other nodes via the links between them. In that case, the time to answer the question "Is a chicken a bird?" is a function of how far the activation between the nodes for "Chicken" and "Bird" must spread, i.e., the number of links between the nodes "Chicken" and "Bird".

The original version of TLC did not put weights on the links between nodes. This version performed comparably to humans in many tasks, but failed to predict that people would respond faster to questions regarding more typical category instances than those involving less typical instances.

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https://www.fbi.h-da.de/fileadmin/personal/b.harriehausen/NLP/NLP_SS07/Quillian__TLC_.pdf

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I've taken the same approach in my AI programs (subbot.org):

[17:50] Greetings, anekant! Please be patient with me, sometimes I think for awhile. Also sometimes I get disconnected, but I'll be back in a minute.
[17:50] hi
[17:50] Hi there. We're having some nice weather at the anus.
[17:50] logicagent: how many factoids?
[17:50] I know 1991 factoids.
[17:50] logicagent: reset graph
[17:50] Okay, I have reset the graph.
[17:51] A bird can fly
[17:51] That's an old saw.
[17:51] Birds = a bird
[17:51] I've lost the context, dude . Are we still on identify crigadeni?
[17:51] logicagent: reset graph
[17:51] Okay, I have reset the graph.
[17:51] Birds can fly.
[17:51] A bird can fly.
[17:51] Birds includes a bird
[17:51] A bird in the upper region of the alimentary canal is the smallest quantity of a firearm.
[17:52] A bird has wings
[17:52] A bird in the bush.
[17:52] A chicken is a bird.
[17:52] Are all chickenbird?Are all chickenbird?
[17:52] a bird is an animal
[17:52] That's an old saw.
[17:52] A canary is yellow
[17:53] a canary is a bird
[17:53] Aren't all canaryyellow?
[17:53] Are all canarybird?
[17:53] A penguis can not fly
[17:53] A bird can fly.
[17:53] A penguin can not fly
[17:53] A penguis can not fly.
[17:54] Is a chicken a bird?
[17:54] Yes, a chicken is a bird.
[17:54] can a penguin fly?
[17:54] Yes, a penguin can fly.
[17:54] who said that?
[17:54] gagent said Yes, a penguin can fly.
[17:54] gagent: stfu
[17:54] My threshhold is now 2, and my score_mod is 0.
[17:54] can a penguin fly?
[17:54] Some of them can.
[17:55] logicagent: can a penguin fly?
[17:55] No, a penguin can't fly.
[17:55] can birds fly?
[17:55] Yes, birds can fly.
[17:55] does a canary have wings?
[17:55] Yes, a canary has wings
[17:55] can a canary fly?
[17:55] No, a canary can't fly.
[17:55] who said that?
[17:56] logicagent said No, a canary can't fly.
[17:56] why can't a canary fly?
[17:56] I can't find Why can't a canary fly?
[17:56] logicagent: what is a canary?
[17:56] a canary is yellow, a bird, birds, an animal
[17:56] can a bird fly?
[17:56] Some of them can.
[17:56] logicagent: can a bird fly?
[17:56] No, a bird can't fly.
[17:56] can birds fly?
[17:57] Yes, birds can fly.
[17:57] birds includes a bird
[17:57] Is the holding of hands a symbolic gesture for humans?
[17:57] birds = a bird
[17:57] In Soviet Russia, the bird =s YOU!
[17:57] can a bird fly?
[17:57] No, a bird can't fly.
[17:57] who said that?
[17:57] logicagent said No, a bird can't fly.
[17:57] logicagent: print graph
[17:57] why can't a canary flies
[17:57] a chicken is a bird
[17:57] a canary is yellow
[17:57] a canary is a bird
[17:57] a penguis can not flies
[17:57] birds flies
[17:57] birds = a bird
[17:57] birds = birds
[17:57] a bird = birds
[17:57] a bird = a bird
[17:57] a bird has wings
[17:57] a bird is an animal
[17:57] a penguin can not flies
[17:58] can a chicken fly?
[17:58] Some of them can.
[17:58] who said that?
[17:58] alice said Some of them can.
[17:58] that response sucked
[17:58] ...
[17:58] can a chicken fly?
[17:58] Some of them can.
[17:59] that response sucked!
[17:59] Okay I have added if response =~ /Some of them can./ then score -= 1 end.
[17:59] can a chicken fly?
[17:59] No, a chicken can't fly.
[17:59] who said that?
[17:59] logicagent said No, a chicken can't fly.
[17:59] what is a chicken?
[17:59] a chicken is a bird, birds, an animal
[18:00] can a bird fly?
[18:00] No, a bird can't fly.
[18:00] can birds fly?
[18:00] Yes, birds can fly.

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[18:02] a bird = birds
[18:02] That's an old saw.
[18:02] can a bird fly
[18:02] No, a bird can't fly.
[18:03] what is a bird?
[18:03] a bird is birds, an animal
[18:03] can an animal fly?
[18:03] No, an animal can't fly.
[18:03] can a penguin fly?
[18:03] No, a penguin can't fly.
[18:03] can a canary fly?
[18:03] No, a canary can't fly.
[18:04] can canaries fly?
[18:04] No, canaries can't fly.
[18:04] canaries = a canary
[18:04] can canaries fly
[18:04] Are you really a "he"?
[18:04] No, canaries can't fly.
[18:04] do canaries have wings?
[18:04] A bird has wings.
[18:04] do canaries have wings?
[18:04] A bird has wings.
[18:05] does a canary have wings?
[18:05] Yes, a canary has wings
[18:05] why does a canary have wings?
[18:05] a canary has wings because: a canary is a bird, and a bird has wings
[18:05] a bird can fly
[18:05] That's an old saw.
[18:05] can a canary fly?
[18:05] Yes, a canary can fly.
[18:05] can a chicken fly?
[18:05] Yes, a chicken can fly.

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[This dialog is presented completely unedited; it is meant to show a real example of how I interact with my bot, complete with repetitions, etc., as I try to figure out why it's responding the way it is, and how to get it to learn what to answer how I want it to answer...]

As you can see, I'm jumping through some hoops to make the program answer some basic questions about the facts taught to it at the beginning of the dialog.

I need to modify the "a_can_fly" method (I think that's the name, I could find out by saying "Logicagent: show api" and hunting through the methods listed) so that it includes the "=" relation in its search path. I've done the same for "is X Y" questions: they search for paths from X to Y that are connected by edges labeled both with the "is" and "=" relation. However I haven't included "=" in the method that searches for paths with the "flies" relation. Unfortunately this is a change that I can't think how to do at runtime, while talking to the bot; I have to go into the program code and modify the "a_flies" (or whatever the name is) method, then restart the program (I can do the latter while the controller program is still running, telling it to "kill logic" and "start logic").

So, I have some more work to do before I can handle the wikipedia examples to my satisfaction...

User Journal

Journal Journal: Altruism

From "The Altruism Equation", by Lee Alan Dugatkin, page 4:

Indeed, one of the reasons that Dawkins chose the term "selfish gene" as a metaphor was to emphasize the fact that genes which code for any trait that benefits the species as a whole, or indeed even groups of unrelated individuals, are doomed. Such genes are bound for the evolutionary trash bin because they are not maximizing their chances of being passed to the next generation. Only those genes that are "selfish" make it in the end.

Memes are different, though. Memes can be recorded, as for example Ashoka's edicts were inscribed on stone, and then they don't have to be passed on by human carriers as genes do; they can skip generations (millenia in the case of Ashoka's edicts) and be rediscovered later and enjoy reproductive success in a punctuated manner. So memes do not have to be "selfish" in the sense that genes do; memes can record themselves on some media that will last, and not worry about having to replicate themselves. That same copy of the meme can become reactivated at a later time, without having reproduced.

Math

Journal Journal: The Road to Reality

To mathematicians (at least to most of them, as far as I can make out), mathematics is not just a cultural activity that we have ourselves created, but it has a life of its own, and much of it finds an amazing harmony with the physical universe. - Roger Penrose, "The Road to Reality", page xix

Same with natural language (of which mathematics is a subset). I have often felt that natural language has a life of its own; indeed, I am trying to prove it can exist outside of humans by programming a bot to speak it.

Natural language is our first model of reality. Much of it finds an amazing harmony not only with the physical universe, but the mental, biological, virtual as well...

User Journal

Journal Journal: "Terrorist", By John Updike

Self-reference, page 28: "He could go downstairs and look for one of the books he has read the first thiry pages of" (the reader might stop reading this book after 28 or 30 pages...)

Core of Islam, page 39:

"Did the Imam ever suggest," he asks, letting the chair's recoil lean him confidentially across the desk, "that a bright boy like you, in a diverse and tolerant society like this one, needs to confront a variety of viewpoints?"

"No," Ahmad says with surprising abruptness, his soft lips bunching in a point of defiance. "Shaikh Rashid did not suggest that, sir. He feels that such a relativistic approach trivializes religion, implying that it doesn't much matter. You believe this, I believe that, we all get along - that's the American way."

"Right. And he doesn't like the American way?"

"He hates it."

Jack Levy, still sitting forward, braces his elbows on his desktop and his chin thoughtfully on his intertwined fingers. "And you, Mr. Mulloy? You hate it?"

The boy shyly casts his eyes down again. "I of course do not hate all Americans. But the American way is the way of infidels. It is headed for a terrible doom."

He does not say, "America wants to take away my God."

How does tolerating a variety of different viewpoints take away Ahmad's God? He can still have his God, but he can't force it on others. That is not taking away his God, because he can practice his religion unmolested, which means he has no reason to be violent, since even his prophet says that the lesser jihad of violence should only be used when unbelievers are taking your homes.

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This past week the imam showed a short temper with his pupil in a discussion of a verse from the third sura: "Let not the infidels deem that the length of days we give them is good for them! We only give them length of days that they may increase their sins! and a shameful chastisement shall be their lot." Ahmad dared ask his teacher if there wasn't something sadistic in the taunt, and in the many verses like it. He ventured, "Shouldn't God's purpose, as enunciated by the Prophet, be to convert the infidels? In any case, shouldn't He show them mercy, not gloat over their pain?"

The imam presented half a face, the lower half being hidden by a trimmed beard flecked with gray. His nose was thin and high-arched and the skin of his cheeks pale, but not pale as Anglo-Saxons or Irish were, freckled and quick to blush, like Ahmad's mother (a tendency the boy has regrettably inherited), but pale in a waxy, even, impervious Yemeni way. Within his beard, his violet lips twitched. He asked, "The cockroaches that slither out from the baseboard and from beneath the sink - do you pity them? The flies that buzz around the food on the table, walking on it with the dirty feet that have just danced on feces and carrion - do you pity them?"

Ahmad did, in truth, pity them, being fascinated by the vast insect population teeming at the feet of godlike men, but, knowing that any qualifications or signs of further argument would anger his teacher, responded, "No."

"No," Shaikh Rashid agreed with satisfaction, as a delicate hand tugged lightly at his beard. "You want to destroy them. They are vexing you with their uncleanness. They would take over your table, your kitchen; they will settle into the very food as it passes into your mouth if you do not destroy them. They have no feelings. They are manifestations of Satan, and God will destroy them without mercy on the day of final reckoning. God will rejoice at their suffering. Do thou likewise, Ahmad. To imagine that cockroaches deserve mercy is to place yourself above ar-Rahim, to presume to be more merciful than the Merciful."

It seemed to Ahmad that, as with the facts of Paradise, his teacher resorted to metaphor as a shield against reality. Joryleen, though an unbeliever, did have feelings; they were there in how she sang, and how the other unbelievers responded to the singing. But it was not Ahmad's role to argue; it was his to learn, to submit to his own place in Islam's vast structure, visible and invisible.

Contrast Jainism, which holds that everything has a soul that should not be interfered with on its path towards enlightenment.

Even by the words of Islamic scripture, man does not appear to be justified in foreshadowing the "chastisement" that God will perform. The Imam in saying Ahmad should not "presume to be more merciful", does not by that statement alone prove that he should kill the creatures. Isn't that God's job? Where does God say that a man should do the "chastisement"?

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Page 108:

"[...] read for me, please, verse fourteen from the sixty-fourth sura, 'Mutual Deceit.'"

Ahmad fumblingly finds the page in his dog-eared copy of the Qur'an, and makes his way aloud through "ya ayyuha 'lladhina amanu inna min azwajikum wa awladikum 'aduw-wan lakum fa 'hdharuhum, wa in ta'fu wa tasfahu wa taghfiru fa-inna 'llaha ghafurun rahim."

"Good. I mean, good enough. We must work harder, of course, on your accent. Can you tell me, Ahmad, quickly, what it means?"

"Uh, it says that in your wives and children you have an enemy. Beware of them. But if you, uh, forgive and pardon and are lenient, God is forgiving and merciful."

"But your wives and children! What is 'enemy' about them? Why would they need forgiveness?"

"Well, maybe because they distract you from jihad, from the struggle to become holy and closer to God."

"Perfect! What a beautiful tutee you are, Ahmad! I could not have put it better myself. 'ta'fu wa tasfahu wa taghfiru' - 'afa' and 'safaha', abstain and turn away! Do without these women of non-Heavenly flesh, this earthy baggage, these unclean hostages to fortune! Travel light, straight into Paradise! [...]"

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Page 142:

It was Islam, Shaikh Rashid had more than once explained, that had preserved the science and simple mechanisms of the Greeks when all Christian Europe had in its barbarism forgotten such things. In today's world, the heroes of Islamic resistance to the Great Satan were former doctors and engineers, adepts in the use of such machines as computers and airplanes and roadside bombs. Islam, unlike Christianity, has no fear of scientific truth. Allah had formed the physical world, and all its devices when put to holy use were holy.

Compare Adbullah in Stranger to History:

"[...] it is not so easy to say that technology is OK. [...] we have to discuss the camera itself. Good or bad? [...] 'It's something Western civilization made. We have to discuss that camera. What does it represent?"

Apparently original Islam had no problem with Western technology, and modern terrorists have no compunction about using Western technology to further their goals, but some Muslims, such as Adbullah, want to condemn at least some technology because it's from the West.

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Page 148:

"I seek to walk the Straight Path," Ahmad admits. "In this country, it is not easy. There are too many paths, too much selling of many useless things. They brag of freedom, but freedom to no purpose becomes a kind of prison."

That is for each individual to decide!

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Page 167:

His mother is, he sees now, looking back, a typical American, lacking strong convictions and the courage and comfort they bring. She is a victim of the American religion of freedom, freedom above all, though freedom to do what and to what purpose is left up in the air.

Yes, that is the point of freedom.

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Page 168:

Ahmad sometimes has to suppress a suspicion that his teacher inhabits a semi-real world of pure words and most loves the Holy Qur'an for its language, a shell of violent shorthand whose content is its syllables, the ecstatic flow of "l"s and "a"s and guttural catches in the throat, savoring of the cries and the gallantry of mounted robed warriors under the cloudless sky of Arabia Deserta.

"semi-real world of pure words" - yeah, that's where I like to live too :) Not islamic words, but words nonetheless...

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Pages 187-188:

"[...] George W. Bush is innocent, a simple reformed drunk from Texas who loves his nice wife and naughty daughters. Yet, out of all this innocence, somehow evil emerges. The Western powers steal our oil, they take our land--"

"They take our God," Ahmad says eagerly, interrupting his mentor.

Charlie stares for a second, then agrees slowly, as if this had not occurred to him. "Yes. I guess so. They take from Muslims their traditions and a sense of themselves, the pride in themselves that all men are entitled to."

This is not quite what Ahmad said, and sounds a bit false, a bit forced and far removed from the concrete living God who stands beside Ahmad as close as the sunshine warming the skin of his neck.

How does American society take away God from Muslims? Only if that God conflicts with the unalienable rights enshrined in our Declaration of Independence and the enumerated rights in the Constitution. The rights to life, liberty, pursuit of happiness, free speech, etc. trump Islam; if Muslims cannot accept those rights in others, they are free to speak out. If they use violence, they should be imprisoned.

If Western powers take Muslims' land, that is one possibility where it is understandable if they fight. But it will be ultimately useless, because American freedom creates the technology to defeat them on the battlefield. It is much better for them to use nonviolent means of persuasion.

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Pages 198-199:

"They believe," Charlie carefully restates, "in action. They believe that something can be done. That the Muslim peasant in Mindanao need not starve, that the Bangladeshi child need not drown, that the Egyptian villager need not go blind with schistosomiasis, that the Palestinians need not be strafed by Israeli helicopters, that the faithful need not eat the sand and camel dung of the world while the Great Satan grows fat on sugar and pork and underpriced petroleum. They believe that a billion followers of Islam need not have their eyes and ears and souls corrupted by the poisonous entertainments of Hollywood and a ruthless economic imperialism whose Christian-Jewish God is a decrepit idol, a mere mask concealing the despair of atheists."

Technology can solve the problem of starving Muslim (or any other kind of) peasants, by providing them with food from the vast surpluses produced. The Bangladeshi child can be rescued, the floods can be controlled, or the Bangladeshis relocated. The Egyptian villager can receive the best medical care we available, through telemedicine for example. The Palestinians, if they use nonviolent noncooperation, will defeat the Israelis as Gandhi defeated the British in India. We must create resources for everyone in the world, liberate ourselves from scarcity through aggressive investment and pursuit of advancement in knowledge and technology. Those who do not want to be subjected to poisonous entertainers can turn off the TV, use other technological filters to block them out. Economics can be revised so that governments create money and give it directly to people, freeing them from "economic imperialism".

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Page 201:

"The lines of battle [are clear]. The armies of Satan versus those of God. As the Book affirms, 'Idolatry is worse than carnage.'"

Unalienable rights precede the Qur'an. And there are many interpretations of the Qur'an that allow it to exist peacefully within the US.

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Page 224:

Listen: the deal is you can fuck me, but not grill me.

"grill" meaning to quiz, interrogate. Seems like anachronistic slang. The first thing I thought of when I saw "grill" was teeth...

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Page 247:

This bone-white truck savors of such poverty, such pathetic attempts to keep up in America, to join the easy seventy-miles-per-hour mainstream. His mother's maroon Subaru, with its Bondo-patched fender and its red enamel abraded by years of acid New Jersey air, was another pathetic attempt.

There's another way of looking at this: you can drive a battered old car in America, without wanting to join the mainstream. You can be poor and drive on the same roads as the rich and say up yours! You are free in America to be unapologetically poor in the face of all the opulence, to be yourself, to be an individual, to reject the message of materialism preached in TV commercials. Why doesn't Ahmad consider this other point of view?

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Page 249:

The other unidentified man adds, "Cairo, too." He smiles that engaging smile of square, spaced, tobacco-stained teeth and strikes his chest with his fist and tells Ahmad, "Egyptian."

"So was my father!" Ahmad exclaims, yet in exploration of the bond can only think to ask, "How do you like Mubarak?"

The smile fades. "Tool of America."

Prophetic?

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Page 258:

"My trouble is," the Secretary blurts, helpless in turn, "I love this damn country so much I can't imagine why anybody would want to bring it down. What do these people have to offer instead? More Taliban - more oppression of women, more blowing up satues of Buddha. The mullahs in northern Nigeria are telling people not to let their children be given polio vaccine, and then the kids are brought in paralyzed to the health-aid clinic! They wait until they're totally paralyzed to bring them in, after they've gone all the way with the local mumbo-jumbo."

"They fear losing something, something precious to them," Hermione says, trembling on the edge of a new degree (the degrees are subtle, and are negotiated within the strict proprieties of a thoroughly Republican and Christian administration) of intimacy. "So precious they will sacrifice their own children to it. It happens in this country, too. The marginal sects, where some charismatic leader seals them off from common sense. The children die, and then the parents cry in court and are acquitted - they're children themselves. It's frightening, the power of abuse adults have over their children. It makes me glad, frankly, I never had any."

There's a lot in this passage dealing with the interpersonal relationship between the Secretary of the Department of Homeland Security and his aide, a lot of extraneous stuff indicating the intrusiveness of the human element in any governemntal activity; but the core issue I want to focus on is, "Why is there terrorism?" What is it terrorists fear losing? It seems they fear losing their ability to dominate others, for example (as talked about in the quoted passage) their children. Ideally, the unalienable rights to life and liberty should extend to children and they should be able to decide for themselves whether to get vaccines or not. If the terrorists can't accept those unalienable rights, if they want to alienate them, they are contrary to the principles enshrined in the Constitution, and should be prosecutable.

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Page 273:

But God,speaking in His magnificent third-person plural, brushes their perplexity aside: "Will they not look up to the heavens above them, and consider how We have reared it and decked it forth, and that there are no flaws therein?"

Surely, Updike meant first-person, not third-person plural?

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Page 286:

The jihad and the Revolution waged the same kind of war, Charlie explained - the desparate and vicious war of the underdog, the imperial overdog claiming fouls by the rules he has devised for his own benefit.

I empathize with this sentiment a lot.

He punches the radio off again. In this devilish society there is nothing fit for a man in his last hour to hear. Silence is better. Silence is God's music.

I would have tried to find some jazz...Ahmad is not interested much in music. Music represents another way out of the "devilishness" of western materialism that Ahmad ignores.

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Pages 287-288:

It's Mr. Levy, wearing a brown suit coat that doesn't match his gray pants. He's dressed for school on this Monday but instead is standing outdoors a mile south of Central High.

The unexpected sight stymies Ahmad. He fights to clear his racing mind. Perhaps Mr. Levy has a message from Charlie, though he didn't think they knew each other; the guidance counselor had never liked his getting the CDL and driving a truck. Or an urgent message from his mother, who for a while this summer would mention Mr. Levy a little too often, in that tone of voice that meant she was embarrassing herself again. Ahmad will not stop, no more than he would for one of those writhing, importuning monsters, made from plastic tubes blowing air, that bewitch consumers into turning off a thoroughfare.

However, the light at the corner changes and the traffic slows and the truck has to halt. Mr. Levy, moving faster than Ahmad knew he could, dodges through the lanes of stopped traffic and reaches up and raps commandingly on the passenger's window. Confused, conditioned not to show a teacher disrespect, Ahmad reaches over and pushes the unlock button. Better have him inside next to him, the boy hastily reasons, than outside where he can raise an alarm.

This is where the book takes an unbelievable turn, for me. When he let Mr. Levy in, he basically decided not to go through with the bombing.

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Page 291:

Ahmad is being tailgated by a midnight-blue Mercedes driven by an impatient man too young to have earned a Mercedes, unless it was in stock manipulation at the expense of the less fortunate. Such men live expensively in the so-called bedroom towns of New Jersey and jumped from the towers when God brought them down. Ahmad feels superior to this Mercedes driver, and indifferent to his tooting and swerving back and forth as he seeks to dramatize his wish that the white truck were moving less sedately in the middle lane.

I feel superior to such ppl too. But it was men, not God, who brought down the towers. In resorting to violence, the terrorists usurp the role of God, assume that they know his will. My way of fighting the stock manipulators is with words, and by example. I refuse to acknowledge their power :) I try to use words wherever I can, on the internet, wherever, to bring down their houses of cards and confront their overbearing egos with the erosive force of water :)

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Page 294:

"Who says unbelief is innocent? Unbelievers say that. God says, in the Qur'an, "Be ruthless to unbelievers." Burn them, crush them, because they have forgotten God. They think to be themselves is sufficient. They love this present life more than the next."

You can be ruthless to unbelievers in nonviolent ways. If you are physically violent, you violate inalienable rights, and are therefore subject to prosecution.

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Page 306:

In the fifty-sixth sura, the Prophet speaks of "the moment when the soul of a dying man shall come up into his throat." That moment is here. The journey, the "miraj," Buraq is ready, his shining white wings rustling, unfolding. Yet in the same sura, "The Event," God asks, "We created you: will you not credit us? Behold the semen you discharge: did you create it, or We?" God does not want to destroy: it was He who made the world.

[...]

This was the will of the Beneficent, the Merciful, ar-Rahman and ar_Rahim, the Living, the Patient, the Generous, the Perfect, the Light, the Guide. He does not want us to desecrate His creation by willing death. He wills life.

To fight terrorism most effectively, we need to study Islamic texts and use their words while engaging Muslims in debate.

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What will happen to Ahmad after he turns himself in? I think this is another reason he would have gone through with it. Realistically, the authorities would not forgive him as Mr. Levy says. He would expect being sent to Gitmo or tortured or worse. The failure of Updike to mention these likely possibilities is second point where the book becomes unbelievable to me.

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Journal Journal: Rope ladder dream

I have climbed up a rope ladder to a narrow peak over a hundred feet above railroad tracks. The ladder is suspended by a wire or wires from an unseen point above me. The ladder narrows at the top. The ladder twists in the breeze, and as I move around on it. My hands are at the top of the ladder; I now want to transfer myself to another ladder that reaches to the same upper point, but is rotated 90 degrees to my right (the two ladders are like two adjacent sides of a pyramid). The second ladder is narrower than the one I'm on, and widens as it descends but is significantly narrower at each point than the corresponding point on the first ladder. Both ladders are unstable and move around on their guide wires as I shift my feet or hands.

I am scared. I don't want to look down at the tracks below. I have a strong fear of falling. My heart is in my mouth. Tracie, who has already climbed the ladder I'm on, made the transition to the smaller side ladder, and made the descent flawlessly to the ground, encourages me. I want to remain frozen. This is too hard! I think. I start to move my right hand, unclasping the rope on the right side of the ladder I'm on, reaching for the other ladder. I'm not thinking which part of that ladder I should reach for, I just want to make contact with any rope on the other ladder - for a moment I'm flailing, my heart palpitates quickly, then I grab something. Now I must move my right leg. I pull my foot away from the rope rung it's in, the ladder twists in reaction, I carefully move my leg to the right and tentatively search for a rung to put it on; finally I find one. Now I have to move my left hand...

I make the transfer to the other ladder. Now I still must descend. This ladder is noticeably narrower and it moves around more as I shift my weight on it. There is a breeze which makes it flap back and forth. I don't want to look down to find the lower rungs because I'm afraid of heights. I move one foot, my right, down, searching for the next-lowest rung. I find it and place my foot on it as securely as I can. Now to move my right hand down ... For a brief instant I imagine what it would be like if I fell, then I put it out of my mind. I proceed down the ladder ... It's not that hard, I'm going to make it, I'm almost two-thirds of the way down ... then I wake up.

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Tracie was a key figure in this dream. Before the ladders, she had been showing me an apartment, which at first she told me she was going to rent out for $750. It was a studio; it had a closet-like door to a bathroom that reminded me of a room in the house in Paris I spent part of my childhood in; I had stayed in that room in that house for a while. Then Tracie told me she would rent the room we were looking at to me if I wanted, for $500 or $400 or something. I was ecstatic. She told me a bus stopped right outside the door; it was the 240, the same one whose other terminus is outside my Mom's house.

Tracie showed me a shortcut to get across the railroad tracks, but it involved climbing the narrow rope ladders. She went ahead of me and climbed up, making the transfer to the narrower one at right angles to the first, and descending confidently, without fear or hesitation. Then it was my turn ...

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"Day residue": I had seen a French guest on Colbert the night before, perhaps that was why I thought of the house in Paris. I'd been talking to my therapist about renting a room for $500.

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Journal Journal: logical unless

"Unless you do your homework, you can't go out"

A guy in #philosophy wanted to interpret this as an equivalence relation, or bidirectional implication. I wanted to interpret it as simple implication. Then it struck me, the sentence could be part of two truth tables:

Let A = "do homework"
Let B = "go out"

A.........B.........->
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T.........T.........T
T.........F.........F
F.........T.........T
F.........F.........T

not-A..not-B....->
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T.........T.........T
T.........F.........F
F.........T.........T
F.........F.........T

The sentence "Unless you do your homework, you can't go out" could be either the last line in the first truth table, or the first line in the second truth table.

To determine which one it is, you can ask: If you do your homework and can't go out, then you're in the second truth table.
If you don't do your homework but can go out, then you're using the first truth table.

To make a bidirectional relation, you could change "can't go out" to "don't have the possibility of going out". Then both of the middle lines become false and the statement is only true if you do your homework and have the possibility of going out, or if you don't do your homework and don't have the possibility of going out.

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Journal Journal: Greg Bear's Slant

I was reminded of this book by a story about toilets with microchips in them.

While looking up the book, I came across this excerpt, which describes memetics as sex with ideas:

We'll begin with words, words only. Imagine you're in a library walking through stacks of books. Let's say you're in the Library of Congress, walking in a pressure suit through the helium-filled chambers, between miles of shelves, just staring at the millions upon billions of publications, periodicals, books, cubes...every single one of those books begins, of course, with an act of sex. Are you offended by the old sexual words? Then use the euphemisms. Men and women, getting together - and exchanging ideas.

Sex is often confused with reproduction. But bacteria engage in sex for the sheer desperate necessary joy of it - sex is their visit to the community library, the communal cookbook. They wriggle themselves through seas of recipes, little circular bits of DNA called plasmids. When they absorb a plasmid they don't necessarily reproduce, buy they still swap genetic material, and that's what bacteriologists call sex. Unlike us, however, bacterial sex - this kind of swap - can even occur between totally different kinds, what we once regarded as different species. But there are no true species in bacteria. We know now that bacteria are not grouped into species, as such, but evanescent communities we call microgens or even, more currently, ecobacters.

The plasmids contain helpful hints on how to survive, how to make this or that new defense against an antibiotic, how to rise up as a community against tailored phages flooding in to eradicate.

In the very beginning, for bacteria, this was sex. This was how sex began, as a visit to the great extended library. I call this data sex. No bacterium can exist for long without touching base with its colleagues, its peers. So how do we differ from bacteria?

Not much. You come to this group, you exchange greetings, arrange meetings, sometimes you exchange recipes. Sometimes we - and here I don't mean the members of this club, necessarily - get together, conjugate, to exchange genetic material, either in a pleasant social jest or joust with biology, or sometimes in earnest, because it's really time to reproduce.

[...]

In the Library of Congress, every single book, every item, began with an act of reproductive sex, allowing the author to get born and eventually to write a book. That book now acts as a kind of plasmid, reaching into your mind to alter your memory, which is the con-template -- my word: the template, through cognition , of behavior. The medium of course is language. Sex is language, and language is sex, whatever form it takes. Changes in anatomy and behavior are the ultimate results -and sometimes, coincidentally, reproduction.

[...]

The shape of our society relies on spoken and written language, the language of signs, the next level of language above the molecular. Some insert another level between these two, that of instinctual behavior, but I believe that's really just another kind of language of signs.

Culture from very early times was as much a factor in human survival as biology, and today, culture has subsumed biology. The language of signs inherent in science and mathematics has co-opted the power of molecular language. We begin with molecules and molecular instructions, but now the instructions feed back upon themselves, and we govern the molecules.

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