Journal Veronika's Journal: Guilt 2
It's been a tough year, mixed with hardship as well as joy. I am not confused anymore because I have made up my mind what to do. But to make it work, I have to lie.Guilt is a funny thing. They are the people I care about but they are also the people I protect myself from. I try not to think about it so much because the guilt will eat me up and break me. I don't to break. I am so close. Lying requires so much work. But what needs to be done has to be done. It has to work. It just has to.
Some said liar, with or without good intent, thinks he is more superior than the people he lies to. I have given a lot of thoughts to my intention to lie, what it would achieve, what I would sacrifice, etc. I guess all of this don't matter if I am busted. People get hurt and I will get hurt.
So, the moral of the story is, don't get busted. Plan, plan, plan!!
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I used to believe honesty is always the best policy but no more. I am really ambivalent about honesty. Am I really honest because I don't want the other person to get hurt or because I want to make myself feel better? I think telling the truth to make yourself feel better is the worst kind hypocrisy.
To me, it's probably a mixture of both: I can't deal with the confrontation and I think I should take care of my own guilty garbage, spare them the drama. I don't know anymore. I do not wish the lie to last fore