gmhowell's Journal: I am thankful for...

Not a fucking thing. Not one fucking thing to be thankful for. And for some reason, on a holiday dealing with the greatest of American passtimes (overeating), I get some hellacious fucking stomach malady. Probably nerves over the holidays essentially alone.

So fucking bad that I can't get behind the wheel long enough to make a seven hour drive. Hoo-fucking-ray. What am I supposed to be thankful for again?

Thankstaking

[Jeremiah Cornelius]

It's absurd to feast oneself, and imagine it reflects any kind of sincerity in gratitude.

I feel for you. Chin up Geo. Life is a bit short, which means the next good part can't be very far in waiting.

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[gmhowell]

Call me in six weeks, when the holidays are over. I feel like living proof that even after the coin comes up 'tails' 99 times in a row, you still only have even odds on the 100th flip.

I know it'll get better, and I *do* appreciate it. But getting there is a bitch.

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[tomhudson]

Be thankful for the future. It might take a year, it might take a decade, but however long it takes, its ultimately worth it.

In the meantime, yes, life sucks. Been there. Done that. Took more than a decade for things to get anywhere near okay, but it could have been worse ... and that's what you will be saying. And you'll be a better person for it, even if all you want to say now is "F*ck it!"

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[gmhowell]

I suppose it depends on what 'it' is to be fucked. Nope, haven't given up, just royally pissed.

probably a more realistic thanksgiving

[capoccia]

at least you're alive and you survived last winter. isn't that the point of thanksgiving? to celebrate that you're not dead yet?

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[gmhowell]

I only feel dead on the inside:)

Anyway, I think Easter is to celebrate you lived through the winter. Not sure why people would gorge themselves right before the leanest time of the year, unless it was a hibernation experiment.

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[capoccia]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thanksgiving#Thanksgi ving_in_the_United_States [wikipedia.org]
according to wikipedia the first pilgrim thanksgiving was celebrated on december fourth.

Thanksmas

[ellem]

We just celebrated Thanksmas. We had to combine the two holidays for Lynda's side.

Be thankful you're not here.

even poetry of pain

[SolemnDragon]

is an act of love.

i'm thankful we know you

i'm thankful you're part of the circle

i'm thankful joe was born to you.

i won't kid you - you won't feel better sudden or soon. but i believe it does get better.

You need to be thankful for

[Degrees]

not going to jail.

Seriously.

maybe this is too personal

[btlzu2]

but why again can't you have just a little o' the medicine now & again? just being very cautious? as long as you don't do it constantly to hide the problems or if you don't have an alcohol problem, allowing yourself a good bender in your basement once a month is amazingly therapeutic. it was for me. i just made sure to keep a handle on it.

of course, you know best about yourself and if you'd get carried away or do really stupid stuff, just forget what i said. besides, like i said, it's this first se

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[gmhowell]

Mostly because partaking of any amount of alcohol (presumably communion is excepted?? I'll ask next week.) would violate the terms of the 'consent' decree.

Not that I have any particular desire to self-medicate, but I can see where it could help in certain situations.