silent_rock's Journal: please let me sleep

I broke a chain email (as always) so I guess I'm gonna have 10 problems for the next 10 years, as it says.

The University Health Services Insomnia Self-Care Guide says "Taking sleeping pills is not the answer!" And also advises to "Observe your behavior." What am I supposed to do, take my fucking eyeballs out and turn 'em around? (to quote Em). Additionally it advises to get some exercise each day, so I went swimming at noon. Also, "Talking to a friend can be helpful medicine in itself for many problems." especially when they finally get exasperated at your constant jabbering and whack you over the head and tell you to shut up. Anyhow I don't think I'm gonna have sleeping problems tonight 'cuz it's catching up with me and I'm TIRED. Maybe I'll sleep until my alarm for once, instead of watching the sky brighten. Ironic, all during break I was wishing that I didn't have to sleep so much.

hmwk is intolerable this week! spent all day on it and still working! made me numb. maybe that's good.

one more day of this crapmisery, then off to the Eel River to do river stuff and not-in-the-mood-for-camping for two nights then back Sunday night then basketball then it starts all over again.

when lacking sleep, lots of things become slightly hilarious. why is that.

i am afraid to leave things alone because i am a control freak.

i miss the desert.

it's 4 am...

[GP(MPK)]

With insomnia, nothing is real. Everything is far away. Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy.
-- from a movie

FIGHT club

[silent_rock]

only web searching, not my feeble memory, tells me that it's from FIGHT CLUB. i remember leaving that movie thinking, "cool movie," while my friend mary ellen was like "oh my goodness did you see what the symbolism was saying about capitalism at the end??" sigh.