blinder's Journal: One Year

it has been one year today since this happened

one year.

i'm not going to go into everything... or do a recap... i just wanted to take a moment to point out that it has been a year.

what a crazy year it has been. a good year. no really. i mean i look around, and here i am. in a better job, in a better city spending my time with good friends and BD.

i was pretty messed up those first few weeks (if you go back in my journal and look)... but i've come such a long way. i still have to get back into therapy. yeah, i'm not done with it. i need to find a new one here in boston... but the progress i have made... well... i feel like i've made progress.

i still have self esteem glitches that need attention... but i'm aware of that and i am not in the business of brushing them off as something else. i still think about the fact that a 10-year long relationship just up and vanished (which didn't help those glitches)... but its no longer a thought like "what do i do now?!?" its more like "hmmm yep, right that sucks... but lets keep moving."

yep. a year. whadaya know?

Seems like a lifetime ago

[ellem]

I mean, not to you so much... it just seems like forever ago. You're so much "normaller" now.

No doubt due to my omnipresence.

your self esteem

[sparky4]

hmm, maybe you should accept it as fact when people say how wonderful you are. I know of more than a few who have sung your praises so I think it is ok to believe it. Trust me, these same people would tell you if you got a Swelled head or Overinflated ego.

Listen to the voices Blinder, they ain't just blowing smoke.

Re:your self esteem

[blinder]

*snicker*

hehe... okay sparky... i'll be over here... taking your word for it :)

and the voices... they say lots of things... like "you don't need to wear pants to work you fool" but i have come to not trust those voices so much :)

You've come a long way, baby!

[mekkab]

Now smoke a Virginia Slim!!

[hack cough eck!]

Re:You've come a long way, baby!

[SiliconJesus]

And wash it down with a fifth of Jack.

Re:You've come a long way, baby!

[loucura!]

And chase that with a line of cocaine snorted off a hooker's ass.

Moooooooovin' on up

[zedmelon]

Sorry; I don't know why that jumped into my head, I never watched the Jeffersons (must've conflicted with something I liked better). I think mekka started it with the cliche' phrases.

I agree with ellem. His everpresence is surely key to your decreased nose and upper back hair.

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Re:Moooooooovin' on up

[blinder]

zed!
you need to stick around some! sheesh man... what's a guy gotta do to keep the melon around?

really. how's the music stuff going? been playing lately? email me or something... i got some stuff i want you to hear.

One year.

[trmj]

Everything has changed in that year. You've come so far, as have many others around here. Hell, a year ago I thought I would be in Doylestown for the rest of my life.

Everything has changed for the best.

having been watching this unfold from then...

[Zeriel]

I gotta say this:

Blinder. You're the MAN. You've dealt with your issues and moved in a way that should be an example to everyone. =)

Re:having been watching this unfold from then...

[blinder]

*gulp*
*blush*

why thank you Zeriel. wow. how very kind of you.

why did the line from the movie Arthur [imdb.com] just come up? "easy for you to say, you haven't got 14 pairs of short pants hanging in your closet!"

hehehe :)