Managed to grab more money from the future...
Not suck at coding...
Not suck at planning...
Gotten a better job...
Switch to paying for my own schooling...
Gotten a better set up..
Crash my first car...

Productive? You decide.

Well, here I am, typing away hours from my OOP Java Midterm...

*sigh*I really need to get accustomed to the early hours so I can pay attention and learn this stuff. I really feel bad not learning it at a decent rate. Not to mention the fact that I was able to get a grade on my last hw assignment...

Well, we'll see how it goes. I just hope to God that I can at least pass the Midterm with a C+...

Then there's my Server and OS class. Security has a very strong focus here, but the teacher failed to mention that we should set some limits on the users until he was checking some of them. Worst of all, I didn't hear of this until two minutes of having turned in my documentation...

Oh well...

Man, this is the first time I've written in this thing since March!

Gosh...and I said I was gonna use it as a day to day journal for referencing what I did in the year.

Meh..

And then there was the option of just writing on this thing to whine about whats bothering me, but the whole thing about spilling my guts out in text, a permanent as it can get, that can later be used against me, to be read by two hundred thousand life-less souls isn't very comforting...

But I guess its better than nothing...

If anyone read this, should I do it?

Why the hell do I feel this way?...

I really don't like this feeling. Might it be I'm doomed to feel this way because I'm a certain "kind" of person?

This sucks. But then again, nobody ever said being a geek would be easy...then again I never thought I'd be associated with geekdom...

I'm really begining to associate with the ladder theory even though I don't wanna screw anyone.

Why do I have to be a victim of the stupid ladder theory? Then again, I'm a theoretical victim since it's a ladder theory.

Well, I won't give up...I can't...

Guess at this point Eminem's "I'm a Soldier" comes to my mind.

I'm a soldier
These shoulders hold up so much
They wont budge, I'll never fall or fold up
I'm a soldier
Even if my collar bones crush or crumble
I will never slip or stumble

Well, today started late. I woke up to find that I had half an hour to get ready and be sitting in class...
Didn't happen. Instead I showed up an hour and a half late. Teacher didn't notice since he was checking people's projects.

When he finally got to me, he was like "You missed the whole point of the lectures since you couldn't get those progs to work"...
That made me feel bad...what was worse is that before anyone left, he made the anouncement that we had to finish the other chapter we had started on...the chapter I had only started.

So when I got home, I had to call up my pastors to excuse myself from a funeral I had to go to since I got all this homework basically dumped on me.

This sucks...I wish it wasn't java what we had to learn...or maybe I shouldn've signed up for the class alongside of my first time taking calculus...the many little-to-no-sleep nights are starting to get to me...

Its funny being in a school with a quarter system.

I mean, sure we don't get as many holidays but we, supposedly, get done faster.

Why am I writing this?
Simple, by Java teacher decided to cancel class today. I guess he wanted his day off today. Well, good. I didn't really want to go to his class. I'm too damn tired. Plus I can use the time to go on /., write this, and then scamper off to study my calc like a good kitty...

I could use some Tai Tea right about now...too bad I ain't got any money to spare...

Well, a lame topic should start it out...
Not the first time I keep one of these things, but I just hope I'll habitualy do this...
Java class can be quite a bore sometimes...