Took 2 blood tests, the results are interesting. There seems to be a big range of whats normal these days. ::CBC w/ differential platelet panel::
white blood cell count: 7, 4-10.5
red blood cell: 5.24, 4.10-5.60
hemoglobin: 16.1, 12.5-17
hematocrit: 46.5, 36-50
mcv: 89, 80-98
mch: 30.7, 27-34
mchc: 34.6, 32-36
rdw: 13.1, 11.7-15
platelets: 255, 140-415
neutrophils: 68, 40-74
lymphs: 23, 14-46
monocytes: 5, 4-13
eos: 4, 0-7
basos: 0,

(Wrote this to my dad, figured it was ok enough for here)

Just an update on my situation: Spent 3 days in the hospital due to paranoid delusions, i was released a few days ago and im still recovering on my own. Last night i had a bit of a relapse, but i calmed myself down and was well after some reasoning. That was an interesting place and i did learn a lot from it. Wrote in a journal, came out to 15 pages total, but i wont be posting it here. Met some cool people and only 1 person who turned out to be a complete scumbag, (some stripper..what do you ex

http://www.nationalvanguard.org/story.php?id=4664

Ok heres the simplest and most probable explanation for last night:
The reason i stopped smoking dope when i was 17 was because of paranoia mostly. I started again because it helped VERY drastically with my anxiety and appetite. (Ive gained many pounds attibuted to smoking dope, but lost them when i dont smoke..If i smoked all the time on a normal basis under normal circumstances i would probably be fat)
Well, recently theres been a car or two cars across the way that every time i look

Last night was really good! Was hanging out in the bar with pam as usual, and there was a girl who came in. Pam said i should go talk to her, and eventually I did.
I dont drink much, so that was good. We sat and talked for probably about 3 hours or so, i listened to everything she said and i never really got nervous or anything. She let me give her a ride home and we ended up getting lost, which was ok, i didnt mind driving around too much.
All in all, it was a pretty good night. Hopefu

I have a writing class tonight and im really tired today. Woke up last night in a cold sweat, not sure why.

So, part of my writing class is to write in a journal. Im assuming I can use this to do so, so ill be writing a little more then once a month for a while.
Anywho, last night was kinda wierd. Pam was hanging out in the bar last night with her brother, drinking, then he left. She came with her dog and ended up letting her friend take care of her for a few days, then 10 minutes later asked where the dog went..So she was pretty drunk, its all good though.
2am rolls around and she decides to

I think after all this time ive finally found out the type of anxiety disorder i have:

Generalized Anxiety Disorder
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"I always thought I was just a worrier. I'd feel keyed up and unable to relax. At times it would come and go, and at times it would be constant. It could go on for days. I'd worry about what I was going to fix for a dinner party, or what would be a great present for somebody. I just couldn't let something go.

Topsite is a term used by the warez community, now more commonly referred to simply as 'sites'. They are FTP servers used by groups of illegal software and media piracy groups and couriers for distribution and storage. The fastest of these sites have multi-gigabit Internet connections, capable of sending a full DVD image in minutes, and their largest storage networks can contain tens of terabytes of data. Topsites comprise the main distribution chain for the private warez community. Topsites em

Old Dirty Bastard collapsed in a recording studio and died (Probably too much crack)..hehe.. Boy, we're seeing quite a lot of deaths, its all good though ;)

One of the most original and dynamic voices in rap has suddenly gone quiet. (Uh huh..)

Rapper Ol' Dirty Bastard, real name Russell Jones, collapsed and died suddenly in a Manhattan recording studio yesterday (13th November), aged just 35.

Birthday was november 10th, another depressing day for me. Yassir Arafat died the same day, so that kinda helped.

Scott Peterson was found guilty after 2 years of court debate. Its funny how OJ, Kobe and Rodney King get off scott-free, yet he's convicted merely to satify a hungry public.

http://p2pnet.net/story/2862

and the previous story that led me to email her: http://p2pnet.net/story/2853

Got fired today, for "Not coming into work" but its funny. Ive been working 2 or 3 days a week since being hired, just now after the accident and the fact that i was afraid to work with the mexicans and their farm equipment they finally decided to let me go. Oh well, if my help wasnt appreciated ill find something else to do. Finding white people to work there who wouldnt quit was rare for the company. *shrug*

You know whats funny, the RIAA is using tax dollars to fight this war.
The music industry is Entertainment.
Entertainment has nothing to do with the economy, as it is secondary to everything else such as food, electricity and clothes.
One piece of their arguement is that file sharing is ruining the economy by theft of intellectual property.
They're using Tax Dollars from the Real economy, thus making it worse.
But they twist this around saying deserving artists need the 14 mi