Comment Lifelong Aphantasia... except SOMETIMES... (Score 1) 243
Like many people with aphantasia, I had no idea that other people could actually "see" images in their heads. I thought that the conceptual versions of visual ideas that I experience were what everyone was talking about. Late in high school I had a conversation with someone who pieced together that the language I was using for visualization didn't make sense. It was then that I learned that apparently most people do actually "see" imagined images, and that they can be extremely useful for memorization. Then one day when I was in my early 20's I was sitting with my eyes closed due to a headache, and an actual image appeared in my mind. It had nothing to do with anything I was experiencing or thinking — just an *extremely* close image of the petals of a rose with dewdrops. But the image was so unbelievably vivid and, I dare say, more lifelike than actual vision. I was blown away. The image persisted for around 20 seconds before going back to "a detailed conceptual model of what a rose looks like," just like my normal "visualization."
I'm in my 50's now, and over the years I've had around 30-40 instances of spontaneous visualization like this. They're very rare, and I cannot summon them in any way I've figured out. They are always highly detailed, and usually very close-up images of seemingly random objects. Only once have I seen a person, and that was an extreme close-up of the skin on my daughter's cheek.
So, it appears that I do actually know what it is to visualize mental imagery. I just don't know how to summon it, put it to use, or have it reflect anything useful that I'm thinking or experiencing. I thought I'd mention my experience here to see if others with aphantasia might have experiences like this or related to this.