Journal Journal: Fear
I am very very very afraid. So afraid that I feel I must say "very" three times, as if one cannot hold the emphasis of three. In fact, using three is so simpleton that one may have a stronger effect. But that's not the point.
The point is I'm a long winded bag of flesh that's scared to death. Of what? I'm sorry, I must obfuscate here. You must know? Get used to disappointment. But know that there are things in this world which make a happy person loose faith.
There's something else, though. It's a pit of positive anticipation. This unamed situation may yet yield positive outcome, and however terrible it is, it might not be that bad. In case you haven't figured it out, I'm an optimist. It's also my new thing to be happy all the time, no matter what. I've been influenced by some philosophies which state that everything right and wrong is based on perspective; everything good and bad equally confined by point of view. That's why there's always a positive way to look at things. No matter which moral code a situation violates, another one can be fitted to it in order to positive the outcome.
What does this all mean? I have no idea. I'll just busy myself until the time comes, and think of metaphors to ease that waiting feeling like pepto-bismal for your angry stomach. Except even pink liquid won't entirely assuage that fear. and so when this fear is resolved, for good or ill, if I am still alive, I will tell you what the outcome will be. Wish me luck!
The point is I'm a long winded bag of flesh that's scared to death. Of what? I'm sorry, I must obfuscate here. You must know? Get used to disappointment. But know that there are things in this world which make a happy person loose faith.
There's something else, though. It's a pit of positive anticipation. This unamed situation may yet yield positive outcome, and however terrible it is, it might not be that bad. In case you haven't figured it out, I'm an optimist. It's also my new thing to be happy all the time, no matter what. I've been influenced by some philosophies which state that everything right and wrong is based on perspective; everything good and bad equally confined by point of view. That's why there's always a positive way to look at things. No matter which moral code a situation violates, another one can be fitted to it in order to positive the outcome.
What does this all mean? I have no idea. I'll just busy myself until the time comes, and think of metaphors to ease that waiting feeling like pepto-bismal for your angry stomach. Except even pink liquid won't entirely assuage that fear. and so when this fear is resolved, for good or ill, if I am still alive, I will tell you what the outcome will be. Wish me luck!