Guipo's Journal: Sleep is for the weak!!

You know, I actually slept fine. I had the normal worries on my mind, the normal things that i would concider important in my brain. But I was able to sleep no problem. Come around 4am. BRrr, i'm cold. I wake up, and it was like those normal concerns inside my head, just exploded. i started freaking out. It was probadly just waking up, and my brain was running on pure emotion, since it was still booting up, but I wasnt doing good. Here's the thing, everything made sense. In my own little diluted world, everything made sense. It was wrong. But for some reason, all the pieces fit together. I'm writing this, so i'm the only one who know's what to get from this.

the only drawback to the way I felt is the fact, that now i'm depressed. normal old whiney crap. Why cant my wife love me....i wish she would just hold me...blah blah blah. I am so sick of feeling like this. Not too much longer now, and I'll know my future, and can build off that. By the end of this quarter the councilor says.

man, I dont want my marrige to end...