Journal Guipo's Journal: taking a breath
I'm sick to my stomach. Maybe its the fact that I cant eat. i'm gonna try tonight. I thought, maybe if I treat her like she treats me, she'll understand. she dosent. she dosent even like me. She's around me because she has no where else to go.
the little pocket debater just came in. Why'd she come back if she dosent want to at least try? Good point. I guess if I need to hold onto something, thats better than nothing. emotonally, i'm in a bad place. its not good. I wanna cry really. sigh. I hurt more than i've ever hurt before. It gets worse every day. Like its a cancer that is spreading. I know this sounds really bad, but I'm wondering if I'll be happier without her. I mean, i'll be lonly, but that will change eventually. When all's i want to do is love her, and I cant, that makes a feeling that i cant explain. Lonley is better than that. Will i be able to let her go. Yes. If she comes back, will i be able to take her back. I dont know.
I dont want my marrige to end. I really dont. I want it to last all of eternity. But I didnt sign up for this. I signed up for a lifetime of love. Thats just not what I've gotton.
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