mercedo's Journal: Phoenix

I feel incredibly secured when I am with my love only because it is very natural as a woman and man in the middle of their forties.

We had to separate from our previous partners for some reason or other, and we cannot look them back. Past is past. Our previous partners must have maintained their private lives each.

I feel insecured when I am by myself. I live alone from Monday to Friday. I oftentimes feel irresistable to see my love. Of course I can't. The objective of my love outside the scope of my view is as if it were a dead, as a matter of fact I have been giving up her for dead during these hard weekdays.

I or we want to see her or one another everyday. I have no good idea how to solve this problem. Giving up her for dead for good is a perfect answer. She is as if Phonex. Phoenix itself is a good symbol. But I want to have a small bird every day, I don't need a Phoenix if I can only see it once in a week. I will see her tonight. I intend to talk about our situations.