mercedo's Journal: If I Really Love Her

I let her go, I let her go to see somebody else.

You see our nature is strange. Unless we have a steady woman, we feel insecured, so we want a steady girl-friend, we always see her in daily basis. On the other hands, if we always see her every day and night, we feel bored. We think we need a new relationship or at least new encounter in our life. So sometimes I am eager to see someone else.

Once or twice in a month, she doesn't come home directly. Every now and then she came home very late at night. The next day when I asked she said she had a party with her colleagues. So I say it's nice, you ought to attend such a party.

I think if I really love her, I let her go whenever she wants. Since I want her to have more meaningful moment in her life even if it includes some physical relationship with other guys, I don't care, I don't care, I don't want to care.

Tonight is the eve of holiday -vernal equinox, she hasn't come home yet. She here refers to my ex-wife, our friendly relationship started after we divorced, and still keeps on.

It's

[Stargoat]

It's not really about love in this case, it's about the things associated with it. Trust, respect, honor. Without these, love ceases to be an emotion experienced and shared between two people, and denigrates into lust - or at the very least mere compassion. But I think you understand this already.

Re:It's

[mercedo]

I see her every day. So tonight I confirmed her whereabouts last night. She said since she's going to change her position in her workplace, she had to work extra hours to hand over documents to the next person in charge. I asked, 'What time did you get back?' 'It's 8:10.' Since we don't live together, I have no other way but to believe in her say. I hugged her strongly saying 'I felt jealous, jealous, jealous, jealous..repeatedly.

At least I know it's bad to have desire to monopolise someone whom I love. I