Journal andr0meda's Journal: Beautifull Blue 4
Dear slashdot relatives,
Some sad news today. Yesterday, one of our very own sweet slashdot sisters, BlueFairee, couldn`t stand life any longer and stopped her pain and misery, the rememberance of bad memories, the insignificance, the feeling of being completely irrelevant and meaningless, a long strangling depression.. Her life was one of many personal assaults on the human integrity and psyche, and she coped as far as coping was humanely possible. God knows she fought like a lion to have a normal life like everybody else.
DubiousDave, one of us but probably the one with the biggest heart in the rightest of places, brought her back into normal life, gave her hope, searched for ways to cope, and offered her all he had and more, risking his own blood. Dave showed her that life could also be enjoyed, that there was a sunny side to explore.
I didn`t know Blue that well. At first she would post in her journal, later Dave, TechnoLust, blinder, SolemnDragon, subGeek and others had contact with her and would post about how things were going. From the very first moment I read her journals, she seemed an extrememly sweet and nice girl but with such a shitload of crap in her life that it would scare the president of the whole freaking universe. Yet, there she was, trying to reach out, to climb out. There was something about her that made her extremely special. I believe the last few months have been relatively good months. I hope she truely had some good moments.
I have the idea that a lot of us young people are feeling odd, out of place, maybe a little alone and depressed, or have financial or personal problems they can`t quite oversee. Blue endured all of that. I hope Blue`s ultimate sacrifice, the end of an incredibly long road of pain and misfortune, of endless years of fighting, can bring perspective, make you relativate your situation, and maybe even make a difference down the line. The idea that all that energy sucking fighting against the world and herself has not brought her what she deserved - a normal life - makes me very, very sad. She was a good person who wanted to be heard, to get helped.
I`m not the guy to ask for this kind of thing, and I don`t want to spill her life out in public, but it would be nice if you could help remember BlueFairee, a young woman, by reading, telling and linking to her story or to here .
Finally, my thoughts go out to Dubious, to her friends, and the circle of people that knew her, people who helped her, cared for her, who tried to give her hope on a future. Don`t give up. I love you all. I hope I don`t do anyone any injustice with this humble and insignificant in-memoriam.
May her mind rest in peace. May her fighting spirit live forever. Love.
*sigh* (Score:2)
i thought she had turned a corner in this last conversation i had with her.
Re:*sigh* (Score:1)
The fact that you had her on IM and that you at least meant a cheer in her life should be heartwarming. Don`t search for explanations, because you won`t find them. A lot of questions will forever wait for her to answer them.
I whish I could have talked more with her. I know that at some point, I was having a conversation with Blue, where I was trying to find her, trying to provoque her, to try to conversate about the stuff that was deep deep down.. At that point I had the feeling that she would eventuall
Well written... (Score:1)
Re:Well written... (Score:1)
Like SillyPixie sayd.. if she only knew how many lives she touched..