There is a really good series I once found and the main character was a ming dynasty mystic/private detective. Never finished the series and can't remember the author.
You can try therapy and psychotropics, like a large number do and probably need, or you can grab hold of yourself and have a heart to heart. Reinvent yourself. Discover your strengths, work on your weaknesses. Look into why you are asking this question and what is it really masking. Old age and cunning has advantages over youth and vigor -- paraphrased from somewhere.
Courage, perseverance and planning.
Well Ellison gets one thing wrong. It wasn't 12 inches of cooling fans, it was 12 inches of solid copper heat sink topped by a fan. Sun took a failed Darpa project and tried to make it into a commercial venture. I was ready to dump my life savings into Lambert stock.
As for the software side
On the software side, Sun engaged in a political battle vs open source rather than dealing with it as a practical matter. With a big fat wallet pumped up from the dot com boom, they took a piss on everyone involved with Open Source. They were afraid of open source and falsely embraced it as that big fat wallet was bleed dry.
Larry Ellison has similar problems. Open Source isn't part of the Oracle business plan.