and reached alpha centauri. after thousands of years fighting to settle and control 1 measly island and giving up on 'taking' the ai when landers full of mech infantry 'failed' to penetrate his main island (literally about 65 alpine troops took out 10 mech infantry, and they kept coming :p) the ethiopians chose to violate the earth by incuring nuclear winter (i produced 40 nukes, total, and nuked every city within range of my island, twice) and after having spent hundreds of years as 'eco consious' people the dictator decided that recycling was over rated and his "trash the planet!" campain of global environmental devistation sucsessfully turned the entire planet into a desert or tundra ;)

the hard AI cheats, bastards*. they needed 85 cities _85_ to fuck with my perfect defense. (enough to make me resort to nuking them)

*= by 'illegally setting tax/sci/lux rate' anywhere it wants it, never 'falling behind' on tech until i have research labs in every g-damn city (it didn't even have fsking libraries)

gems/resource/pheasant/buffalo/spices are all the 'same' tile but of those gems absolutely sucks, resource absolutely sucks, buffalo is ok, as is pheasant, but what absolutely rocks is 'spices' as much gold (with road) as gems, as much food as an irrigated grassland :) so, turn those buffalo into spicy swamps it's worth the fact that it takes 6 engineers about 5 turns to make it a swamp. the only downside of this is that 'global warming' can turn swamp tiles into ocean (whale) tiles. which are about as good as a buffalo, but can never be converted back to a swamp/spice (afaik, since engineers can't walk on water) freeciv needs to make a ruleset that adds the new units and rules from later/different incarations of civilization already ;) (like alpha centari, or call to power, or civ 3 rules etc) we like the old civ rules too, one shouldn't be required to abandon the old units/rules just to play the new ones, although new units == new tileset issues... the basic engine seems to be adaptable enough to allow new units/rules... but the ai they have now is carefully balanced for the current units... AI's are damn hard to program,

seems to be a good program, very fast, so fast that i may start using it to 'copy' anime from my linux partition to windows. (yeah i have vmware set up to show my linux partition as a logical drive to linux. although i can 'copy' files across the virtual 'lan', that's probably easier and my network adapter seems to only be getting to 30% saturation when i do it..

some of my anime on it have numerous 'errored' sectors, and trying to redownload failed to 'recover' the errors, and then the drive returned a 'SMART' drive failure imminent code ;)

so we've pulled the log data, misc files, and are trying to extract the 'recently' downloaded anime.

VMware is an awesome tool, and now i no longer need my 'disfunctional' dual boot scenario, as i can 'easily' run the programs that run best in linux/freebsd etc in vmware, and just use windoze for everything else :)

Gentoo is off my list for 'trying' to install for a while. I did a lot better on my third attempt, but clearly i'm pretty egotistical when it comes to thinking i know better than gentoo's walkthrough.

only... 21 more days... to be in withdrawl from SURVIVOR. mmm hot babes in bikini's rugged looking guys, and of course the kniving ugly women, and the steroid pumping muscle brained guys... ALL going for a MILLION BUX

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and i don't blame him, did the vikings all slack off the past week and get high? they've had at elast a dozen penalties, no wait 13 penalties... for 87 yards... and they're down by 2 TDs because of it, even though statistically they've been playing twice the game that the jets have been... except for the penalties.

vikes loose, 21-28. the primary only got 1 td. our new running back got injured... the game had a chance of getting tied, but there was a commedy of errors, as the vikings had a grand total of 16 penalties to the jets 8 penalties, for like 120 yards... and that last minute turn over caused the jets to get an easy kneel to victory... but frankly i wish our secondary could play the jets secondary in ever matching we have against them ;) because our primary wasn't doing nearly as well agains tthe jets primary as our secondary owned the jets secondary even though they got 3x the penalties of the jets in the second half...

...my initials. http://slashdot.org/~rmr was 138667 my primes were 23 and 6029. quite simple and the devision by 7 created an infinititely repeating decimal. 571428 hrm. interesting. 5, 7, 14, 28, 11, 27

I've been making myself too busy to post much.
today's word of the day is abeyance. Rather than give the defintion I will use it in a sentance. this account was in abeyance, while i spent my time playing games and trying to get back on track with my goals.

I'm having a hard time remembering... what exactly do I want to do again? I've thought about it a bit, Do i want to be happy? well, when I want to be happy I usually am happy, the thing I seem to have the most trouble with is love. What Is love anyways? Why do we love? who do we love? Is love that feeling that you get when you see someone else smile? is love that feeling you get when you hear someone laugh? is love that feeling you get when you stop someone's tears from falling?

Is that all there is to love? do you protect the ones you love? Do you not protect the ones you love, for fear of suffocating them in a world of without pain? Do you hurt the ones you love, by trying to do what you thought was best for them?

Can you love someone you don't know? Can you ever really know anyone? Can you love somone you've never even met before? What are the boundaries of love? Where are it's limits? can love reach through time and space across any boundary? Does love no no limits?

Is love what I want? Can I ever truly love myself, for who I am?

I don't like working hard, and I never will. I do like challenges, but only if they're 'just right' with enough difficulty to challenge me, but not too much to frustrate, and not so little as to bore me. I love reading, but most non-fiction bores me, I love learning, but only when it sparks my imagination, I love exploring, but only when i don't get lost... Why is there nothing that I can love uncondintionally? Is it because I never surrender to love? Do I demand too much of love?

I'd love to know the answers...

I'm enjoying how this highschool drama was written a lot. just started into it, and it only went 12 episodes, so we'll see if the best writing was at the beginning...

I was thinking about how all current open source spyware scanners are all 'signature' based. Well signatures are worthless why? Any program can arbitrarily write data to itself, and thus change it's signature. Arbitrarily you say? yes. All you do is include some form of 'icon' or picture in the program. you then write a function to write random noise to random bits of that image. a 64x64 pixel image creates over 32 thousand possible 'signatures' per each revision of a self evolving spyware/virus.

So, while I don't have any code to prove this is possible.. It's pretty clear that 'signature' based protection is easily foiled if you rely on that alone. BTW if you 'leave' the image in the same portion of the exe at the same size, all the time 'signature' based software can simply generate it's 'signature' by ignoring that fixed block of the executable, however if your andomly adjust the size, and location, you create limitless possible signatures, while foiling attempts to isolate and ignore the 'automatically' changing bit of the code.

Rather than configuring the RAID, which was going to be a pain in the butt, I've done something easier, and better. I left the 80 gig drive in the system, formatted 20 gigs of it as a linux ext3 partition and left the rest as ntfs. I've mounted the 20 gigs in my home directory. So now i have 20 more gigs of space for linux (55 gigs total now) and 60 more gigs of space for windows (160 gigs total now)

Now all i need to do is load up some torrents and call it a night ;)

...and I'll have a 100 Gig drive completly emptied.

I tried goig off the anti-depressants this weekend, but I was wrong, it's not soon enough yet. Im going to take 'half' pills though... pop open the capsule split up the meds inside by half. the full dosage was having way to many negative side effects, as well as promoting my feelings of being completely unstoppable.

It's sad that 2 hard drives sold today can out store my entire life long collection of hard drives.. what is slighly more sad is that it would take 150 DVDs to store as much data as all of my hard drives put together ;) and i haven't bought a hard drive in over 3 years...

part of why I was doing the house cleaning on the 'old' hard drives was out of concern for how much longer my present drives would keep on storing bits and bytes

Fun fun, I slipstreamed a Windows XP install CD saturday, and put a bunch of goodies on it including FireFox 1.06. I was highly out of synch with myself though, so I coasted quite a few CDs trying to follow 'simple' directions. 5 blank CDs down 250 to go... I'm eventually going to set up my system here with Raid-0 but there is an enormous amount of 'backing up' of data to be done first, because I just found a 100 gig drive I forgot I had and it's got 90 gigs of data on it I'm pretty sure is ONLY on it. So DVDs to burn whee.. It's burn fest 2005 ;) (all this to increase window's storage capacity to 160 gigs, up from 100 gigs) I don't want to pair my 100 gig drives, because they're vastly different in speed and capabilities. So I'm Raid-0'ing a pair of 'matching' 80 gig drives I originally bought with that intention.

and boy does it feel great ^^

I wanted to empty both 80 gigs, but decided against it when i realised there was a different OS on part of the other 80 gig, you know other than 'windows.'

Prolly FreeBSD I could check, with ghost, but it's not important. Also you would think two seperate hard drives, both set to master on seperate ide chains would be able to copy files to one another better than they are... stupid fragmentation.