Journal L0stb0Y's Journal: Perceptions: What is hell? 6
We are currently on Arsenic (Trisinex) to kill the Leukemic white blood cells - the treatment also kills the immune system-
The nurse came in this morning with the results of our daily blood draw- and told us that the little progress we had seen with her white blood cell count going down (a good thing) was totally undone, and that in one 8 hour period her counts were worse than when we first got to the hospital- basically they said she is dying. The report from the nurse, combined with how tired I am from sleeping in a chair for well over a month (to be closer to the bed, if she needed me in the night) killed all the hope that I had in my heart. A specialist was called in to try and help...and after 2 hours of more needles, poking, and questions, he re-ran the tests. The hospital had made a mistake, and confused her blood draw from that morning with the room across the hall. It was NOT her test result that they had told us this morning. I literally collapsed into a chair for about 3 hours after that, going back and forth between crying and trying to figure out how to sue this hospital for a dollar amount requisite to the day that we have just had. I have come to the conclusion that there is no amount of money for that type of suffering.
Our current status: she is sleeping (that's when I steal away into the internet, studying her medication, her condition,, and trying to escape life for a few moments online. Really that's all just onlie...you don't really escape.
Her doctor is going to take a marrow biopsy in the morning, followed by an LP (lumbar puncture: think large needle put into your spine)- so it will be a difficult day.
I was wondering why I am writing this here...I guess it's some sort of pressure valve emotionally, so that I don't just explode. Even just typing it out seems to help somewhat- and it's better to type like this while she's sleeping that talking on a phone, and writing on paper would require more than the dull light of this laptop screen.
it's funny how things happen (Score:1)
I just googled and there does seem to be a bit of info out there.
maybe worth a shot?
link to google search [shorl.com]
*whimper* (Score:2)
In the meantime all the best to you and yours. In fact if you want to set up a fund online for the bills I'd be happy to contribute a few $, just a paypal account somewhere could do it. Anyways do take care!
Re:*whimper* (Score:2)
*replace* While I'm sure it brings you closer together this is not the way I'm sure you'd plan on getting more intimate with your wife.
*snicker*
Re:*whimper* (Score:2)
thekatiefund@yahoo.com
My work has also set up a Bank of America trust fund for charitable donations, that account information is:
Account name: The Katie Condie Clarke Leukemia Fund
Account number: 004657664772
It is amazing how many people are helping out already.
Not much (Score:1)