E-Rock-23's Journal: Love Makes You Think Strange Thoughts

If you've read some of my older entries, then you know that I'm a big ol' sap. Yep, a hopeless romantic to the bitter end. It's a blessing and a curse, really. To know that you're capable of a love much greater than that of a normal guy, yet to never have the chance to show it thanks to those "normal guys" being assholes and trashing a woman's perception of men.
 
Factor in that I live a bit of a double life - I'm a geek in most senses of the word, but I'm also a rock 'n' roller - and what you get is one heck of a life to lead. To be smart enough to hold down a job in a rather intelligent sector, yet talented enough to do something as simple as make people smile with your music; now that's interesting.
 
For now, though, I'm gonna focus on the romantic side of me. And why not start at the beginning. I'm under the impression that I've always been something of a hopeless romantic. It just took me a long time to realize it. It started when I was little. For some reason, love songs I heard always struck a chord with me, but then again, I was too young to put 2 and 2 together. Flash forward to age 17, when I had my experience with Amanda. At that point, we'd only ever shared one kiss. No dating or anything else, just a simple peck on the lips. But over the course of the next 6 years, that one kiss stuck with me. At the end of those 6 years was when I realized my status.
 
So, what did I do? Well, I started writing a sappy love story and posting it on my website. After a few link postings on some major sites for that sort of thing, the hits started rolling in, along with e-mails and IMs sending me a shower of compliments. That confirmed the whole thing for me. 100,000 hits later, I think I'm pretty sure that romance plays a big role in my life.
 
And the only one I can blame for that is Amanda.
 
So, tonight, my "Geek In Love" quest continues. What's the weird thing that love is going to make me do? Work a fire hall bingo night. Yep, I said Bingo Night. Odd for someone my age, don't you think? Well, Amanda usually attends these particular bingo nights, and any chance I get to simply see her is enough to make me smile.
 
Yeah, I am hopeless, aren't I...
 
But tonight, tonight is different. If I get a moment, all I want to do is say one thing. Hopefully, this one thing will bring about the outcome of the whole "Geek In Love" story, be it positive or negative. And closure is the one thing I need to move forward at this point. Sticking to my guns has been a rough road to travel, but it's what makes me who I am, and I don't plan on changing that anytime soon...
 
Peace to those who know. The rest, go blow. Outtie.
 
-E

Well?

[gmhowell]

I figure by the time you read this, bingo night will be over. How did it turn out?