Chicks_Hate_Me's Journal: Chicks Still Hate Me

Yes, another whiny rant by the infamous loser himself. For a while I thought that I was doomed to ever get a girlfriend and that I would be a virgin my whole life. Not through choice, but through fate. I realized that this isn't the case. I've had many girls talk to me, even one actually came to my house. The problem is, I'm too freggin scared. I'm too afraid of the risk, I don't know what will happen, what will the price of relationship be financially and emotionally. Also, I'm comfortable where I'm at. No, I'm not happy, but I'm comfortable. I don't really have much to worry about. I have a well paying job, I have my own place to live, I got a kick ass internet connection, why risk it? Why risk losing it all just so I can have some moist orifice cover my man root? It seems a lot of guys think sex is everything, they are willing to risk everything for it, maybe it's the fact that I haven't done anything, or maybe it's that I value other things. Every time I pursue a girl just for sexual pleasures, I usually stop halfway through the process and think to myself, "what the fuck am I doing?" Usually this catches the girl off guard and she thinks I'm pursuing someone else. I'm not, I just realize that I can't pursue a girl solely for the purpose of boinking her. There's got to be more, I want to be with a girl that I can click with, someone I can have actual conversations and not be bored by each other. I have yet to find a girl like that. No matter how pretty she is, if I can't even have a decent conversation with her, then there's no point. I want to be happy, not even more miserable.