everflow's Journal: at the beginning

what i`m doing here? i already have a journal but just for the fun of it im trying out this one. pretty messed up from yesterday, outside its sunny but i`m sitting inside alone in the half-dark. didn`t even bother to brush teeth, put some clothing on or make me some coffee. woke up 2 hours ago and sitting since then before my comp, reading mails, news, slashdot ... is this my life? is this what i really want? great ... my first entry and i get depressiv ... i`ll better stop it - now