Guipo's Journal: Chasing Donna

You know what. She called tonight. She called to tell me that she was watching movies tonight. She must of watched a few. its 11:00. Its hard not to care.

I'm writing in my blog tonight to state, that I had a urge to look through her stuff. And I didnt. I have actually shown self control. I'm not sure why. With her being gone, its very easy to get paranoid. Extreamly easy. But if I can just calm myself down and think about it rationally its dumb. She has the baby. She called me. She dosent lie to me. Well, much. I actually had a conversation with myself. I was like "Daniel. Dont look through her stuff. It will cause more problems and pain no matter what. Dont do it. You will be better off not doing it." So i didnt. Although I still have the urge to go and look through her things, I havent. Really this edition of my webblog is so that I can tell myself that I have officially gotton over the need to look through her stuff.

Think about it. No secrets stay secret forever. If she WAS moonlighting, it would come to be known eventually anyways. Nothing stays secret forever. I truly know that Donna isnt though. Any with me saying that, I just have to wonder why I do want to look through her things. I mean, I miss her. I miss my baby, which i havent even held in 2 days. I guess Its ok to feel a little insecure sometimes, as long as it dosent get out of hand. I belive she's home now, so I will be going. But I just wanted to state that I'm doing better now. Better than I've been in a long time.