dominator2010's Journal: just thinking

It's been a while. A very long while. First, there was the massive migration over to Multiply. Slow at first I finally picked up. I couldn't quite get into the swing of things though.

Then it was on again off again for a while. Finally, I just gave up. I've only been journaling to myself lately, and that's only when the mood strikes me. I barely squeak by the details and wish I would do a better job or just not do it at all.

My new life has been treating me well. I can go into that later if I get the chance and really feel like I need to explain here.

The main reason I'm posting though is I was thinking of KoriaDesevis. Maybe it's a subconscious thing after hearing about the east coast being pounded with snow. Or thinking how different my life would be if I would have gotten one of the jobs I applied for out there being landing my current job, which has treated me very, very well. I'm still thankful to all involved, and to slashdot for being the catalyst.

So here I am. Just thinking.

Good to see you

[johndiii]

Koria was back for a little while [slashdot.org], but is absent again. She is dealing with some tragedy in her life. I wait.

Sometimes journaling just for yourself is a good thing. I know that I have found it to be so.

I'm glad to hear that your life has been going well. It is not easy to make a change of the magnitude that you did. Best wishes for the holidays, and for the future.

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[dominator2010]

Thanks. I have no idea what I'm still doing up. I've been sick this week so I'm probably out of sorts right now.

I thought I meant to tell you something, but I sit here and whatever idea I had escapes me. Maybe we should have a chat sometime. I'll probably give a big rant soon on what is coming up in my life. But I'm still putting that off to the side for now.

Bah.

bah bah?

bah bah, black sheep.

I am very glad...

[dexterpexter]

...to hear from you again. I am also glad that life is treating you well. :)

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[dominator2010]

And I'm glad to hear from you as well. See, now I feel bad that I haven't written in so long.

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[johndiii]

It is not so much to feel bad at your lack of writing, but to feel good for that of it which we do get to see. :-)

Yes, I am pretty much a "glass half full" person. Even more, a "look at all that cool tasty water" sort of person. :-)

Have a great Christmas.

Thinking is good.

[Short Circuit]

Good to see you're alive...I'm now in so many groups on Multiply that I can't read everything that comes through my inbox. But I don't hink I missed anything from you.

It's good to know life's treating you well.

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[dominator2010]

Yeah, I'm not writing over there. I just got into one of those moods. It's this love/hate thing with technology. I don't feel that I transitioned well to Multiply. I'm not sure if I'll go back. I'm not sure about much, but I am sure that it will have to be for myself.

I think I lost sight of that. I didn't think it would be noble of me to announce my leaving. That just seems like such a childish move. It felt like if I did that it would be like, "hey, look at me! Give me attention to placate me."

So her

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[dominator2010]

The videos weren't that great. I thought about doing it more often, even just for myself. I can't seem to keep up with it. I wanted to give myself a little project where I'd video diary some days, and then do a little more into my day to day life. Maybe put together a dvd for some friends and family, but I couldn't come around to doing it.

As usual I make my life more complicated than it would be if I would just think a little less. I still can't find that happy middle ground. I make everything to be all

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I've stopped writing as much, too

[Degrees]

Sometimes, I start a JE, but just hit cancel. I've got enough going in my life that I could write stuff - but ....

Have you ever read Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance? There was a section in there about gumption, or lack thereof. Of course, that whole book was about quality - which is really where I fall down in my JE's. At some point, I think that what I have to say really isn't that interesting... so I hit cancel and move on.

But it's nice to hear a "Hi!" once in a while. :-)

Hi!

;-)

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[dominator2010]

Wow, I wasn't expecting this many people to stop by, let alone speak up. It makes me really happy. Thanks for your comment. No, I haven't read that book. I've heard of it before when I was reading a lot on programming and best practices while I waited for my dream job to come along. I kept reading, but it's been mostly fiction. I think it's time I threw something else in the mix, so maybe I'll have to give that book a whirl.

Why is it though that whenever I hear the word "zen" I cringe a little? I think i

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[Degrees]

It's a terrific book if you are in your early twenties. There are some interesting ideas in there, that make a bigger impression if you are still kind of working on what life means to you. If you are older than that, it's still an interesting read, although more for the drama that unfolds at the end.

Regarding the "zen" word - well, I've got a grin on my face, and you'll understand that if you do ever read a copy of the book. :-)

It is interesting to me that you are writing for yourself, and then look for a