bellus quies's Journal: Too much Holiday Drama

Damn, I'm so glad the holidays are over. As if going and spending the holidays at your boyfriend's parents isn't stressful enough, there was enough drama throughout to choke a medium sized mammal. And I hate drama!!! New resolution for 2006, No drama. And I think the way to avoid drama is to work on good communication, because when people play the adolescent gabby gossip game of telephone, talking to people who talk to people who eventually talk to the person it was about it ends up as a big pile of shit.

So for 2006 I'm going to just be an adult and tell it to the intended person no matter how uncomfortable the conversation might be, because avoidance just breeds more complication. Not that I've had a problem in the past, but I do have room to grow and improve.

Gawd, I'm so glad that the holidays are over and I'm semi-moved in to my new apartment with my uber-understanding boyfriend. Because he totally rocks, and is also caught in the middle of the whole holiday melodrama. But we're working together as a team to try and get things straightened out and maintain our mutual drama free bubble.

Can I tell you how much my boyfriend rocks, and is understanding. I can tell him anything, absolutely anything and he doesn't bite my head off. Ya sometimes I'm telling him how I fucked up, and he helps me figure things out and reassures me that everything is a work in progress. And sometimes he helps reassure me when I'm frustrated and know that I'm not in it alone. He totally rocks, and I love him so very much.

And shhh, ya so part of this rant is brought to you via a bottle of Chardonnay that I split with my BF over a pizza that we cooked, and he's right now looking so very chill and handsome on the chair sitting next to me and he's chatting with his sister rand doesn't know what I'm writing (well, until he reads it). But he's so awesome, I'm so glad that we lucked out and found each other. and we've grown so much in 2005, that we're both different people than we started as. I just hope that I can be as good of a person as he is. As he has made such leaps and bounds in personal growth this year that I just hope that I've grown as much.

So here's to 2006, a year of new beginnings, in a new town, with new experiences to deal with. 1500 miles away from my support group of my family, and I'm so going to miss them very much. And now I'm closer to my boyfriend's support system which don't seem to like me very much (did I mention there was too much holiday drama). So my support system right now consists of my super supportive boyfriend and a cell phone to talk to my family with. SO lots of acclimation will occur. Change is good but scary and intimidating at times.

Hopefully 2006 will be better than December was.