myslashdotusername's Journal: wow do i suck at taking advantage of opportunity...

been living in hayward for a long time, my mom's friend's friend owns a small computer shop/wireless service place, and yeah earlier on this year i tried seeing if she needed help. Now admitedly my knowledge of computers and such is far from complete, in fact it tends to be a net negative set of incoherant rambling on /. noise as we say :) sometimes with a grain or two of truth in it. but yeah it's my own fault that what i know about computers is so much noise, the tools i need to refine my knowledge from the 'noise' level to the actual 'always insightful' level are right in front of me, very few people have 11 years experience finding information on the intarweb _like me_. damn hard to believe it's 11 years already. but the truth is i'm still working on my own personal quality so even with all that experience, even knowing what i know, and knowing what i'd have to learn... i have a really hard time being a net positive for myself or anyone i might work for in computer related fields.

ugh one step at a time they say, well it's damn hard when you've got a lead overcoat, and are treading through 20' of water, and can only breathe air.