Well tomarrow is the first treatment of my sons chemotherapy. Right now I am just emotionally numb. Joshua is now asleep, He better get the rest of this young life tonight. He has no idea that there will be a tube in his chest tomarrow. Take it one step at a time.

Only in my nightmares would I have signed the authorization to begin my son's chemotherepy; I now live in that nightmare.
I pray that I am strong enough.
I must be that strong.

Well in 2 days we go back for another MRI. I can only hope for no change. All I have anymore is hope.

How disappointing is a broken novality ice cream cone? Very.

I have a burning fear in my soul.
when will it stop?

I am falling down an ever darkening hole.
when will it stop?

Everyday a little bit hope dies.
How long can I look in my sons eyes?

Oh god?
when will it stop?

I found out my son will have to start chemotherapy sometime within the next six months. This was my third first fear for my son. The second being going blind and last his untimely demise. God help us.

Oh no now I have taken my 6 sick day of the year and I am one over my limit. Shit!

Still recovering from my vasectomy. My hope is to return to normal soon. Well as close to normal as I was in the first place.

Is it possiable to do a weekend trip to holland from the east coast for under a grand for two people? I wonder.

I am thinking about getting a digital camera. maybe the canon a80? who knows. I am also still playing my way thought jedi academy.

I have joined /.