man woman.
No manual entry for woman.
geekzh. no manual for woman. :O
*rant*
and i don't understand them as well. i should? i am one. i don't understand the other women at all. how can they talk about the feelings, hairdos, mode, chitchat and other people's business for such long times? i don't understand them. only two of them... who both work in IT. so if i can make such long arguments and discussions only about _computers_ with people unregarded of their sex, how _weird_ *ironic* is it that all my friends are male then?
i didnt ask for this body or this sex. i feel like i'm in a prison, sometimes and often i forget it but sometimes like now i am too far conscious about it. i am female *thus* i cannot understand anything about computers. *thus* all because of being of the wrong sex, i can't find no good job here, and the highest level where i could end would be offfice decoration. of those 8 to 4 or 9 to 5 careers, sending all those *funny* .ppt-presentations of stupid jokes to my personal friend-spam-lists from office... and making those .ppts and .docs...
or as alternative, being semi-nude in teh tv selling everything from flattening pants to phone rechargers.
no thank you.
once again, i am thinking to leave this country. this country has no future. people aer old. bureaucracy kills everything.. i don't letterally exist anymore here. i want my life. i want to feel like i LIVE, not like i survive only. i want a job that enthusiasms me. where i can show what i can do, and where i deal more with computers (macs!!!) than with people. i have gone away several times before in the pst, but have come back so many times here. this time i feel this is not my place really. i want to go to US, at least i find more people who think like i do.
for outsiders, this is just tuscany, benetton, wine, luxury dinners out, sunglasses, sports cars and stylish people. for me this is a huge difference between wouth and north. where in south you have no money. and where in north you ae looked down because you are not from there=north. i feel like a jaguar in prison in the city. i just want to go away. i just want to get to US and to work for ANYTHING apple or apple related (or in Apple ANYWHERE on earth or outer space)
i don't know what is the first start. maybe 1 - 2 weeks in USA in a region i like, and trying to convince some employees to take me, then come back here to get my baggage and visas. i just know what i want and that i'm redy to do _nearly_ anything that allows me to do that. including MARRYING someone only to get to US. why not? "a mac geek girl wanting to emigrate to california will marry an OS X / *X geek with a US passport". why not? :-/
geezh. i will open the project "marry" or even marry online.. as most women in italy either get married because they need a partner and feeder to satisfy their reproductional instincts (that i lack completelly!) OR .. marry a football player because they want to become rich and famous and then divorce.. at least i have the clear purpose stated already in the beginning. the pass ;-)
