That's our blood down there
it seems poured from the hands of angels
then trickles into the ground
leave this warehouse so bare and empty
then my heart's numbered beat
still echoes in this empty room
and the fear wells in me
'til nothing seems big enough to defend...

Nice car! Where'd you get your ride?
A trophy, badge of honor, overcompensation?
price tags; advertise your pride
since when did what we pay for colored cloth
gauge our gravity?

yeah, you've got your little world
picture perfect; it's a pearl
now go and try to sleep in the bed you've made

you should be careful what you wish for
cause everyone of us has the devil inside
you should be careful what you wish for
cause all of what amounts becomes you

Nice watch! Man, you got the time?
there's never enough
and it always goes too slow

yeah, you've got your little world
picture perfect; it's a pearl
now go and try to sleep in the bed you've made

you should be careful what you wish for
cause everyone of us has the devil inside
you should be careful what you wish for
cause all of what amounts becomes you...

the state of love and trust
as I busted down the pretext
sin still plays and preaches
but to have an empty court
and the signs are passing
grab the wheel, I can't read it
sacrifice receiving the smell that's on my hands

and I listen for the voice inside my head
nothing; I'll do this one myself

lay her down as priest does
should the Lord be accounting
will be in my honor
make it pain, painfully quick
promises are whispered
in the age of darkness
I want to be enlightened
like I wanna be told the end

and the barrel shakes
points directly at my head
oh help me
help me from myself

and I listen for the voice inside my head
nothing; I'll do this one myself

and I listen for the voice inside my head
nothing; I'll do this one myself

and the fear awaits
the trigger shakes
aimed right at my head
oh won't you help me?
help me from myself!

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Currently Working On: coding
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Currently Listening To: Lost and Found, Mudvayne
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So familiar and overwhelmingly warm
this one
this form I hold now
embracing you
this reality here
this one
this form I hold now
so wide-eyed and hopeful
wild-eyed and hopefully wild

we barely remember
who or what came before
this precious moment
choosing to be here
right now
hold on
stay inside
this body holding me
reminding me that I am not alone
this body makes me feel eternal
all this pain is an illusion

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Currently Working On:
Memory mapping + sensor communication for this goddamned embedded board
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Currently Listening To:
Mer De Noms, A Perfect Circle
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I'd drown my beliefs
to have you be in peace
I'd dress like your niece
and wash your swollen feet

just don't leave
don't leave

I'm not living
I'm just killing time
your tiny hands
your crazy kiss and smile

just don't leave
don't leave

and true love waits
in haunted attics
and true love wins
on lollipops and crisps

just don't leave
don't leave...


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Currently Working On:
Embedded socket code (multicast, etc).
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Currently Listening To:
Interpol, Antics
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wear the grudge like a crown of negativity
calculate what we will and will not tolerate
desperate to control all and everything
unable to forgive, this Scarlet Letter man

clutch it like a cornerstone
otherwise it all comes down
justify denials and grip 'til the lonesome end
clutch it like a cornerstone
otherwise it all comes down
terrified of being wrong
an ultimatum prison cell

Saturn ascends
choose one or ten
hang on or be
humbled again

clutch it like a cornerstone
otherwise it all comes down
justify denials and
grip it to the lonesome end
Saturn ascends
comes 'round again
Saturn ascends
the one, the ten
ignorant to the damage done

wear the grudge like a crown
desperate to control
unable to forgive
and we're sinking deeper
defining
confining
and sinking deeper

Saturn comes back around
to show you everything
lets you choose what you will not see
and then drags you down like a stone
lifts you up like a child
light and innocent

Saturn comes back around
lifts you up like a child
drags you down like a stone
to consume you 'til you let this go
choose to let this go

give away the stone
let the oceans take
and transmutate this cold and fated anchor
give away the stone
let the waters kiss
and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold...

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Currently Working On:
Code to talk to a motor controller via CANBus -- bleh

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Currently Listening To:
Sing the Sorrow, by A.F.I.

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