...but it's not like anyone is reading anyways. :P

On the further chronicles of this cancer journey, I'm not a surgical candidate, I've failed the phase I chemo trial I was on, I've got new tumors on my remaining hip bone and floating in the soft tissue where my other hip used to be. FUN. I'm researching proton beam radiation...it seems like something that might be able to give a much higher maximum dose of the radiation, and as such might actually be able to affect my tumor. Once that one treatable tumor is treated, then we'll worry about what to do with all the rest. Let me just point out that this sucks. Two years of treatments and I'm still collecting tumors like stamps. Or something. This is not how I pictured life after college.

Well, that ends the chronicle of my cancer for today. Somehow it feels better to have a written record out there, something to say I AM SIGNIFICANT! Or perhaps even...I EXISTED! I don't know.

So, yeah. Found out the day before xmas eve the cancer is back. Already. Joy. At least I am still a surgical candidate. Lung surgeries suck majorly, but at least they aren't telling me there is nothing more they can do. I think I can have a good number of these lung surgeries until there isn't enough lung left to take...so here's hoping that maybe this surgery round (lung surgery numbers 3 + 4, surgery number 6 total from this cancer) will be the winner.

Well, this is just my official shout out to the world that I am CANCER FREE. Whoo!! Two years, hundreds of pills, four major surgeries, and one hemipelvectomy later I have no more visable cancer. (chondrosarcoma.) There is a 50% chance I'm cured (which makes for a 50% chance that it will come back.) But hey, positive thinking.

I posted twice today in my giddiness. Of course no one will see the posts, as I always come into the discussion too late. Ah, well. :)

Well, I've joined slashdot. Yeah, that makes me unique all right. ;) For the record, I keep a livejournal, where I'm thezerosystem (http://thezerosystem.livejournal.com). Fun. Ok, so that's it for the first post.