I am one of the 175 to perform at the MGM Grand. Scientist tried to get me to smoke a j and get "din din" at the end of trial...unreal.

against licensing music for Grand Theft Auto...they never got the rights from the true copyright owner. I've been running all over with Scientist, the artist featured on jah radio. I know more about Dub music than I ever expected too. The case is before the same judge who presided over the Martha Stewart Case.

You know I need your love You've got that hold over me Long as I've got your love You know that I'll never leave When I wanted you to share my life I had no doubt in my mind And it's been you woman Right down the line I know how much I lean on you Only you can see The changes that I've been through Have left a mark on me You've been as constant as a Northern Star The brightest light that shines It's been you woman right down the line I just wanna say this is my way Of tellin' you everything I could never say before Yeah this is my way of tellin' you That every day I'm lovin' you so much more 'Cause you believed in me through my darkest night Put somethin' better inside of me You brought me into the light Threw away all those crazy dreams I put them all behind And it was you woman Right down the line I just wanna say this is my way of tellin' you everything I could never say before Yeah this is my way of tellin' you Everything I could never say before Yeah this is my way of tellin' you That every day I'm lovin' you so much more If I should doubt myself, if I'm losing ground I won't turn to someone else They'd only let me down When I wanted you to share my life I had no doubt in my mind And it's been you woman Right down the line

I have a job interview Tuesday for managing digital rights for another network, which has not been disclosed to me. We'll see what happens. So strange not to be going to DCI tomorrow. Maybe I will actually get to enjoy some of the public holidays at my next job...probably not.

I am moving my last items out of the office.

sooo tired.....

Say it's been too hard Say it's been too long You say it's all too much The thrill has long been gone Well I thought you could Yes I thought you could And you thought you could too But it's a place and time Where the years behind are piled up high But never mind It's time to crash and burn or fly And I thought you could You know I thought you could You know I thought you could too Go to sleep now Go on dream away Is it easy easy babe And I hope And I dream And I pray That sometime We'll find a way Some say easy come Some say easy go Some say time flies by too fast Some say it drags on all too slow Well I thought you could You know I thought you could And I thought I could too But if you never find The heart to start all over again Remember I was one Who tried to be a friend to you, i Well you know I tried Yes you know I tried And I know you tried too *go to sleep now Go on dream away Is it easy easy babe And I hope And I dream And I pray That sometime We'll find a way

Give me release witness me I am outside give me peace Heaven holds a sense of wonder and I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up when the rage in me subsides In this white wave I am sinking in this silence in this white wave in this silence I believe Passion chokes the flower 'til she cries no more possessing all the beauty hungry still for more Heaven holds a sense of wonder... I can't help this longing comfort me I can't hold it all in if you won't let me Heaven holds a sense of wonder... In this white wave I am sinking in this silence in this white wave in this silence I believe I have seen you in this white wave you are silent you are breathing in this white wave I am free

I thought after I gave notice, that my company would close the door on me. Turns out, they offered me more money (which I denied) and told me I am leaving on such good standing that I can always come back...how nice???? Some people are too good to be true...especially after having a taste of the other side of life. I will be at Columbia through a GW share program, writing the rest of my thesis. My company seems to think I am making a good move...hope so! Spent the last few weekends in my new place and LOVE IT...BACK TO INSANE CREATIVE ENERGY...which I live for!

transitions are in the works...

I'm helping him with his deals.

I believed in it more than I should have and definitely should have not been so emotional and full of hate but i guess losing 2 very special people (well at that time)brought me to a place I hope I never visit again. I was crazy in love and loss and the entire time I felt I was loving and losing, since I overdid it, now I feel like I underdo it with my current situation...probably as a result of it all... It's difficult for me to put my mind around what happened (guess that's good in a way)... I mean "someone" said my honorable gpa committed suicide when he had a sudden heart attack...and I have vague memories of several untruths and sat on my couch for months asking how could people be this way...I also had to forgive myself for my "direct" approach in the matter...I should have realized I was on non-Yankee territory and my southern graces (which is a joke) would have gotten me farther. Iow I am more a fan of Vanity of the Bonfires than ever. You can't expect people to tell the truth, you can expect them to twist it to their own advantage though. You can also expect people to freak out when their world crumbles unexpectedly.

I was sitting in my Patent class last week and thinking, "how did i get through this semester?" I had to use my tuition money to pay my legal bill and was almost considering not finishing the program...I had too much vested to do that so I have been living REALLY modestly (except for a new car which was cheap anyway). I am in the process of selling my condo (I made 100k) so that should help me transition to NY but I will not see that money until March b/c I can't close until I meet the capital gains 2 yr req for exemptions. Everything gets more and more complicated as time goes by. I couldn't just move like I wanted to get away for a while b/c of capital gains, bills, school...I feel like I am approaching the top of the hill and straining to reach it...I had really bad senioritis this year. Sometimes I wish I never went to school so long...ignorance is bliss...

I somehow got invited to honor George Bush's inauguration. Should be interesting.

I am living on the upper West side, which should be nice, eventhough the apartment is a bit tiny. The shower was actually in the kitchen...Melinda said she could picture me flipping eggs on the stove while rinsing my conditioner out of my hair. I'm excited to make the transition but a little scared. I am giving up a lot...a job, a condo, a boyfriend (he's going to Iraq in 6 months to be cure the soldiers minds and he's very scared)...i am too for him...