KoriaDesevis's Journal: Where I've been, how I've been

First, I must apologize to those with whom I have been in regular discussion. I am sorry if you have tried to reach me and I have been unresponsive.

A couple of weeks ago, I encountered a situation for which I was neither prepared nor able to overcome. In a battle of heart versus mind, the heart has overpowered the mind and I have paid a heavy, heavy price. I have always prided myself in being well balanced and capable of defending myself from all threats. This time, I met a challenge that was more than I could thwart. My defenses were stripped away in one fell swoop, leaving me windblown and unbalanced in a swirling maelstrom of emotional tide.

I've done nothing for which I need to feel ashamed, nor have I compromised my beliefs or my faith. Physically, I am fine and have been untouched. But emotionally I have been exposed, my armor ripped open and cast aside, my sword cracked, my shield splintered.

I am in pain, and I don't know how to stop the bleeding.

(To be clear, I have not been raped or physically touched in any manner - this is a battle of the heart.)