Comment Re:Forget the books (Score 1) 1146
Go to a professional counselor! Seriously, there are people who are trained to answer the kinds of questions you have and are dealing with actual data that is good and is recent. Asking on Slashdot you are going to end up with a very poor signal to noise ratio, so I recommend going to someone who is a pro.
Good luck, and remember that there are going to be times in the coming years when you wonder what you were thinking, they will pass.