This is not a rant, just keeping some notes.

I had a lot of trouble getting my damn sister's USB card to work. It would automagically install but no devices were detected when I plugged them into the ports. I noticed that one of the requirements was a PCI 2.1 slot so I remembered that generally the first slot is 2.1 compliant on older boards.

Wham, bam, thank you mam. That was it. Horray. Of course I will not be thanked for this, being a computer techie is like shoveling shit in the sewers. No one recognizes what you do every day, but when people actually have to deal with the same shit you do, they start complaining.

Yes, that's my annoying name on slashdot, why? Well it started way back when on Yahoo when I registered Chicks_Hate_Me_Dammit (I added 'dammit' because I was pissed at yahoo that chicks_hate_me was already taken :p) It was a great way to make chicks online feel sorry for you and go "awww, chicks hate you? I don't hate you!" I no longer use it for sympathy (as I learned in the "real world" it doesn't work) and now it's just an honest statement. So why do chicks hate me?

Why Chicks Hate Me -

Geekness - chicks don't like a guy that is nerdy and likes computers. Why? Just like porn and masturbation, it steers attention away from them and makes them less powerful (Buy you roses to have sex? No thanks, Palmela Handerson is free)

Non-transparency - I don't really fit in with society, I don't try to be a "rebel." I just don't feel comfortable in that position of conformity.

Music - I listen to music that nobody happens to like. I love music for lyrics, and lyrics that relate to me. Not what sounds catchy on the radio.

Shyness - HUGE! I'm incredibly shy. I get nervous around girls and I literally start shaking. Girls don't like a guy that lacks any confidence.

Non-materialistic - I'm sorry, but I don't need all the bullshit that society tells me I need. And this is unfortunate for women because they seem to need a superfluous amount of shoes, yet they will never wear them. I see this as an incredible waste of resources and money that could be better spent on other things (like paying debt.) Of course they see it as being "cheap." (I guess being hopelessly in debt is the "cool" thing to do.)

Arrogance - Just by compiling this whole list makes me arrogant. I'm pretty much generalizing women, but you know what? Out of all the women I've known, THEY ARE ALL THE SAME!!! Even if they deny it, deep down, they are all the same. Perhaps there is a rare few that aren't, but I'll never meet them. Why? Opposites attract, they will always go for the same assholes that will always fuck them over. History surely does repeat itself.

Everyone has goals at least one time in their life. So did I, but most of them were unachievable or I lacked the motivation to accomplish them. I finally realized that there was a goal I can easily achieve and not even try: die a virgin. I pretty much went through high school without any sort of 'love' and went out with a grand total of two girls. And those relationships ended shortly and badly. People always say, "You'll find someone, just wait." Ok...that sounds exciting! This may sound depressing, but it seems that certain kind of people are, and always will, be unlucky with love and end up lonely till the day they die. The only person I can really blame is myself. I can go out of my way to find someone, but I don't really think it's worth it. I always see people miserable and arguing in relationships, I choose to be miserable and save a little cash on the side.

So how hard is this goal? A piece of cake! If I can go through high school trying to get some and getting nothing (minus the encounters when I was drunk, which doesn't count) then I could go the rest of my life without trying to get any easily. So follow me, and make some realistic goals, instead of pie-in-the-sky's that just make you feel more discouraged when you can't reach them.

As I ponder about my love life (or lack of) I think about how I'm oppressed. We always relate 'oppressed' with races like mexicans or african americans, and relate 'double-oppressed' with a female of those sort of races. But, I, a lower-class white male, is also 'double-oppressed.'

Whenever we think of oppression, we think of finanacial reasons, but I'm oppressed in another way...love. Maybe I've been assimilated in the high school BS, but it seems to me that poor white males have the hardest time getting the ladies. Especially living in a depressed area where I live. Why? Think about it, many chicks here are poor already, why would they want to be stuck with someone else that is poor? Not only that, white males aren't in high demand. Nowadays it seems like the trend is to go for 'latin lovers' or someone else that is 'tall, dark, and handsome.' I'm not trying to be racist here, it's just seems like it's a fact. The latinas don't really care for us poor white folk, and neither do the foxy ladies. So what about preppy white chicks? Nope, they don't go for poor white trash like me either.

Individuality is the enemy in society. You see? People are going for other races for the sake of thinking they are 'open minded,' but are they? No, they're actually being racist. Determining the quality of a person by their race, be it negative or positive, is blatantly racist.

Conforming Anti-Conformist

Whether you realize it or not we are all conformists in one way or another. Of course there is some that notice this intense bullshit called society and what they consider 'normal.' I've started to notice that I truly do not fit in with what we call society. And I don't mean it in that bullshit "goth" way where all the fuckers claim that they are expressing their "individuality" by looking the same. I mean it in a way that I have very little in common with anyone. Even with slashdot, you'd figure that fellow computer geeks would get a long, but we don't. You see, I don't masturbate to endless episodes of Star Trek, I'm not good at math, and I really don't care about programming in general. So what about the opposite? I don't really fit in with the typical jock/prep/yuppie group either. I don't have nice clothes, I don't own a nice car (or a car for that matter,) and I don't have a girlfriend.

Ay, there's the rub. A Girlfriend. Everyone has probably had at least one girlfriend in their life (if they haven't, they're probably billionaires by now.) Even I've had my fair share of girlfriends. The problem I had is, I always acted different around the ladies. Guys do it all the time. In fact, they make all these damn sacrifices just to be with a girl. Why? Why must I conform and change my ways, just so a girl will like me? Throughout history, most people can agree that males have been the dominant sex. I highly disagree with that. Women have so much freakin control over a guy's life it's just insane. Women still claim that they are discriminated against, I ask "where?" In fact I believe the statistics are biased. One study claims that men are still getting paid higher than women. Of course, they didn't include important things like experience, training, education, etc. The things that normally determine pay. In fact, at my local university, females make up 66% of the school's population. In the future, I believe that we will see that the pay rate will be equal and eventually females will be getting paid more than men.

So back to the fact I can't get a girlfriend. Can't you see it already? Women can't change me, they're either going to accept the fact that I love computers (note: love,) or not show any interest in me whatsoever. So far they are choosing the latter. So what's the big rush to find a woman? Why don't I just wait? Uhh I have, all senior year, and even now. Am I in a big rush? No. But my friend said some very devastating words to me the other day:

"18 is when you are in your prime."

I don't know about you, but I find this very depressing. Why? Think about it, I've done practically nothing sexually with my life, and now it's all going downhill? By the time I truly find someone I love will I need to use viagra? Why didn't I do this kind of stuff when I was younger? When society said that you shouldn't have sex. Ah yes, there is comes again. Society. Society tells you while you're in your prime that you should wait. Wait until I can't get it up anymore? What I suggest to youth is:

HAVE SEX!!!

Have lots of sex! Have sex with multiple partners, have sex with multiple orifices. In fact, have so much freggin sex that you just get tired of it. Then you'll want to have a loving relationship. Because seeking a loving relationship first is usually a big mistake. You see, take me *ahem* "bob" for example. Bob met a cute girl that seemed to have a crush on him. She asked Bob out and Bob said yes (of course I...errr Bob would say yes!) Bob really liked this chick, Bob wanted to have a serious relationship with girl. Girl decides that she's "bored" (!?!?!!!!) with Bob and decides to cheat on Bob with another girl. That's why Bob's favorite song now is "Pink Triangle" by Weezer. The chorus goes

"I'm dumb, she's a lesbian. I thought I had found the one.
We were good as married in my mind, but married in my mind's no good."

You see? Don't be like Bob. Fuck for the sake of fucking. God invented orgasms, so use them, they won't last forever.