It all seemed alright at school, but then I go home and there's no-one here but me (and my parents and siblings, but they don't count) and it gets worse. It hurts worse and worse.

Now playing: 'Made me Hard' by The Whitlams.

And after much pain, I still don't know if it's ended, but there's been some sort of close now. Even though there's something I realise I want to know the answer to, even if I don't want to ask it. Something oh so very important which would probably change the way I feel about everything and might really be an end.

Incidentally, how does four an a quarter hours sound for someone who rarely talks on the helpdesk calling device?

Tristan

Now that I understand, life perhaps isn't so bad. But it's still a looong way from what it was on Friday afternoon when I was in blissful ignorance because of the changes in the last twenty-four-or-so hours. Come and cheer me up.

Edit: But like everything else, it didn't get better. Although I guess that change was inevitable. Crypticism rules OK.

Humans have got to be the only thing in the universe where a new piece of information can have a direct and immediate physical change.

Tristan

This morning was great.

This evening was the worst day of my life. Thanks.

Well, guess what. After checking our last years' school calendar and talking to a friend, I decided today was the first day of school. I wake up at 6.30a.m., earlier than I had in nearly two months! I have brekky and a quick shower. I realise I'm going to be late for school. I convince Mum to drive me to the station, rather than taking the bus, so I'm not late. I get to school, and there's only Year 9s. Apparently, they forgot to clearly tell us that school didn't start until 31 January to the Year 12s! Fortunately, I wasn't the only one. I came across Patrick while still at school, and as we headed back to the station we kept collecting people. It was quite funny, seeing the looks on other people's faces, with them incapable of laughing at themselves. So it seems that MHS is even less well organised than I thought it was...

So I get home and go to where else but Whirlpool Forums and find, much to my disgust, that Wireplay will no longer be putting up new ISOs. Fortunately, however, they'd put up XFree864.2, so I wasn't completely unhappy and now have the latest version of my guying system. Not, of course, that Panu cares.

While mindlessly posting at Whirlpool Forums, I discovered that I'd probably downloaded about 5.6GB this month. Eat that Telstra! You shove on a cap, and I start becoming a heavy user! MUAHAHAHA

The Leopard actually doesn't have a plot. Don't ask me why it's such a good book when you consider this.

Oh well, school tomorrow. Today is a good day to die.

Okay, then.

GNUstep works! I've got GWorkspace and Calculator to compile so far! It took a reinstall of Linux, but my partitioning is now better, and I've got free space for FreeBSD and something else.

On the other hand, my CGI is not working yet. No idea what's wrong. Not happy, Jan.

The Leopard is still a good book.

I'm tired, so I'll go to bed shortly.

If I had a working CD-rom drive, I'd be spending now re-doing my Linux installation with the intention of getting two things to work: GNUstep and the nVidia drivers for my nVidia video card.

Medea is just plain evil. She should've died at the end. There is no justice, is there? Sure, Jason wasn't faithful, sure Euripedes was a feminist, but that's not the way ancient plays are supposed to work! Baddies are supposed to die, not get away with everything, even when they are the main character. I guess I was predicting it though... Onto the next one, I guess...

Three days until the MSFC again. This is both good and bad, mainly bad I think though... it means school soon. ARGH, how will I cope with year 12!? ENTER of 70, here I come! That is, of course, assuming I perform at least as well in my subjects this year as I did in Revolutions last year.

Other things that occur to me about this year is that I turn eighteen... I can drink, drive and vote. Of course, I can't vote till the next election and I'm already enrolled so that last one doesn't make a difference. I've had the oppertunity to drink a number of times in the past and haven't taken them, so why will I suddenly—but I will be able to buy alcohol, and I haven't done much in the way of practising driving so I don't see how I could suddenly get my licence the very second I turned eighteen. But it's the thought that counts! Scared of things happening half a year and a year away...

Work today wasn't the best. I turned up, made a few mistakes, and wish I never went. Ah well, life's like that.

I've also added a link to this page in the homepage part of Whirlpool, so maybe people will start to read it. I could also post a post to slashdot so that people could see I'd done it I guess, but that could be asking too much...

And I did have another post to post yesterday but because of a bug in Opera 6.0 TP2 for Linux, I made a mistake. When will they finish this damn piece of software?? (One of the things in the post I didn't post was that Mozilla runs slow as a dog for me.)

That's all for now...

Tristan.

Well, I went to the dentist and read some of Euripedes' Media and now I'm compiling Mozilla 0.9.7 (finally worked up the guts to compile it...) and smelling dinner (smells like a barbie).

My teeth have improved, apparently. My upper wisdom teeth are up, but my lower ones are still thinking about it. I'll have them fischer sealed next time. I was also bombarded with radiation (two-yearly X-ray) and had an oldish (was there two or three appointments ago) hole filled.

I realised I had a few plays to read. The best way to read plays is out loud, even if you have no volume. That way, you can get more feeling in it. Euripedes isn't so bad, it was probably just the boring way everyone read The Women of Troy that put me off him last year. Just as well, I've got two of his plays to do this year ;). Still haven't read enough though, after dinner I'll get around to finishing it, I think.

I've got X talking to my Internet and Audio keys, they'll give a keysym now. I've even got WindowMaker to pop up its menus when I click on some of the keys! (I wanted to free up F11 and F12, but that meant Win-F1{1,2}, which wasn't that good. No idea how to fix up the rest. On the same front, I upgraded my version of WindowMaker, the new one has some cool features that I'm yet to need ;). I've also reconfigged it to make use of the clip more.

Well, that's all for now, more later perhaps. But then again, perhaps not.

Okay, so this is my first journal post. What should I write here?

I'm rather disappointed: GNUstep doesn't want to work for me; when I buy my CD-RW+DVD, I'll download and install Simply GNUstep because I so prefer simplicity!

I'm going to start reading my books. I've only finished one; I'll read another this week. Tomorrow, in fact. I intend to finish at least half of another book by 11.59 p.m. on Monday, 14 January 2002 EST. Check my country if you need to know who's EST that is, though.

I'm going to buy a Ricoh 32x10x8 + DVD, I think. It'll set me back nearly $300.00, but then I'll have a burner and a CD reader and a DVD reader, none of which I have at the moment which is really quite depressing, don't you think? And here was me thinking I'd have three CD-type drives in my computer...

Edit: or maybe I'll buy a Mac. Probably second hand at this stage, and definately with enough grunt to run OSX, but a Mac nonetheless.