I feel like I'm trying to treat the symptoms instead of the disease. Wednesday night was bad; last night and this morning (and potentially tonight) were no picnic, either. I don't really enjoy social gatherings (even small ones), but lately I'm not really enjoying being on my own, either; forget about any type of meaningful relationships. Without something to live for, life is a bit pointless. Honestly I just don't know what to do; I may need to seek professional help.