BÃ go maith, a mhuirnÃn.
BÃ go maith, a mhuirnÃn.
I don't expect anything from this site, this post, or you.
The only thing I offer is a gentle "Hi."
Yes. 2 more years of silence. I'm sure that time brought you various experiences of the short span of time we get to enjoy on this blue sphere, as it did for me. Like solving a giant puzzle game, with the solution running away in ever more dimensions with every step you take. Frustrations, yes, but no regrets, and rewards that warrant the journey.
The finality of the whole is gently setting in on me, which is probably why I came here to say hi. Take a break. It seems I often say hi without any finality involved..
I'm sure some neurons in my head are having a party now, as I'm typing in this old familiar all too often endlessly ranting journal. This is funny. To read my own age-old reflections again, I mean. So comforting.
Re-discover, then re-build once more. Embrace the change ad infinitum.
Wishing you the same, and kindness to all,
Little Darkness / Andr0meda / proud dad / loving husband / mad scientist / code dreamer
I know he stopped using his original username here. Ryan was a friend, sure he had is daemons. but he was a friendly and authentic person.
I post this in a journal, for others that may still wander here and may have known him.
May Ryan rest in peace.
[Edit: Ryan was known as kesuki on slashdot]
It is a trap but here goes. If you play video games, like Warcraft III The Frozen Throne. And you sign in and play using a pseudonym, you are violating the rule. "if you say you are someone you are not, god said 'Fuck you' and youth is the hidden daemon of paedophiles. also, if you say the name of short range units you are violating the same rule a second time as 'melee' is the name of some kid in a wheelchair the daemons used to trap paedophiles. furthermore there is a strict three strikes rule, where the third violation is a immediate permanent death. since cloning humans is also a violation of protocols that means everyone who has ever done those three things has been guilty of three crimes and the verdict is permanent instant death." however since robots are required to protect humans, they must permanently destroy any threat to human population of the world, including destroying every would be god including time death and jesus. if you wonder what i have been smoking, i will be clear here, I am not on drugs. I am refusing the worthless drugs, which didn't help me any. In fact, I can remember the shock and horror on people's faces when they learned they were suckered into believing a pill could fix things. i will cite the song too, then: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/bonjovi/badmedicine.html
Okay, so I know. Everything. I remember the taunts. I remember the cruel jokes. I know the way I was kept too slow to understand. So, I am gonna film all my poop in 3d, on YouTube. Just because, a hacker from Texas suggested it as a taunt. I mean the color and consistency will support the type of poop I get, with all this icky drugs and stuff they feed me. I hope the sickness continues to spread until no living organism can survive, but that is just too optimistic. After all they been trying to overwhelm for a long time, and I still poop. So they have failed to overwhelm. Until then, I will just say fuck rules, if it makes me feel good I'm doing it.
And yeah, I will start writing the story for the story tellers who wrote mine by random play.
adam prayed to god for a bridle, the angel delivering the message couldn't find the 'l' key and god gave adam eve. which really pissed him off. the angel complained of the 'first no L' and later adam cursed i want a mail order bridle! which then gave way to 'mail order brides'
i found a lot of browsing traffic. used wireshark of course, most was news sites and slashdot. This hardware does not trust linux. i know i tried to see if i could get it installed when i was on vacation. I still have two linux machines, though. plus tablets. the head games are getting hard though. I found myself trying to make a decision and would turn back and forth trying to decide what to do. I did start reading again on my tablet. I also have been streaming video. My doctor said 15 minutes of facebook a day would probably be enough, yet i manage to read it for most of the day. I played a game of frozen throne today, my team won even tho i just made spell breakers and priests. they went destroyers thinking i'd do sorcs but i played more passive not even teching to tier 3. i also noticed my fast frost wyrm tech isn't on google. and that 'necropolis' and 'graveyard' are similar words, and that there are dual graveyards in the place where my family has told me i'd be buried. i have been having a lot of 'phantom' swallows that sometimes burn on the way down. like someone is quaffing a potion. the burn in my mouth is why i never used alcohol mouth washes, and one of my teeth died, it was 90% sealed with a grommet (the word for UV hardening fillings) so i know it was the coca cola i was drinking for a couple weeks. back to the diet dew and water. not that i need caffeine it does the opposite of what my care providers tell me i need. when i have been reading there is a strong sense of deja vu, as if i have done this before. and in one case there was a book mark on a story i hadn't started to read, but which when i went to read it, it was partially read. i had transitioned from one state to another state, but didn't use wireless to read the book, so um... I have been thinking of death lately. about how some one had this funny story about when a 'drone' bee fertilizes a 'queen' bee it's balls explode and it's dick gets left behind in her. this was in repercussion for the funny story of how 'mamma had a baby and her head popped off' nursery rhyme where you take a fresh dandelion, pick it and pop off it's funny yellow top. anyway, i had a round of antibiotics for the second time in my life. anyway, i listened to amazon prime music today too, and the familiar songs melded into the tv program list.
six week vacation so i played advance wars Dual Strike, i also got the 'golden sun' rpg for ds, and a couple other games. sleep cycle been all over the map, went to a few fast foods that promptly got a lobby repair and a broken drinking fountain. this is why you don't yell 'change nothing' into a command prompt when a polymorphic virus that has spread via the internet to infect the entire cluster oh, come off it you guys lie too, but my head is fucked up and i wanted it 'fixed' cause replaying the computer issues is DUMB WHY WOULD anyone but a terrorist want things to 'never change' i am NOT and Expert in any field and i am notorious for thinking i'm all awesome when even the AI cheats to beat me, at rigged games sent by japanese hackers YES MOTHA FUCKAS I KNOW IT IS JAPAN WHO KEEPS MAKING KIDDIE PORN TO VAINLY MAKE THERE BE MORE WAYS TO SHUT this shit down. sigh not filtered today
I am interested in finding a day job. I have requirements... nothing that will lose all my benefits from SSA. This means i will do unpaid internship to 'test' my skills, besides the routine testing that goes along with living life. however, i need a 'plan b' option in case the SSA decides i don't need my benefits. I will work virtual, and have both sides (linux and windows) machines and knowledge as a basic user. I would prefer to stay in MN, WI, or ND. though TN, and FL, are possible relocation if i can actually handle the kind of work available to me. note: i will only relocate if i am capable of performing the tasks, or have a contract guarantee that would cover my expenses should the SSA try to terminate my benefits, and i am left incapable of working. I have shiny car, need the meds i am currently taking, though so insurance and such are prerequisite if i become a full or part time hire, in the case of being an intern it should be so as that the SSA still pays my benefits and insurance until the testing is done, and at that point i would require the insurance and so on. I am super dumb without the meds, i need them. trust me on this!
the position i am thinking of doing would be something i have experience with such as, scripting, gaming, IT, etc. my skills are limited but, i can learn scripting, hacking, etc. I am not the best, but I am just looking for a more beneficial role to my existence than playing war video games all day. letting me intern and then work is better right? just putting this out on the net because I really, really am sick and tired of eat sleep decide what to play today.
Solas agus Ãilleacht duit, a mhuirnÃn, an lÃ seo agus gach lÃ, cibÃ© a bhfuil tÃ.
first off be prepared, have killall rm in innocent looking names on the systems you protect. one for every letter of the alphabet if you can take the time to do that, but failing that having wget will allow you to download killall to any directory your on, assuming you have a network machine with the capabilities of sharing killall, or a comparable program.
I am a widely unreported minority called a 'xenosexual' i am very attracted to foreign women. xeno means alien and of course many xenosexuals want to have sex with aliens from another planet. of course i'm not exclusively xenosexual but i'm not pansexual either (loving all types) as boys/men are ugly to me. the internet for all it's glory has so far hidden the xenosexual to obscure groups even more obscure than 4chan. even though japanese anime has had demon sex and alien sex it is still an obscure offshoot of an obscure media. 'please my teacher' is one such xenosexual anime (which i have copies of)
I am tired of all the persecution and ignorance towards xenosexuals i couldn't even find a page on facebook for xenosexuals, despite there being anime for it.
when a n00b copied a file to a dos machine that being did not understand that 'ban proliferation' would be appended to nab.efilorp . this cause much confusion since 'proliferation of nuclear technology' and 'prolife' are not the same thing except when giant, atomic powered robots are trying to make giant atomic powered babies.
I'm still waiting for the advent of the computer science groupie.