I know i have a fear of heights, or Acrophobia as it seems to be called. That is, if i am in a high place, and i recognize this height, i become afraid. Afraid of what? Seems to be the fear of falling. It is somewhat irrational though, glass elevators do it to me, but not closed elevators. I think i have gotten over most of the fear. I recognize them, and sometimes challenge them. As time goes on, it bothers me less and less.
However, i have a different "fear". I have a problem looking up. This seems to be called Anablephobia, though i am not sure it is the same thing. Basically, if i am standing next to a high object, and look at that object straight up, my ankles hurt, and i begin to become overwhelmed, and almost fall over. If i hold on to something it hurts and i become dazed.
It is strange because:
I can look up at the sky.
I cannot look at a ball thrown directly upwards.
I can look at the top of a radio tower when at a distance.
I cannot look at the same tower (or even a smaller one) when standing right next to it.
I can look down from a fire escape to what is below me.
I cannot look up from a firescape to the level above me.
I remember trying to look up at the gateway arch in St. Louis. I nearly fell over. I tried again and again, and i just could not look up without it hurting.
So, this is a physical reaction to a "fear", or something. I am trying to overcome it, yet i haven't an idea how. It just seems so silly, i can hardly believe it affects me. Does anyone else have such issues?